First day to end this addiction

Evening Sharon, So great to read that things are still on track and even at the end of a low day you came out on top GF, You have the right mind set and will power to beat this, and every day is a step closers to even greater happiness and one step further away from your past.

Take care,

Chris

Thanks Chris, although under s**t circumstances this has been a huge learning curve for me. I have discovered a lot about myself (good and bad)and want to resolve the bad stuff which will then help me stay GF. Congrats on your 64 days and onwards and upwards!! Take care and here's to escaping this vile addiction S 🙂

Hi people

Was a a aah really can't 't get my head round this week!! Have been feeling really emotional on waking up over the last few days, but feel better as the day goes in Seem to have almost a fear of something bad happening to me? But have a counselling assessment Thurs which is something I thought I would never do. Still GF thankfully and slowly seeing a financial recovery. Have a lovely GF evening people S x

Hi Sharon

Thanks for your support on my diary, it’s really appreciated. I see you've past the 80 day mark congratulations. I’m thinking about going down the counselling route again. I got some in the early days of my addiction and it really helped. I can relate to that hamster wheel feeling. Thanks for your positivity and ongoing support. Onwards and Upwards

Thanks Westsider, you are totally welcome 🙂 I've gone from feeling isolated and like an island to realising the more support the better. Also anything that helps to stay GF is the right thing to do. Take care my friend S 🙂

83 Days - Sharon i am so pleased for your courage , strength and resilience . I would like to be at that stage but than I would be 56 days older which I definitely don't want .

Your reference to the island reminded me of the Simon & Garfunkle hit ' AND A ROCK FEELS NO PAIN AND AN ISLAND NEVER CRIIES ' , guess a lot of us have felt that way during traumatic periods of our life .

Take care . Wishing you happy days ahead of fun and adventures ... stephen

Hi Sharon, just wanted to echo Julie's post a few days ago...Good on you for reaching out to the helpline & accepting that you don't have to do this alone. I don't imagine that was @ all easy? Not sure if you've read anything from I wished but she was all over the site when I arrived & I remember discussing with her the speed @ which emotions change (could have been off site) which is why she always called it a rollercoaster.

Being a single parent is incredibly hard work & you have spent so long looking after & being everything to your baby that I think you may have forgotten how to let people look after you? I don't know what real life support if any you could lean on but don't be afraid to bare some of your soul here if you ever feel like a release. I think we're collectively pretty good @ catastrophizing, both generally & about forthcoming events...Keep working @ facing your fears & don't let the paper tigers mess with your head.

You're doing great. Keep fighting - ODAAT

Yes yes and yes! Thank you so much ODAAT I agree with everything here 🙂 I have my counselling assessment tomorrow and for once I'm putting myself first to find some kind of inner peace (have I just quoted from Kungfu Panda lol) Since joining this site have opened up a can of worms in my head and heart but am glad I have done it otherwise I may have spent more time being sad, lonely and addicted to gambling. I haven't told anyone close to me yet but will open up at some point, I know now I am not superwoman and it'S ok to ask for help Things are sooooo much better when you don't gamble it'S like living a different life. Have a great GF big hus S 🙂

Thanks Maybe finding some kind of balance and self wotrth has been a huge bonus to this awful mess I have got myself into. Again the support from yourself and others means the world to me. Will let you know how tomorrow goes, take care S x

Hi Sharon.

Just checking in and good to see that you are still g.f. Take care and remain strong.

Our Lady

Hello Our Lady, all ok here thanks....have counselling assessment this afternoon and feel relieved to break down the wall and reach out for help Amazing 109 days for you, inspirational!! Thanks and take care S 🙂

So had my counselling assessment, was really useful but felt very vulnerable at first spilling the beans to a stranger!! Although couldn't have asked for a more considerate and understanding Lady, also it made me realise it'S ok to ask and receive help. Still GF on day 84 and have no intentions to undo the good progress, despite having a very up and down week Take care and stay GF S 🙂

No worries, this forum has helped me to open up and from read other diaries the comfort of knowing I'm not alone is so important. Indeed a lot of us forget to self maintain and we need to take on board that we deserve to be happy and have peace of mind. Take care too and thanks S 🙂 x

Hi Sharon41

I've just been catching up with the forum as i've not been on for almost 2 weeks so its great to read that you are doing ok.....

If my maths add up you must be on day 86 today gamblefree...Wow just wow ..well done you...you should be very proud of yourself .....Also you taking the step of opening up to a stranger with the counselling assessment takes a lot of guts ...so again fair play to you for that...I myself have issues of bottling everything up so i can appreciate what that took to even walk into the appointment...

Keep up the great progress and many thanks for taking the time to post on my diary...it means a great deal when you see others urging you on whilst fighting there own demons....so many thanks for all your support and posts on my diary..

You hang on in there....i'm willing you on to the 100 day mark ....

All the very best ...

Londonbloke