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Lol, lol, lol... P limping up the driveway. Smell of roasted chicken and veggies wafting through the house. Gambling? Me? Nonsense! I have too many better things to do. Thanks for the chat Sis. Must be midnight or better over there! Talk soon. Gonna go chow down. -joanxxx

P.S. Thanks again, for the chat it really did help!! ((((Sis))))

Hi Sandra

Hope all is well in your life, i see your still kicking it in the teeth. Thanks for your posts and relentless support, great to have friends such as you.

Dark Place P.S i am trying to smoke Carla out, hope she will re appear soon

Hi S

Hope you are keeping strong positive and sane

Take care

Suzanne x

So worried you took what I said in my diary the wrong way as I have always said everyone should be honest and throw out all the s**t and garbage on here as often as they need and have done it many times myself. I don't think it is negative, in fact I think it is cathartic.

Just sometimes when I am in a low mood myself it fills me with sadness to read some of the heartbreaking stories on here when people can see no future for themselves, especially when they are so young, but I make my choice to read them and can only hope that being on here offers them the support that will make a difference.

What I am trying in a long winded way to say is don't ever apologise for what you write on your diary.

Hope this weekend is happier for you as we all keep on keeping on.

xxx

Thank you all xx

Still soul searching, still lookin for changes and still keeping on 🙂

No gambling and was very refreshing not to give it a thought over the past few days.

Take care all

Day at a time...the choice is ours best not mess up 🙂

Sandra x

Sun always comes out after the rain

Hi S

Well done on making right choices keep going stay strong and positive

Suzanne x

Hey girl and just 2 more days for you and that much deserved vacation looking you in the eyes. Hope today and the next go by quick for ya and nothing but clear sailing that way.

Take good care of yourself Sandra, you are a long time dead ! do something meaningful with your life, we don't have much time ! gambling is futile and kills us inside out ! move on and be better within, I am trying hard myself, not easy i know Dark Place

Thank you all xxx

Hi Sandra,

Going home after so long is going to be hard, I know that more than just a few weeks means I get lots of hugs and kisses from my mum when I go back. Two years is a really long time, and anyone will change in that time, so your parents will not be expecting exactly the same person to come back through the door. You can choose to be the person that has been beaten down and defeated by this addiction, or you can be the positive person who has risen back from it and is now building for the future again.

You do a tough job, and you do well to get through and keep it together.

As I've mentioned by email, embrace this chance to go home and see your family, its where you'll always get love and acceptance.

Ryan x

Hi S

Absense from family is hard and to not have seen them for 2 years is a long time that alone is tough for you

You need this break and it will do you the world of good when you do see them hopefully it will change your whole outlook on your life and that has to be positive

Different surroundings and new beginnings

Take a deep breath and enjoy your time with your family where you will get assurance and love

They will be quite nervous to see you too but the ice will soon be broken

Suzanne xx

Thanx Ryan and S

What i put this morning shouldn't of go down and i do apologise to you all who read it.

Anyway, no gambling and life is ticking by.

We can only create new future...no turning back

Thanx again all, keep up the good work, march on strong and confident, keep positive and determined and most importantly - make urs and ur loved ones life better with abstaining and maintaining. B proud soldiers - you are doing it.

One day at a time

Sandra x

Hey girl and think i drank enough coffee the haze be starting to lift now. LOL hope your enjoying that time off and all is going good for you. Monday and Yup can't get no worse than that when ya gotta work em anyway. LOL Lol Lol take care girl.

Hi S

Thanks for your kind words

Enjoy your holiday

Take care

Suzanne xx

Well thanx girls

Dear diary

Having troubles with connection so not gonna go round every tread cause that will take me a week lol. Just wonna thank you all ..to name a few : Sis, DF, Duncs, Suzanne, Ryan, Soulie, bear, DP, Carla, Womble, Freda, DN, and many many more for all your support, help, advice and wisdom you have shared with me all along. This place been magic for me, i learned a lot of things about myself and life itself. I will b forever thankful for all of you and wish you never ending strength, belief and peace. Slay the dragon till it can't breathe again - you are all worth wonderful things and harmony in your life. Be proud soldiers and keep reaping the benefits abstinence gifts. It is out here to take, don't be shy 🙂

So today i did something out of nowhere. I've got all my hard earned money together and paid off my only existing loan. Don't wonna b owning money to anyone.

More to that even if not too sure about it I'm gonna say - i will never gamble again.

Wish u all positivity and harmony going forward.

Take care all

God bless and may peace stays with you all

Sandra xx