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LOL hoping results turn out real good on that test. LOL

Hell weather here is just nothing but strange. Usually 80's and 90's this time of year and not much for cooling off periods. Tons of rain this time of year and yeah use to all that in the spring but the summers are normally pretty dry. And yeah makes for baaaaad ghost pepper growing. LOL them things like it hot and beginning to wonder if I'll even see one pepper off that plant. Sh-it looks like a barren weed with like 8 leaves at best. LOL LOL LOL But yeah ain't loosing hope dam it. LOL

Glad all is looking up for ya girl and better days a head for sure.

Hi S

So pleased you are living and loving it make today as good as yesterday by not feeding that nasty addiction

Have a good stress free day

Suzanne xx

Hi Sandra

Good to see your back on track was never in doubt for me your too strong to let thus addiction get the better of you

Won't be long to your hols and most importantly that time off work

Catch up with you very soon

Castle2

Fantastic Sandra,

Keep hold of that stick and keep beating that cr** we call addiction away. Your made of strong stuff and you can do it... I just know you can.

Take care

Blondie xxx

Hi Sandra,

Thank you for the lovely post. Im doing well......And soooo proud!

Hey least I have some quality reading when I finish work eh!

Keep going......Looks like life is on the up.

Womble xx

Thanx all dear soldiers xx

Sometimes it is easier to bury ur head in a sand. But not today. Enough said lol

Choosing life...till the last breath 🙂

S x

ps. Blondie can't find ur tread lol..you, as always u are fine example of doing things right 🙂 sure you are more than in a good place. Keep it up and thanx for touching the base x

Hey girl and yeah think i really need to get a new tapping phone here causes Yup my email Is starting to keep pace with the snail mail. Lol but first things first and Yup them car loan gangsters will be paid first before any frills come my way. LOL Hell down to like $2,100 left on that loan and Yup mailing them $700 Wednesday. Yeah should bring that loan down to like $2,000 with any luck. LOL LOL LOL guess not quite that bad but close.

No more swirling heads in crapper girl and lets keep our heads out of the stink tank. LOL

Hey soul and thanx. Try to delete all emails and that should give more breathing space for your phone lol and I guess all will b speeded up then lol

Yep, another day in a land of living and head feels clearer. I am one hard job when it comes to negativity lol. I seem to overreact on things and stay in a sewer for longer than I should.

Live a learn, am being kind to myself once again.

No gambling - it can go to hell!!

Day at a time, enjoy ur weekend all

S x

ps. Couple of days ago I made the best decision to strengthen my own blocks in this journey. Nasty tablet has gone far away from my view and is safely (if not smashed lol) hidden by the the most kindest soul and good friend I trust my life with. Thank you dear soldier 🙂

Hey girl and yeah deleted a lot of them emails as I go but tend to keep a lot too concerning bills and such. LOL Hell takes way to long to log on to my laptop. This phone has seen better days I'm sure and could do that contract stuff for a new one. But yeah ya seem to pay more than double a month for a payment compared to the pay as ya go plan. So yeah sooner buy them phones out right than be stuck to a contract for 2 years. LOL Yeah all in good time i guess.

Another cloudy day here and the rain threatens again. LOL Hell seen enough of that lately and nothing new I guess. Only on first cup of Joe and stayed up way to late into them wee hours of the morning. Yup gonna take a few more to be sure before any life comes to this body. LOL

Glad that iPad is history and not a threat any more. Guess there's always enough temptation out there and sure don't need it within arms length. Hope ya have a great day and just keep enjoying them good things.

Hi S

Your doing great and removing that tablet is certainly a good move my laptop must be covered in cobwebs now

Lol It's in OHs locker at work and it can stay there

Take care

Suzannexx

Sandra

keep making the right choices in life my dear friend and life will offer you rewards far greater than those found through gambling.

Your resolve to live grows

My advice keep enjoying it

new mantra in operation

I DID WIN BECAUSE I DID STOP

enjoy it

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi Sandra... it takes a bit of courage to re-commit after a gamble... but you have done just that and you seem back in positive head space. In the past its taken me up to two weeks to come back to this place after a fall, some people don't come back at all... but for you and for me we are here and continuing to fight the good fight. Take care.. S.A 🙂

Hey and thanx Soul, S, Duncs and SA

Dear diary,

Well, we all say we put honesty on these pages. Hell right and it is not gonna work other way. People in this recovery are most honest people and the respect I have for all of you is huge. No masks or fakeness, we all unite here. Supporting each other on good and bad days. Recovery is bespoke and no matter how hard reality is, we look ahead. There is no point of looking back.

Point of the ramble - we keep making the choice for us, our future and dreams ahead.

Hav a look in a mirror dear soldiers and show that beaming smile to yourselves, you are doing it and no f.... will ever get you down.

No gambling my way, blocks in place and mindset as strong as concrete lol.

Have a good day all and keep up the good work

S x

LOL Yeah, guess these fingers need to be excused sometimes cause yeah they know not what their doing apparently. LOL

But yeah Sun out and shining here in the states for a change. Grill will meet with some fine marinated smokey apple chops and a few cold ones to boot. Guess some skull die be calling out for attention too and hey may just dye it too match these hard rock lips. LOL LOL LOL Yup 4 of them was plenty and not sure I'm up for more today.

Guess a phone call to my boy is on order and yeah that kinda always proves interesting too. Guess i never know what to expect there either and just hoping things are more sorted with him.

But yeah girl hope ya have a great day.

Hi Sis!

Still lolling around this beautiful place. Will be leaving for home sometime tomorrow. Back to work on Tuesday and of coarse dreading that. What can I say? You sound resolved and fantastic! Long may it continue. And we both know that s hit days will happen but we'll fight like crazy cause that's how we roll! Sending you positive vibes from my sunny space by the beautiful sea. -joanxxx