Finally getting better

Hey mate ty so so much for the quick reply, nearly home now, and your totally correct nothing to gain only set backs and then my study hours will be for nothing, going to watch only fools and horses i think have recorded loads on sky plus so will watch those while studying, they never fail to make me feel good, ty for having my back.
Hows things with you?

I'm good thanks Rob got a got a week or so off work and got a nice wedding to go to this weekend so looking forward to that. You can't go wrong with a bit of only fools timeless comedy.

Take it easy bud don't do to much study.

Sounds really nice hope you have a great time and make use of the free bar lol

Really struggled not to gamble yesterday was really hard not to slip, but oldhamktf talked sense in to me and really helped me to resist, so got home when on the evening chatroom here, wish was so nice, and then did a few hours study.
So again i just want to say ty for all your support everyone.
And happy to say I am still gamble free.

Thanks Rob but you need to take the credit for not succumbing to the urge, you already made the decision not to gamble and j just reinforced that decision.

KTF

hey al hope all is well, really sruggled this weekend but managed to fight it, was very hard though

just kept thinking if I gamble my mind is going to get so dark and my work and study will bare the affects of it.

went for a walk this morning to get my morning coffee, the shop i go to is next to a betting shop, so i took with me the exact amount for coffee 10 cigs and top up my travel card, left all my bank cards and other cash at home, as i walkd past i saw the place full of people, and i kept thinking that was me and if i dont battle on it will be me again. so walked past had a lovely coffee,then got the bus home, i feel really good at the moment, and the rest of the day iam going to watch the marathon of carry on films that are on the tv and will study aswell, also got paid on thursday so i think thats why i was struggling so much, but have paid my bills rent etc, and have the bulk of my wages remaining, so i should have hopefully a comfortable month, as i have not done what i did most months and gamble most or all of it away as soon as i got it

as always thanks for the support Rob

rob27 wrote:

hey al hope all is well, really sruggled this weekend but managed to fight it, was very hard though

just kept thinking if I gamble my mind is going to get so dark and my work and study will bare the affects of it.

went for a walk this morning to get my morning coffee, the shop i go to is next to a betting shop, so i took with me the exact amount for coffee 10 cigs and top up my travel card, left all my bank cards and other cash at home, as i walkd past i saw the place full of people, and i kept thinking that was me and if i dont battle on it will be me again. so walked past had a lovely coffee,then got the bus home, i feel really good at the moment, and the rest of the day iam going to watch the marathon of carry on films that are on the tv and will study aswell, also got paid on thursday so i think thats why i was struggling so much, but have paid my bills rent etc, and have the bulk of my wages remaining, so i should have hopefully a comfortable month, as i have not done what i did most months and gamble most or all of it away as soon as i got it

as always thanks for the support Rob

You not alone Rob, especially if you use all the help on here and in GA. thanks tri x

Still not gambling,
But started cutting again.
I know it sounds weird and abnormal but its a way of release.

I sit alone in a empty room,
In a chair no one around,
My sleeve was rolled, skin exposed a feeling of comfort rose.
The razor pushed hard then dragged back, the familar sting is once again back.
The comfort and release soon arrives, blood starts to trickle down familar lines.
Inside i feel dark but yet awake,
The numbness and sorrow on their return their wait.
For the brief moment of blood and pain,some control i do gain.
The heart break, failures, bad memories and fears, do for that moment disapear.
I dont want to feel so hurt inside,so i counter it with pain from the outside.

Rob,

The pain you keep holding won't leave you alone
The rolling of sleeve & dragging blade along
Release might be here but not for long tho
The memories, pain, regrets will come back
It's down to you to stay on this track.
Keep pain alive or face it head on.
They both pretty painful
Just with different goals...
You can set yourself free, you know it yourself
And that doesn't mean you inflicting more harm.
Keep hand within reach
Keep shouting for help!
Those scars might be here to remind you the past
But my dear friend - you can do it - just ask!
Keep looking and searching, forgive your own self
There wasn't a lot you could change in ur past.
I will be most honest....
I'm feeling your pain
...however the blade is not the answer you should take.
There are many souls who are feeling the same
But each every one are fighting their way.
Show you some kindness, don't go this alone
One day you will look back with understanding of this all.
You don't have to suffer, you did plenty of that
It's time to stand bk up and fight the road ahead!

I see you as fighter
And know you'll succeed
Keep racking those days up
And most importantly - believe ☺

S x

I can't add any tutor what Sandra said

KTF

I agree with the above Rob. Can I just add that it might be worthwhile to keep adding things to your arsenal. GA, counselling, anything. You are stuck. You know you are not in a good place and you need some help... everybody does! Try anything and everything available to you... what do you have to lose? I saw a quote the other day

"My mind is like a bad neighborhood... I try not to go in there alone".

You don't need to be alone Rob 🙂

xx Cathy

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Last week we posted a reply to you on the forum, including a link to the NHS webpage on getting medical assistance to support your well-being if you have been self-harming: http://www.nhs.uk/conditions/self-injury/Pages/Treatment.aspx

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Hi Rob,

V pleased to hear you're in good form! Well done on your exams!!! Hard job deffo pays off ☺..good on you....now - keep chasing the dreams of yours - you're more than worth it !!!!

Go get them man - claim your life bk in the process of course..it is for living!

S x

How you doing Rob? Don't forget where your diary is if the flame starts flickering! You're not alone when you're here!

Hey all ty for all the kind words and support as always
And hopeful soul ty a really amazing post.
Ty for the reminding kick ODAAT

So an update as i have been absent for a while, i have been working every day then studying in the evening, work load is tough and a bit behind because writing to many study notes, so have to revise what i have already learnt and then also study the new material , so have been stressed lol.

Mood is good and postive, no cutting for ages , slight urge to cut when things get tough but not giving in, no gambling no urge to not even on my mind

So all is good,
Payday tomorrow and happy in the knoweldge if i get a sudden urge to gamble i cant becuase of self exclusion.
Have a big exam in 2 weeks so foucsing on that.
As always hope you all are well
ROB