HARMONY !

Yo,

Thanks for the posts and support as always .

Late post tonight , having a trouble sleeping , nothing new there !

Smiler thanks for your post , wish you every happiness in your new home . See that you are living your maintain and abstain mantra by self cancelling , good on you mate !

I agree some really interesting threads on this site at the moment , and some great levels of support being shown . The site seems to have gone back to discussing recovery in its various stages , interesting view points , and exchange of ideas coming from many different posters .

I am enjoying reading and enjoying being a part of this site again . Feel I am back to building my wall , between me and my next bet with every post I read .

For that I thank you all . ( sounded like Freddie Mercury there lol)

Long may it continue , keep the faith people , keep posting .

Shiny xxxxx

Yo,

In my determination to address the turn my life inside out and upside down, One very very vital part of my puzzle needed to be picked up . It was one that I was dreading but tonight I did it .

I told me children that I would be leaving their dad after 25 years of marriage . Ummmm not easy , but done . Going to bed bit sad coz I have upset my girls but know that it needed to be said , because they would of picked up on it somewhere and it was important it came from me .

Not sure how he will feel that I have told them , but in the scheme of it all I am not that bothered .

So yep another hugh step taken , cermenting my resolve that in a number of months all being well when the shop is sold that I can start a new life .

Funny really , even with the tears , even with the will you invite dad for Xmas dinner , cos he couldn't be on his own, I never once doubted my decision , or let the duty and loyalty which has kept me in this marriage for at least the last 10 years , enter into my thinking .

Got to break eggs to make an omelet comes to mind .

Shiny xxxx

Mornin shiny

Thank u for ur support and kind words on my diary , in ur last posts can relate to what u say bout this site and finding ur feet again something I need to do again

So proud of how ur dealing with ur split facing it head on , honesty is the best way with kids as they are quite resilient and would av worked it out for themselves , the life u want and are looking forward to u can now see instead of it been a dream it is now reality , but u also recognise the dangers ahead and are preparing urself well , with this site the support will help u along the way and get through no doubtly a stressfull time

I will be with u like many every step of the way

Castle2

Yo,

Thank you Castle xx

Feeling the pressure this morning . Told him I told the kids , no real reaction there .

But even though I told him last week , that I will not invest in buying the freehold then selling at auction .

Today he said I know you said that but........

So I said I will think about it . But really I want to say not on your nelly . So now I have to have the same difficult conversation I had last week .

FFS , yesterday I spoke about breaking eggs to make an omelet . What I forgot to mention , is that I am walking on the egg shells that were left behind .

Just for today !

Shiny xxxx

Hi Shiny,

You are doing the hard work now, that's for sure. Walking along side you. Reading and supporting you in your struggle for your life. You are focused. Stay that way. joanxxx

Yo

Thank you Judy xx

Not a great day for the Shiny , although I have to say made a smigen better because at no point did I consider having a punt to escape .

Dad had a bad day , enough said .

My husband said to my daughter , recon mum will change her mind bout leaving .......ummm NO .

So yep , still rising above it all. Still keeping my cool ,

Still trudging through the rough terrain .

I know I will get through this with my recovery in tact , but then the way I see it I do not have a choice .

My future becons .........

Laters

Shiny xxxxxx

Hey miss shiny pants,

I keep forgetting your back but only for a second as how could i forget all the tears support and laughter we have shared .

I said it in the beginning you my friend are stronger than you think , I sort of know how your feeling as I left a unhappy marriage of 17 years because it wasn't right for me, at the time I always doubted was I doing the right thing, should I just shut up and put up, I know hindsight is a wonderful thing , but it truly was the best thing I did for all concerned, situations like this are never ever easy , but i remained honest and true throughout the process and now people cant beleive the relationship i have with my ex.

keep going shiny.

Sending virtual hugs to your dad and you.

Take care

Blondie xxxxxx

Yo,

few turn of events today , culminating in me moving in to dads .

No argument at home , just seemed the best thing to do all considered .

Youngest got upset , but once I explain it was bout grandad , that I was not just going she calmed down .

Then she said in tears thought you'd run away like you did before . That was the day I stole the money because of gambling and ended up in rehab . She was 11 , and is now 20 , never can quite escape your past .

The sins of the fathers ....

Anyway she's alright now . Plus I am going to pop home everyday . No guilt allowed , paid my dues , made recompense a million times over . Time to focus on the future not get hung up about the past ..

Shiny xxxxxxx

Shiny,

Good luck with all that you have to deal with. I hope your dad is feeling O.K. I'm sure he will appreciate having you there to take care of him.

Tomso.

Hi Shiny,

Thanks for your message on my diary I really appreciated it. Sounds as if you have lots on at the moment, I hope everything pans out well for you, you have always inspired me with your focus.

Have a great nights sleep and speak soon.

Andy x

Hey Shiny,

Just want to say sorry about your father, your post about moving back home with him to help him, made me think of my father. I moved back home with my father for a year, it was the best year we had in a long time together. Lots of great memories and I wouldn't trade that time for anything! My dad also had cancer and I lost him in May of 2010, while I was living with him. I just wanted to say hug him every day, I sure miss my father. Much congrats to your outstanding sobriety!

Chicagoguy

Hey Shiny,

"No guilt allowed, I paid my dues" Well, AMEN to that! Keep moving forward friend. -joanxxxxxx

Hi shiny

Sorry to hear about your struggles in life at the moment sending you lots of love and strength

H

Yo,

Thank you one and all!

Today was ok, do not think dads getting any better but that's to be expected .

Family well obviously they have lots of issues with me moving in here but hay I have no control over what people think !

No thoughts of escapism into addiction for me .dads watching pointless , sort of sums up gambling .

Staying strong , and have no intention of being anything less .

Shiny xxxx

Hey shiny pants,

See Owen is ok but I have always had a soft spot for Karev, mean and broody on the outside and soft and caring on the inside just can't show it.

I never know how far you are through it, I am bang up to date apart from Wednesdays episode, It just gets better and better.

Your right about not being able to control what other people think, someone once said to me, it's none of your business what other people think, lol just about sums it up.

Beautiful day today, I feel a Michael buble song coming on, now there is be man I wouldn't kick out of bed lol.

Enjoy the sunshine.

Hugs to your dad and you of course.

Take care

Peg leg . Lol xxxxxx