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Congratuations for over 100 days on gambling free! How's your life without gambling?

Thank you for your kind words on my thread. You are right. I need to set goals to keep me occupied. Last relapse happened because after all those saving, I didn't know what to do with my money. Eventually, I got bored and gambled away, which made things much worse. I am determined to move on and not to beat myself up about the money I just lost but I still think about it from time to time. The other thing is people around me outside don't know what I am dealing with so I have to be a lone warrior to fight this battle. However, if I have to take the loss on a different view, I spent all 13k on an expensive vacation, which also gave me an expensive life lesson for my whole life 'NEVER GAMBLE.'

Glad you are feeling positive, despite the pressures on you!

You'll be back home before you know it 🙂

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Lol..

Honestly, my life had been a bit drab lately. So gambling had its way to sneak in when I put my guard down for a moment.

Yeah those horrible days that gambling left with me too. I am now very reluctant and guilty spending on anything. I even canceled the recent vacation.

You got this, Sandra!

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Thank you for posting on my diary S&B. Such lovely words which brought joy to my heart and a smile to my face. I will most certainly take it on board and go forward with "buckets of belief" and "an ocean full of dreams."

Hope friday is a good day for you and the little one. X

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Morning S&B

well done for not gambling and for contacting the GC agents, let me know when the chats start and maybe I'll join you.

I am too a nervous ball at the moment and have also too many thoughts running through my head but we at least both realise we need to remain focussed and we will because we are fighters.

My alternative was to always gamble when life became tough, in fact these last 107 days i haven't turned to it and have chosen to watch a film or play a computer game, I guess our brains are gradually returning to sort of normal and each day we are becoming stronger people by not gambling.

Accepting what you can't change is important but very hard, i personally don't think we'll ever be able to accept fully what we have lost because of gambling, we just have to try and live with it and put it to the back of our minds. We don't need money we are rich because we have family, friends, health and we have the chance to breathe each day and enjoy all four seasons even though this winter has been s**t and depressing, Spring is around the corner, my favourite time of year

You and I are very lonely but yes look how far we have come, we are warriors and we will just grind each day out.

Be kind to yourself, you are worth it

Wilsy xx

Thank you So so much Wilsy!..

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Hello Sandra. I trust you will keep posting on your diary, your a valued and well respected member of our community and we need you here alongside us.

Hope your slip-up wasn't too damaging financially or emotionally. These things happen unfortunately but we salvage what we can and resume the fight when we are willing and able.

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