Hi,
Firstly, Fantastic that 36 days has passed and you're gambling free (apart from the Lottery)
Secondly, Great to see you that you're sharing with everyone your frustration, anger, confusion, happiness and sadness. I can see you, like us all, need help, and you're doing the right thing....telling us, and yourself, about it...I'm no phycologist, but I've found that having a shout and admittance to my own 'failings' has really helped me cope with it all. Sleep is my worse time, because that's when I dream, my mind is still engaged in the casino and on the roulette wheel, I can't seem to disconnect my mind from it, it frustrates the hell out of me, but 42 days in (from a virtual lifeltime of gambling) I'm feeling good about myself, once again. I will be paying for my addiction / illness for years to come, but I have no regret about it, I look forward to achieving it and focusing on what I am winning by NOT gambling!
Focus on 1 thing at a time, and the rest slots in. I was made redundant 3 weeks ago, that was worrying and a time of great temptation to blame the stress of it all to have a flutter (possibly losing several thousand pound in the process!) but I stayed clean, which helped the situation, and I found myself another job, my mind was clear, my concience was clear and it made me happy which helped the situation!
Sometimes we beat ourselves up so much, we can't see the good in ourselves anymore, but we all have a good (and BAD) tale to tell....focus more on the positives, and share them, tell us about the negatives and your plans to turn them around. Don't lose faith in yourself and you don't lose the incentive to try to do something...anything, that's possitive. You will feel better for it!
Keep sharing....I look forward to reading your success stories...I've read your logs from the start, and I feel your pain!
Be strong and focused on the possitives!
All the very best
Dean
Give your six months off gambling before you judge your mental health. I thought I suffered an axiety disorder and panic attacks went to see a Doctor he said after giving me axiety medication to get six months off and then have a look at where I was. I now think my mental health is just fine. This disease/addiction/bad habit messes your head up so badly.
Too true! Same here, diagnosed as depressed many years ago, never took any medication because I didn't believe I was depressed or any medication would help...gambling made me the way I was...NO MORE!!!! I feel possitive about every aspect of life now I'm gambling free, even after such a short while...and that includes the lottery, it may only be a £1, but you still have the anticipation of checking the numbers after every draw, which feeds the demon! It's false hope that destroys you! I've wiped every aspect of 'chance' or 'luck' from my life, and smile about it!
Deanyboy wrote:
Hi,
Firstly, Fantastic that 36 days has passed and you're gambling free (apart from the Lottery)
Secondly, Great to see you that you're sharing with everyone your frustration, anger, confusion, happiness and sadness. I can see you, like us all, need help, and you're doing the right thing....telling us, and yourself, about it...I'm no phycologist, but I've found that having a shout and admittance to my own 'failings' has really helped me cope with it all. Sleep is my worse time, because that's when I dream, my mind is still engaged in the casino and on the roulette wheel, I can't seem to disconnect my mind from it, it frustrates the hell out of me, but 42 days in (from a virtual lifeltime of gambling) I'm feeling good about myself, once again. I will be paying for my addiction / illness for years to come, but I have no regret about it, I look forward to achieving it and focusing on what I am winning by NOT gambling!
Focus on 1 thing at a time, and the rest slots in. I was made redundant 3 weeks ago, that was worrying and a time of great temptation to blame the stress of it all to have a flutter (possibly losing several thousand pound in the process!) but I stayed clean, which helped the situation, and I found myself another job, my mind was clear, my concience was clear and it made me happy which helped the situation!
Sometimes we beat ourselves up so much, we can't see the good in ourselves anymore, but we all have a good (and BAD) tale to tell....focus more on the positives, and share them, tell us about the negatives and your plans to turn them around. Don't lose faith in yourself and you don't lose the incentive to try to do something...anything, that's possitive. You will feel better for it!
Keep sharing....I look forward to reading your success stories...I've read your logs from the start, and I feel your pain!
Be strong and focused on the possitives!
All the very best
Dean
sadly dean I blew a fair bit of redundancy through having a few months off and taking lower paid but more rewarding job,wife still doesn't know and daren't tell high bp stroke risk.Do you think you ever suffered from ADD..?
MichaelS wrote:
Give your six months off gambling before you judge your mental health. I thought I suffered an axiety disorder and panic attacks went to see a Doctor he said after giving me axiety medication to get six months off and then have a look at where I was. I now think my mental health is just fine. This disease/addiction/bad habit messes your head up so badly.
well to be honest I had MH probs before gambling,it was researching CG that led me to add,I do have many symptoms going back years,just blamed them on things that happened to me.
Favdoc.
Fella good to see you are embracing recovery, looking over the fence, I will say that for me the stumbling block comes back to your hidden financial losses, all the time you're keeping them a secret, gambling will offer an option for you to recoup them.
Through my own brutal experience I know what further gambling episodes would bring, further losses.
Honesty is a huge part of my own recovery, from it yes a great deal of anguish and emotional upheaval came initially, but the results of facing up to the truth is, I have gained control, something that I had gifted to my addiction for more than twenty years.
Add is as I have written something that I believe many addictive/compulsive people share.
Keep seeking the correct professional help fella, it can only have a profoundly positive effect upon your life.
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Well Dunc As I have said previous yes my losses are hanging around my head.couldnt tell wife for health reasons high bp etc and in taking my new less stressful less pay job I didn't do my sums right plus despite the fact that I think I have add and I asked her which add symptons applied to me and she scored me 32/36 with no prompting she still thinks I am over diagnosing.to be fair to me I worked backwards from CG why I do it which led me to add,I even think my brother has it.
The way ADD is managed & the way compulsive gambling is managed successfully are almost identical. Try a GA group the 12 step program on offer to all will help manage & arrest both problems
Oh dear ruminating galore.....bad depression ....not suicidal..quite....no energy ...think might be depression with bit of virus..slept ythis afternoon
I had to take a much lower paid job (50% drop) 3 years ago through ill health, I blew all the money I got paid off for leaving, as well as a very substantial savings sum, (trying to claw some back) I think I knew what was making me feel the way I did, no group 'therapy' or sharing, I felt, would ever be able to help or stop me doing it....I have now took the steps required, been 100% honest with my wife, step mum, and close friends and given complete power to my wife of my finances...she has changed and is the only person who knows all my PIN numbers, along with my step mum, all the numbers to stop blocks on my computer (through K9) so I have no gambling related sites allowed, I can't even try because she knows the number, and it's an easy step to take to help take control.
I feel you have to trust your wife that she can absorb the fact that you need help, and she is the only one that is close enough to offer the support you need. However, it sounds like you're doing well, but you're also suffering because of the fear of being honest, which is adding to the pressure of it all. Its a tricky one to call, but never lie to someone that trusts you, and never trust anyone that lies to you, is my new saying! I'm living by that, and it's working both ways!
Keep us posted on your success!
All the very best,
Dean
And also....My Grandfather, father and both my brothers were, have been and still are, gamblers....you can't tell me it's not in your Genes....but that's no excuse not to conquer it! My eldest brother has, not gambled for over 20 years, but he has got 7 children so said he could no longer afford to lose, my father passed away 3 years ago. He had parkinsons, which apparantly, quite a large percentage of parkinsons sufferers have been, or are, gamblers, which is all neurological related....
me the
Sun is shining still very sleepy and depressed if I have to be honest,it's not just gambling although the monies lost takes it toll,as I've said I've had abuse failed relationships etc failed education despite being bright kid which I now put down to add,although sone therapist sound c**P
I worry that my therapist may be no good
day@atime wrote: The way ADD is managed & the way compulsive gambling is managed successfully are almost identical. Try a GA group the 12 step program on offer to all will help manage & arrest both problems
does seem to be somewhat linked to religion though mate
Is that your experience from attending or are you another who dismisses it without ever actually trying it. You do not have to be or become religious for it to work. I would much rather people said i cant be a*s ed to attend that it seems like hard work than trot out childlike objections about it being religious
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