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Thank you for the positive message on my post it really helps and I'm glad you have shook the blue feelings which come and go . With each defeated urge you will become stronger and I wish you a strong recovery in the future.

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I'm sure you're not alone and I know that people have shared similar experiences on here in the past. Falling into addiction to escape the memories of the abuse that was done to you makes perfect sense. It takes courage to speak out about being abused and it takes strength of character to address the issue. You have both of these qualities. I'm glad that you are getting some help and I know that however difficult your journey ahead might be, it will be worth it. Dealing with all those difficult underlying issues is the key to being free. Thanks for your honesty.

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Hi hun I've just read your last posts I'm a survivor of abuse as a child and abuse as an adult I too took drugs (for 17 years been clean 17 years) to block out and escape bad feelings very bad feelings. I have been addicted to almost everything over the course of my life replacing one addiction with another. Being addicted to gambling has finished me I've had enough of destroying myself I deserve better and so do you. Thanks for your honesty take care Lu x

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Hi and well done on your gf days. I wasn't abused as a child and neither of my parents either did or do gamble so they were not my triggers mine were just being unhappy at a certain stage of life and having time, being bored and ill off work for a period of time. Then got into the cycle of chasing the losses and not being able to accept them. I got into gambling late in life. What happened with your counsellor caused you to regress and dragged up all the old memories which needed to happen so that you could address them, understand them and move on so that you have closure and can start to like and love yourself. You deserve a better gamble free life so I'm rooting for you to beat this. Take care and best wishes x keep staying positive x

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There IS a huge difference between recovery & abstaining & recognising that is vital to long term survival! I am appalled that any human being could behave in that way, let alone a father & wish you every strength in your struggle to come to terms with it!

You have an awful lot on your plate so remember to try to be kind to you as you travel this road to your more harmonious life - ODAAT

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Hi 212 thanks for your post x well done on gf days and hope the finances sort out for you best wishes Lu x