First day to end this addiction

Hi Matt, thanks for dropping by! It has been a thoughtful week due to various happenings but I'm feeling extremely positive thanks to checking into here 2-3 times a day and enjoying being GF. I bought my daughters prom dress this week and felt quite emotional but happy that I hadn't gambled that money or was saving it to gamble. Sounds like things are going in the right direction for you, I'm so happy for you, I've read quite a bit of your diary and sincerely admire your strength and determination. Have a great rest of this sunny day, take care S 🙂

Hi Sharon

A proud moment for you I am sure and what a nice memory for your daughter too. When she looks back at photos, she will always remember the dress her Mum bought her.

So much else to spend our money on and that is the way it stays.

Thanks Sharon, yeah it has been pretty traumatic at points but I truly have never been so happy. I have done a lot of hard work on myself these past few months, it has been very painful but I have been blessed with a fresh start, the beginning of the rest of my life.

Stay strong Sharon and I hope your daughter enjoys her prom,

Matt

Thanks for your thoughtful and kind words, this sounds cheesy but I love a happy ending and it sounds like you're well on the way to yours. It'S been a privilege and inspirational to read your diary Matt, I must admit I possibly haven't opened up ad much as some on this site but just being about to check in, have a rant when needed and converse with others just let's me know I'm not alone and I can get through this, Have a great GF my friend and thanks again, take care S 🙂

Anytime Sharon, you are doing well so have some pride in that. Every day gamble free is a day richer.

Sooooo day 78, hello 🙂 Thank goodness for this site and checking in everyday, I think this is the only thing that keeps me GF as well as wanting to turn my life around. Have had some real low points this week but just need to plough on and keep going. A couple of the diaries I follow have relapsed(I'm not judging in anyway here)and the description of how this makes them feel encourages me to hang on in there. Have a peaceful and GF weekend, S 🙂

Unfortunately feeling super low today 🙁 I know that the only was to slowly get out of the mess I'm in is to stay GF though. Instead of struggling alone I called the helpline last night and am organising counselling. I'm just so fed up of the worry and guilt that I'very created part of my head thinks will life ever be any different? But from reading other diaries I know things will change also as I resist gambling. Hope everyone is having a GF weekend, take care S:)

Sharon41 wrote:

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Hello Sharon and welcome Thanks Dean0 I think I'm ok, have just had enough of the emotional rollercoaster and awful feelings of guilt. Main measure I have taj en which sounds n rental! ) is I'm basically keeping no money on my debit card so in the evenings I have literally no money to gamble with:)

How are you getting on so far ?

Maybe you would like to share your story with us? What practical measures have you taken or is there any advice you would like ? Hope you're enjoying your weekend

Deano

hi how do I post my own story

feel so bad

Hi Jane1772

Welcome to the forum you will find lots of support on here from others who understand how you feel.

To post on the forum go to the New members intros part of the form and navigate to the bottom of that page where you will see a box that says New topic. Click on that and it will open a new window where you will be able to post.

You are also very welcome to contact our helpline on 0808 8020 133 and speak to one of the advisers who will listen to your concerns and offer support. The helpline is open everyday 8am until midnight.

Take care

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Thanks administration and best wishes Jane 🙂

Thanks so much Maybe, the recovery process for me has been so much more than just about gambling. Will keep updating ref the counselling. Have a peaceful, GF weekend S 🙂 x

So after having a hangover that ranks in my top 5 worst hangovers yesterday and feeling low and doomed, today I'very woken up fighting my corner!! Have a free day, so have made a list to keep busy, will update my budget then in the afternoon give myself a couple of hours to relax. I'm determined to stay GF and will not let this awful addiction damage my life anymore than it has. Have a great Sunday, over and out x

So spend yesterday keeping busy, making plans and remaining GF, Then wake up this morning feeling, tearful and hopeless. I've always considered myself to be a strong, independent type but maybe I've just drummed that into myself because at the moment all I want is someone to rescue me. Blimey gambling really f***s your head up, When I walk past the 2 bookies on the way to work today I feel like bursting in like a loon and screaming 'get out while you csn' But I have the lifeline of counselling which I have number for and Payplan, so will take a reality check, give myself a mental slap round the face and press on. Happy Monday everyone and let's all stay GF S:)x

Well Done Sharon , your a star getting brighter every day . 81 Days is brilliant . I am way behind you on the recovery road but it will always please me to see you in the distance still going strong .... stephen x

Thanks so much Stephen, these words mean a lot! I certainly didn't feel great earlier but realistically there is no instant fix to the damage gambling has caused but by being practical and not giving in is the only way to get there slowly. It always makes me feel better to read positive posts like in your diary, so thank you! Here's to stay GF and take care S 🙂