HARMONY !

Hi Shiny,

Just doing the rounds and couldn't miss you!

Hope xmas preps going well. Hate to admit but I'm not really into xmas ......could be cos I gotta work.......but will deff be partying the new year!

Am going to a physic fair on sunday

How Do shiny pants,

Hope all is glistening and bright in your world.

Think about you often and in a selfish way i miss your posts.

Sending some tinsel and baubles and some christmas cheer your way should you need it.

Take care.

Blondie xxxxxxxxx

HI Shiney.

"Gamble and all you will get is more of the same, no brainier really .:-) "

Short sentence..... BIG words.

Happy Christmas Shiney One...

Hello fellow winged one!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just wanna say hope all good and I miss you!

Sue xxxxxxxxxx

Shiny,

We are all a little worried about you sweetheart. I trust all is O.K. but would love to read a post from you soon.

Take care.

Tomso.

Hi Shiny,

I feel really honoured 2 have got a post on my diary from u yest , I know u don't post much nemore and ur support and kind words mean so much 2 me!

The morning after I messed up, I thought 2myself I wish Shiny was still posting she would give me hope 2 keep going and I always find ur words comforting and understanding. I logged on 2nite and read ur post and 4 the 1st time in a cpl of days I smiled... So thank u from the bottom of my heart xxxx

I hope u r ok and staying strong!

Have a gr8 nite xxxxxxxx

Yo

Thank you , you lovely people for your posts .

Got asked for an update so here it is .

Life's good in Shinys world . Slowly I am unraveling the stresses that caused me to seek an escape into one of my addictions . As I do I am taking very positive steps to address these . I do not think about gambling at all other than when I log on . Which is one of my reasons for pulling away .

Everyday I grow , in strength and understanding as to what I need to do , to treat the cause of my addiction as opposed to just getting on with .,.

My method does not work for everyone , and in the year I was on this site , I would on fallen many times without the tremulous support I received , and for that I thank each and everyone of you who posted on my thread .

I am continuing to post on Flaggs Monday thread and will do so every week until it is finished , just always feel for the people who slip whilst on it , which is why I do not say much .

So to you all I am A Ok , moving on , with my life , using my new found confidence to demand what I need out of my life instead of being the down trodden remorseful addict I was a year ago .

Keep going peeps , if I can do this anyone can

Hugs and more hugs to you all

Shiny xxxxxxx

Morning,

Simply 🙂 Yes!!!! A perfect post from a hugely popular lady! So happy that all is well!

Flagg x

Fair play 2 u Shiny its great 2 hear ur in a gud place although i miss u on the forum im happy you are finding what is working best 4 you and i hope Steve is in a gudplace like u a day at a time. I respect u so much and hope u and ur family have a great xmas

take care

great post shiny. Lovely to hear your doing well and enjoying life. You know what you need to do and your doing it. I wish you all the best as youve help so many on here you deserve it. I hope you have a great christmas.

Yo,

Thoughts today have been very much about recovery , higher power , stripping away ones self to the core and rebuilding .

I think I come at it all slightly differently . I believe for me the higher power is with in myself .

That I do not need to be stripped to the core and rebuilt .

That yes I have done something's I regret , but by stripping back to nothing , what happens to all the good things that are in my personality ,all the good things I have done , do they count .

I have spent all my life believing that I was inferior to everyone else , my dyslexia , the way I look , then theres my addictive compulsive personality , I saw all these as massive failings in my self . Therefore at times I truly believed that I was not worthy to walk on this planet .

Looking at myself today , I can see what utter rubbish that it . My perception of myself so out of sinc with reality .

I have achieved a lot in my life , I am kind , I am loyal and giving ,. I am who I am and all the things I saw as flaws have shaped me into being the person I am today .

Today I walk with my head high , no longer hiding in the shadows . I believe in myself , I have given myself a voice and permission to use that voice to say no or demand what I need to improve the quality of my life .

I know that I am an addict . I know I can not be cured.

I know that some of my addictions one sip from that cup ( gambling in particular) will result in it over taking my life again.

I have always known , that for me it was never about winning or loosing it was always about escaping , my life , my thoughts , everything I hated about myself and that was almost everything!

Today I now work hard at continually building my self belief , this gives me the strength to actively address the stresses and strains that are present every day in everyone's life . I right here right now , do not feel the need to hide or escape .

I am no longer frightened of being an addict I except it . Which really is the only way to go with it , seeing is I am never gonna wake up one day and not be an addict . Would be nice but it ain't gonna happen 🙂

So I continue on , believing that the answers lie inside myself , that if there is a higher power , mines is in me .

By believing in myself, I am so far away from the person that stood before you all this time last year .

It's sort of makes me wonder , how different I will be this time next year .

I believe as long as I do not take that first sip , I will be ok , and be doing just fine 🙂

Shiny xxxx

Hi Shiny,

That was a gr8 post 2 read... I agree with wot u said... I think only we can make the changes 4 ourselves!

Another inspiring post 2 read Shiny, U have done brilliant:)

Have a gr8 nite xxxxxx

Shiny,

Lovely post + lovely lady.... what do you get?

Shiny!

Happy xmax my friend.

Sue x

hi shiny

Carl

Hi Shiny,

Thanks for your post and offer on my diary. I really appreciate it soo much. I think I am gonna be okay. It just hurts right now. I'm gonna miss him soo much but, he lived and died on his own terms. That is the way he was. Many of his family and friends eventually turned away b/c he alienated soo many people. I stuck by him in spite of it all b/c I knew him when we were perfect children and all and all he had a good heart. He was not a bad man just very very lost, lonely, and sad. Anyway, I don't want to drip tears all over your diary.. not my intention at all. It's the holidays afterall!! You my dear have been making great strides and for that I salute you. Selfishly, I wish I could hear from you every single day -- BUT, you my dear friend are the most important in all of this. YOU do whatever you need to do to stay sober, sane, happy, all of that good sh it. lol! AND, if I do not get another chance I just want to wish you and all of those you love a very very merry christmas!! Maybe I will start singing a little song now.. jingle bells jingle bells.. lol! -joanxxxxx