groundhog day

Hi G,

I couldn't find your diary so il reply here. Thank you for your post, I feel for you and understand where you're at, I thought id hit rock bottom so many times but even though I could see the huge mess I was in I always returned to gambling because I didnt know how to stop. However I stumbled on this site at exactly the right time - just when I had reached yet another new low, this time I lost four hundred whilst on duty at work betting on obscure random sports and couldn't breathe whilst trying to work and also check the scores!

Basically I have ruined mine and my families lives for years until I can put all the pieces back together and now know that one more slip up will ruin things for good.

I have managed 34 days of abstinence so the advice I can giveis limited but from my own point of view I got the k9 blocking software, self excluded left right and centre, set up a plan to pay back debts and handed over control of my finances. Though i don't really feel much better yet at least im not losing anymore money, and I dont really think I deserve to feel better yet because that would almost feel like cheating.

Most of all though use this site to the full, read as much as you can and take all the support on offer. It sounds like you WANT to stop which is the most important thing, so best of luck and get the first few days over and things will slowly start to fall into place.

Mark

Hi mark

Keep going stay strong abstaining and maintaining one day at a time

Suzanne xx

Do it right today mate and stay away. 😉 its hard times right now but will soon ease. Have a good one.

One word boro lol

Another clear weekend covering up the problems with booze but no betting at least. Can't wait for better times.

Hi mark

The longer we can abstain and maintain the easier it gets and better times get nearer

Keep going stay strong and positive

Suzanne xx

No gambling today and am happy with that. Life is a mess but I will not make it any worse by betting.

Well done mate keep it up

To Mark and Scotty,

Ive just read through this entire diary as its my first day on this site and I have to say the support you are giving each other is entirely heartwarming. Its so great to see you helping each other on, one day at a time and I hope it all ends well for you both - although with this kind of support, I have no doubt.

I dont have my own diary yet but I will without a doubt keep checking on you guys. Stay strong! x

Alright mate hope all is good.i see you managed to score a few points tonight in your dream team 😉 I took a chance taking cech as my keeper but thats went horrible wrong.lol cheers giggypuff,i would like to post on alot of other people's pages but just dont have the time. Still jogging alongside you mark,this will be a xmas to remember.staying bet free is the way to be.;-)

Cheers for the support all. Just to say yes it does definitely give extra help and encouragement having people taking this journey at exactly the same time/point as me as you tend to go through the same things at the same time. But as scott said I also appreciate the amazing support of all on this site just wish I had the time to post in every diary because its equally difficult for all and some of the unfolding stories are remarkable.

Think your right bout Chelsea mate,thought they looked really strong myself. Gers didnt have much competition but still good to see goals coming from all over the pitch.the wife had a little dig at me for getting so drunk at wedding and having a bit of a carry on.i said its better that than sitting no talking much waiting on the outcome of a 500 bet.but to be fair cant expect to be the hero because I have stopped gambling.al try and lower the vodka redbull at the next wedding lol dream team league very tight 🙂 I have a few people at work who talk about gambling to but try to think of how bad I felt when last hit brick wall and had nothing to my name and that normally makes me feel strong never to get sucked in to going back to that s**t.

Day 38 and no gambling for me. Urges are possibly getting fewer and weaker but I now realise I probably don't love my football as much anymore without a bet, I would usually be glued to the scores on full programmes like last night but simply wasn't interested. Makes me sad, but maybe my main love for the game was based on addiction.

Well done mark and good to see the urges are fewer now mate.the debt will sort itself out over time and would only get worse by betting again.i feel the same about the football as yourself,the buzz is out it with no gambling but thats just for now.eventually we will start to enjoy it without a bet as time go's on.aslong as boro and gers win and celtic lose al be happy.:-) keep up good work mate. Dont let those kids down,remember what an old friend told me,lets never have our kids say they hate their DAD! We dont have to be loaded to love and be loved its free mate plus when we gamble only thing we love is when that coupon comes up or horse wins. We cant stop,only way to win for us is not to gamble.;-) roll on xmas 100% family time for us.

Hi mark

39 days today well done

It does get easier as you clock those days up

Keep going and stay positive and strong

Suzanne x