How are you doing now fav doc?
Bad day yesterday wife's friend died also probs eith kids and grandkids we both have stroke history in the family hence don't want to add to her stress telling her about me.A maelstrom of misery but no gambles apart from odd lottery
Hi favdoc,
Sorry to read about your wife's friend, stay strong and just take one day at a time, abstaining from gambling will get easier, you certainly do not want it in your life at this time, it will makes everything worse.
Can understand you not wanting to burden your wife at this time, it's a tough call, and only you can choose how to move forwards,
Keep posting and venting it does help to release the mess that is going round in your head.
Take care
Suzanne xx
Ta Suzanne".........but rumination is constant. And heinous ,if that's the right word x ,are you a gambler or administrator
Hi favdoc,
I am a CG have been in recovery for 10 months now lol, You can do this one day at a time, it's not easy but abstaining and maintaining can be achieved and therefore we slowly but surely get our lives back as far as gambling goes, but I am finding other stuff slowly is falling into place because I am not in the grip of gambling, it makes everything worse.
It's not the answer to our problems whatever they are. Gambling is just a big ullusion to hide in, because in the end it fooks us up more than anything else.
Just take one day at a time with everything
Take care and stay safe
Suzanne xx
What was your addiction bingo slots? Sorry to be nosey x
Hey fav.
Mine was online slots. Crucified me, it broke my heart in the end why, because Inhad nothing left to give it,I was finished,and my underlying problems were still there, but worse , it dos'nt matter whether we plat online slots, horses, football, casinos, FOBTS, once thst addiction gets hold of us we are all in the same boat, on the way to total self destruction.
I was made redundant last November, I know the insecurity of that, just take one day at a time now with everything, and be kind to yourself, because this addiction is viscous, don't think too far ahead and don't think of the past S***e, a wise fellow gambler wrote on here recently look back but don't stare , you are doing great so far keep posting and venting.
Take care and think of you now. It's the only way forwards, and believe me you are worth it.
Suzanne xx
Well relapse..no gambling but 30-40 minutes verbal from wife on other matters...pass the sleeping pills ..really had enough
I now seem to be between the devil and the deep blue sea......more arguments at home...so mine and wifes blood pressure up and up.arguments are not about gambling but if she knew extent this could cause stroke/ heart attack I think.We both have family history of Tia's (mini strokes) .I think for us both to live we have to split although this will probably increase BP certainly my depression which may lead me back to alcohol abuse and of course more money worries.I mean I am still clean of gambling apart from minor lottery.I feel I should go to Docs or counselling but then is that going to put her Bp up.its a vicious bloody circle
Rumination is constant sleep is my only relief and I am longing for the sleep that never ends.....FINITO END OF STORY OVER AND OUT...MORTGAGE PAID NO MORE WORRIES NO MORE ARGUMENTS.for a very laid back person..some would say lazy I am so so wound up twitching of head getting worse.I truly think I am mentally ill but then if I am diagnosed will this put wifes bp up again.I am faced with this unbroken circle again and again.
Why is my life a mess".......answer me I am a mess a loser (not just gambling) if I had the balls to jump out that window 51 years ago all would have been solved! then again if I took up serious exercise it would be easier than the river,multi storey car park,just one sharp pain in the chest? FINITO END OF STORY OVER AND OUT THE SLEEP THAT NEVER ENDS NO MORE WORRIES.
Contemplating seeing doctor and ga meeting although I don't think gambling is the problem now....it's the fallout ...cash problems
Do any of us ever feel there is more than one of us in our heads?
Ok no posts for me........but had nice e mail from duncs. Not too suicidal tonight been to ta meeting depression alliance next week...realise there are people worse off than me...?But to tell wife would you risk A 50/50 chance on a heart attack or stroke I think not and she is older than me
Sorry meant ga meeting
Bo Bought Bo monitor blood pressure...not sure if bad or good move
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