Thank you all xxx
Warning - hell of a ramble, better don't read.
Dear diary,
Another day stuck in a past and thinking of the future. Not perfect combination, which I just mentioned on my recent posts - today is what matters. Today is confusing and tough to go through. Maybe just exhausted mind, too much going on at work, too much to sort out looking ahead, too much to aim for. Deflated - that's the best word to describe how I feel today. And I know it is only today, tomorrow is brand new day.
Certain things I knew how to deal with would take some pressure of today...you live and learn, how do you know you learn the right lessons? How to know that ur next move might be destroying..how to stop running and settling in today and only today. My thick brain don't get it today, how you suppose to work it out...not to dread tomorrow and forget the past...past made me the way I am now, I can't forget it, it's there..every single event, mistake, smile, tear. That's how I got to today, tripping, falling, standing up and tripping again.. Charming, ..
Will not gamble today, saying that all I can do is try and ride it out...never been teached how to get through s**t days so just riding the storm. It's confusing t be told two different things when ur young, so just sticking to the one I think is brighter, calmer and more promising for my life...this shall pass, as all the rest in my life.
over and out
God ... give me some breathing space t work it out
Sandra
When the storm never seems to cease, remember that to say those magic words, the three words that show courage, strength and a passion for life are something to behold.
No bet today.
Be proud of that, because you through your choice don't create a tidal wave of sh##it of your own to add to lifes woes.
Keep on keeping on my friend
Duncs stepping forward never back
Thank you guys 🙂
Morning is smarter than evening as saying goes. Have a nice weekend all, keep strong and at peace.
No gambling today
Day at a time
S x
Hi Sandra, your sounding how I felt yesterday and I totally empathise with you, deflated is the word I was looking for yesterday.
I hope your feeling better today and your feelings have passed - sounds like you are in need of some TLC. We can fight and get thorough this, we are better than our brains our telling us don't dread tomorrow - embrace it, it's another day closer to feeling back to you old self, which you deserve.
I was just thinking today after my rant yesterday how grateful I am for the people on this site and you are one of them whom I find inspiring and appreciate your continued support. Keep strong.
Take Care x
Hey bbsky,
Thank you for your kind words, sometimes misery and sadness can take over our thoughts, but I'm really pleased to say that im fighting and bouncing back to life. For that I'm thankful once again, yourself, this site and amazing people I found on my journey.
There is no greater feeling then you come out the other end, calmer mind and with more sunshine in your life, knowing that on those dark days you didn't let the destruction of the habit to completely crush you to the ground with worse outcome. Today I'm just thankful for seeing the road again and marching towards peace and happiness my heart been longing for a good while.
For those mothers out there, have a lovely day, enjoy and be proud for bringing life into this world surrounded with love, calm and safety. Every day should be mothers day 🙂
Day at a time
Take care all
Sandra x
Sandra,
Very nice positive post today. I feel that warmth in your post. I believe people write there feelings better sometimes than say telling a group of people face to face. Your diary entry today made me more calm actually. I am a little rocky today being my 7th day and a goal reached. So i have pretty much visited everyone's diary and took a little peace out of it for my own healing. So your diary post i took "Warmth" and "Calmness" and going to take that with me the whole day.
Thank you Sandra
CasinoRoyaLoser
Thanx all 🙂 xxx
Julie, heh heh heh, what a great vid!!!! I wish I could move like him lol lol, thank you lol x
Dear diary,
Happy Monday lol and it is happy because I will not b gambling today!!
Have a great start of the week all and keep fighting the good fight 🙂
Day at a time
S x
hi... I just emailed the forum admin and asked that they give you my email. I'm glad that at least things are going well for you.
Dear Sandra your Monday post sounds positive you sound happy. That's the spirit.. im beginning to see we all can be happy. I know i will destroy that little bit of happiness i have now IF i gamble so i choose not to give in and i choose to stay positive and happy just like you. I give you my hand take it let's go for a walk in the park :)..Stay strong your doing well i need you...
CasinoRoyaLoser
Hey all,
Thank you for your kind words....CL, yes my post sounded happy on Monday, simple, every day is different, one day I laugh, the other I cry. Recovery has many bumps on the road, some are painful and some are hardly noticeable. That's just never ending journey : recovery = life.
keep making the right choice
Will not gamble today
take care all
S x
Hey diary,
Another day free of gambling
what else can I ask for?? Nothing at all, happy with what I have...peace, quiet and silence.... :-)))
Day at a time
S x
Hi Sandra
I want you to know I do appreciate your messages so much, have been reading but just not able to write at the moment.
Silence can be golden at the right time. Enjoy you deserve it.
xxx
Hi Sandra,
You're absolutely right about how up and down this ride is...I often worry that it'll never plateau properly. We can but hang on, and make the right choices so that the downhills don't get any deeper.
Have a great weekend, and as always keep fighting the good fight!
Ryan
Sandra you are right peace is great.
I'm having a very peaceful gambling free weekend getting adored by my baby how about that for peace in my heart? Keep strong and keep the positive posts coming we love urm.
CasinoRoyaLoser
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