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Hey, thank you castle, just reposted 🙂 good morning diary and what a day yesterday!! Let me tell you i officially believe in miracles! Something awesome going on this end and feel soo strong, confident and positive. Simple things in life can bring so much joy and most of them are for free!! 🙂 feeling fully rested (even after 13hrs shift lol) and full of energy. (Hope that tablet stopped working lol lol and it is my natural self)..as of pic...hmmm..guys 🙂 as i said Halloween has gone and truly not up to scaring the nation with no occasion lol. Right, on a very serious note - no gambling. It's been a week now and i am back in a battle field more than ever....with my honourable gang alongside 🙂 let's do it soldiers! !!! Have a good and safe day..soon be weekend and time to enjoy ourselves without work stressing us out...unless you are Shiny and working weekends 😉 (sorry girl, ya know i do so every two weekends also. ..we simply too dedicated for work). Over and out, will catch up with many of you soon. S x

SANDRA So good to read that you are in a strong and positive place, long may it continue, you certainly deserve it.

Well done on one week under your belt.

Suzanne xx

Hey, thanx Suzanne :-)...hello diary..hmm where to start? I am here and alive to begin with lol..hell, i must be born under lucky star cause pulling into my driveway bloody brakes failed!! Lol..yep..i guess i wanted to do a little shortcut and get in through the living room lol..f**k..can't see much in the darkness at the minute and hope that wall still standing lol..nah..only a little nudge to the house actually, but my little drive around will need some attention by the looks of it. Hmmm . Sigh....anyway, all is ok and a bit of mental night and feel knackered. Was threatened by a manager to get a disciplinary. .lol..hell, firstly i refuse to take blame which wasn't mine and secondly he can put his disciplinary where sun don't shine lol..i will settle with soft counselling for the starters if it comes to it..so..it was kind of funny moment where my manager tried to run through the area and save some quite expensive product from landing on the floor..hell..if he have changed into second gear he might of got there in time lol..so..total floor waste come to 1000 quid...Brilliant then its not out of your pocket i guess..still let's blame someone and why not Sandra lol lol..oh well, ranting here but so hate when things are getting done by their "own" book and i am surely not having it this time..hey ho, tiredness taking over so leave ya all at peace and sign out with one last note - no freaking gambling. .i am on a top of the world on that front!!! Enough gambling with my own life. Take care all and stay safe..it's Friday, let's enjoy coming weekend :))))) S x

Morning Sandra,

That's how management works I think - take the credit when your staff are doing well and have someone to blame when something goes wrong. Don't worry about it, the car sounds like the main priority at the moment. Really lucky that they failed where they did, not going round a fast corner or anything like that. Glad you're okay, and hope the weekend isn't ruined by the BS.

Ryan x

Hi S.

Just agreeing with Ryan, and I definitely won't miss the bullying from senior managers with threats of counsilling and disciplineries

Take no notice because it is simply BULLYING which sadly goes on too much in the work place these days.

Well done on staying positive, the brakes failing must have shook you up a bit.

Stay safe and take care

Suzanne xx

sandra

Hey you that was quick ! Lol but well done for braving it ! , watch this space site will be crashing with the f******G admirers lol

Take care enjoy the compliments coming your way

Have a great weekend

Castle2

Yo,

That's the spirit Hun. Easy to threaten disciplinary but there has to be an investigation first .People who threaten them usually do not have an ounce of knowledge how the law works surrounding displinaries and grievances so are therefore walking straight into the mine field of not complying with employment law. So you if need advice as to how to deal with a manager who is not worthy of holding the title , lol. Give us shout, ..........

Till then , keep those positive vibes following cos as we both know they have the amazing effect of dimishing the strength of our addiction .

Me just finished a stressful 6 day week , giving me a rare weekend off , joy of joys

Shiny xxxxxxxxxx

Hi S

Love the photo even though it's sideways lol, been trying to upload one for days, my IPAD won't have it.

Keep going and keep winning.

Suzanne xx

Thank you all dear soldiers. Dear diary...gc transforming into fb!! Lol lol..good to see so many faces and even though it feels slightly different logging on now, i guess new gc image brought more positivity on too. Absolutely fantastic !!! ..well few days off for me and will just make the most of it. Sisters bday in few days, and that occasion reminds me of one great lady on here who will be celebrating 2yrs g free!!!! Way to go Irene, i will surely pop along on Monday :-)))) No gambling to report, staying safe, positive and determined to beat the s**t out of it this time!! Take care all. S x

Just checking how we are doing with posting links :-)).....

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http://youtu.be/Vh5j7zDpy-4

Hey diary..well firstly links still doesn't work lol...hell cmon guys let's make it possible cause it's good song over there lol.....ok..so i kinda felt it coming., in a way of ticking bomb i mentioned last month. I am letting my thoughts to take over again...ohhhh..wait a second, wasn't it a reason i got dumped by my good friend???..yep..so, not as much of a urges giving me grief but i feel rage starting coming out of me and truly just trying to work out what's going on..like little inspector lol...mind is a killer guys and that's pure true, if you start overthinking (mainly past) you cannot beat warning bells in your face..and how do you deal with it all? I feel lost again and why oh why i have to drop low after flying high lol...guess it is just a aftermath of two completely different feelings fighting over each other. I have no urges and i feel like I'm limited in what i can say...so.....here is to day 10...will not gamble tonight, it all can f**k off from my mind. Enough freaking running, enough Dissapointment, anger, frustration, hopelessness, surrender and loss...enough of f****n my mind with overthinking stuff. I am what i am and i will be what i am...never f****n perfect but always reaching for that freaking light ahead...let's do it soldiers! !! My ramble officially over, just introducing my moods to all lol..huh.....at least i try to figure it all out....maybe i will get there one day..never give up giving up... S x

Hello diary. Well, some storms crossed the steady flow yesterday but glad to say got balance back quicker than usual. Progress being made i guess. So reasonably good sleep (that's 4hrs lol) and back in a saddle. I know my problem. .. (hooray i hear you say lol) i am letting my thoughts to take over and that just ends up with quick drop and a little challenge to dig myself back up...but i find it easier recently and keep holding my head above water...as they say, take it as it comes and surf that wave. Exactly what i done yesterday and feel better for it today. Into the double figures now, and glad to carry on on the road of recovery. Stay safe all and keep fighting the good fight. S x

Hi Sandra hope your well never give up trying we can beat this we know it,gambling has had enough of us no more time or effort to the devil,well done on your new path again over 10 days is great start have a nice evening x

the bear x

Sandra,

Well done for making the right decisions. That is part of the challenge but if we continue trying to do the right things then good things will happen for us and positives will come into our lives.

Tomso.

Hi Sandra,

I wouldn't worry too much about the links, I just cut and paste it into a new tab and it worked fine. Very good song, chilled out vibe.

Well done for surfing that wave last night, nobody else can make that right decision, and you made the right decision. As for not being perfect - if you do figure out that secret let me know as I never come close! Keep holding that head above water, and keep winning this fight one battle at a time.

Understanding and beating those thoughts that come when we feel low is a tough one, although I wish I knew how to drag myself out, I don't really know how to get out once I'm in a funk. Hope you can find your positivity going into the new week again.

Ryan x