Some good positive stuff coming out here Rob. As you have seen no judgements on here. Keep sharing I can read on your words what a profound effect it has had on you and on this forum as a whole.
KTF
Hey all,
Another good day, had the day off work so got to be lazy for the morning, now having a cig been studying for 5 hours so really happy about that, on the inside of my study folder i have written in big letters NEVER GIVE UP and a couple of einstein quotes, and in the corner i have been putting a series of 1s to represent each day i have not gambled it actually gives me some excitement to look forward to marking the next one.
As always thank you all for all the kind words and support, and as always if there is any advice, support i can give you please ask
Rob ( still gamble and cut free)
Still feeling positive and studying lots, its so nice not to have the ability to gamble on my laptop avaliable to me, so all i think of now when i turn it on is time to study.
Also no visits to bookies as i have self excluded.
Hey no maybe ty for the kind words,and yes it does feel amazing. Hows things with you?
Glad to hear you are well sweetheart, i know our road to recovery is a hard one, but at least we have made the first few steps, glad to know you are still gamble free x
Hi Rob, been wanting to post for quite a while but what the hell do I say...Your courage astounds me & I take my hat off to you for the hours you are putting into your books, not to mention 2 days for the periodic table...WOW!
You should be very proud of you - ODAAT
Hey ODAAT ty you so much, your words humble me, i cant even tell you how much your post got to me, in the best way of course.
Honestly ty so so much. I guess admitting to the cutting and other stuff was such a relief, i cant lie its still hard to resist the urge to cut but iam managing to do so.
I know i am capable of good things when iam focused the self excluding from sites and bookies has helped so so much, and been able to help clear my mind of those distractions.
So i still take it one day at a time and try not to stress about things that have been. Again ty so so much for your touching words and if i can ever help you in the same way, iam here
Rob
The horse to place, a ball to land, that miracle card
To win the hand.
Its all we think and all we want, but its
Everything we really dont.
What comes with it is ups and downs, followed
By the deluge of shame in which we drown
Its poisenend tide pollutes our mind, and destroys
Relationships with all we find.
Friends, family, lovers are all pushed away,
Untill alone and broken we remain.
Our only friend that stays by our side,
Is the gambling demon who we constantly fight
It reassures us that we are right, to continue
On our destructive plight
Its every body elses fault its certainly not mine
That we end up broke all the time.
Its because of their stress and hassles we feel
Gambling is the only escape and way to heel
Good day today finished work and got home by 6pm, just finished a 6 hour study session.
No urges to gamble as self exclusion has really helped take the urge away, plus things are getting better within myself,
So in a good mood and good place.
Hope all you guys are well
Rob
Things are good in a good place at the moment, study catch up is going well got 6 hours done sunday 4 hours last night at 10 hours today.
Gambling thoughts are quite non excistent at the moment as our destructive thoughts.
Hope everyone is well
Rob
Good stuff Rob great to see some clarity in your thoughts. Makes me smile to be honest it makes me proud of not giving up on you and chasing you down and even more proud that you are not giving up.
You've switched a light on somewhere from that dark place you where a few months ago things are looking so much brighter.
KTF I did.
Ty mate for not giving up on me and kicking me up the xxxx when i needed it,
So today was in a area that was not in myself exclusion zone, got a sudden urge to gamble, but then i instantly remebered all the pain depression etc that i have felt cause of it, and i did not even go to the door, i just walked straight past.
That i am really proud off.
Also as well as working my 9-5 job i have got in 27 hours study in since sunday, as soon as i have caught up i will ease back to normal study hours
Great work walking on by 🙂 I remember that feeling all too well...A little bubble of pride is a huge step on this journey of recovery!
& I continue to doff my hat to you for the hours you are putting into the books...You've done more this week than I think I did my entire school life :-0 Relieved to hear that this is a short term need & hope even if it's just getting 5 mins of fresh air that you are factoring in some you time!
Keep winning - ODAAT
Have just finished work and really have the urge right now to gamble,been having it all day its really strong and doing my upmost to fight it, i can not give in to it. So just standing at the bus stop going to get the bus home, and do some study and watch a film that will really make me laugh, I WILL NOT GAMBLE I WILL NOT GAMBLE
Nothing to gain by having a bet Rob, just think how much better you have been feeling this last couple of weeks. It would only knock you back not just on the gamble free days but also in the positive mindset you are starting to develop. Get home have study and get the popcorn out and watch that film. What are you going to watch?
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