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Go to meetings, Sandra. You ARE worth it.

CW

Morning Sandra,

just checking in to see that you are okay and I am sending you all the courage and strength to get you through this week.

Take care of yourself, like CW said you and all of us are worth so much more

Wilsy

Hey Sandra, hope you're ok? Don't be alone. As you said to me 'I wish I could fix your broken heart'.

Evening diary

Thanks guys & gals & GC.

Am a little all over the place today. Feel hungover even if i didn't drink recently. Got in at 3AM yesterday following some road traffic incident...talk about high speed pursuits!

Gambled today. Not sure why. Gambled on Sunday and knew it's coming tbh. Started deleting my diary on Friday because got very angry with myself for sharing my life on these pages. I guess I need to tone down on what I share. This is my life im talking about.

Back to maxed out CC. No surprise huh. ..a little angry at myself and there is no excuse to run away when things gets too stressful but here we go. I did chew on too much recently and guess what, stress is still here lol..just alongside empty pockets.

Mahoosive day tommorow and I chose to gamble today instead of studying. Bull..

Anyway, I am well & kicking ☺ for those who reads (users or not!)

Day 0 but who gives up huh?

hey SBV

I've only skim read but saw your last update... any goals regarding the gambling?

No gambling Thursday?

How much pain do you have to be in be before going to meetings?????

I don’t like CoDA, GamAnon is a softer option but it’s CoDA that’s changing the codependency.

Do something constructive for you?

CW

Thanks CG..

My intention is no gamble tommoro..but I cannot promise, I can only make the right choice.

I'm at a loss being back here. Is it the right place to be?

Some has OH's...some has friends, some has rooms, ...i could have all of those but I haven't! & you know...its bloody difficult..very difficult!

I have had a bad dream last night. Memories from this site. Frineds I had...friends I pushed away.

Again, why I am here?...because....i have nowhere to go & I'm sorry.

Goodnight all

Sweet dreams Sandra.

A nice melodious song which will inspire and bring comfort as you venture off to the land of dreams.

Sigma feat Labrinth ~ Higher

On reflection it might be more suitable for running through the park with lil girl.

& that's the lift I needed Stephen ☺

Thank you & goodnight to you too!

https://youtu.be/Xv2SCjuuGt8

The name change is just wrong Sandra. Stop it. Its cruel & vicious

Am I confusing you Dan? What's so cruel or vicious about it?

I always use S&B...& V is for my Valdemar ☺

If you want to talk or make things clear, you know where to find me. Absolutely astonished by your response...talking about cruelty huh...

Post more and don't be a stranger, instead of insulting others of their acc names...

& that's why I sometimes detest this place. You ask for help and you get this in return. Poor performance for sure

No need to make things clear, you know whos initials they are, its low. You also know where i am if you want to try & justify it

o*g, you're right! Funny that, it's also my initials now! . Will edit to keep the peace dear Dan.

SB28 - stay strong then, first target was no gambling today - update us later and confirm that you#ve managed it

think you mentioned a big day today so best wishes with whatever that is

stay strong, today make good choices

Diary,

Arrived to day 1. Still haven't put blocker on my other device. The sooner I do it the sooner I get my peace of mind back.

It's true that blocks won't protect you 100%. If you want to - you will find a way to gamble. I have blocked it in my mind before. Didn't even think I have left door open on another device until urges striked and I WANTED to gamble. We do look for so many ways out then huh. I would if walked 100miles to the establishment i believe in the state i was.

Today is brand new day and hopefully I will have enough control to own it.

Stay safe all