HARMONY !

Hi Shiny,

Keep striding girl.... keep striding....

Keep strong

MW xx

Yo,

Once again woke up feeling pretty good .

Do not get me wrong , I still have dads illness to get through . But I am resigned to that , something I can not change . All I can do is the best for him which is what I am doing .

As for home , that I can change , I can see know how very very unhappy it was making me . Not out of the woods yet , but everyday I reiterate that once the shops sold , (boards go up Tuesday ypieeeeeeee) or my husband buys me out , I am offfffski . Just so there is no misunderstanding here , that my husband thinks I might change my mind .

So do i have a right to be happy , ummmmm think it took a lot of work to build that escape tunnel so yes .

My dad said to me today , how he never thought I would have the strength to do this .....

Think we all have strength , sometimes it just needs to come to the fore front .

Shiny xxxx

Ur showing strength a lot of people just can't summon up and all credit to you

Good luck Shiny

Shiny, Shiny, Shinyeeeeeee: Just when I think you could not possibly get any Shinier there you go.. there you go again!! And, you continue to goooo grrrrrrlll. -joanxxx

Keep that strength going girl!! ;0)

..you had me worried there with your post on my diary. When you mentioned about dropping down on bended knee, and me waving my magic wand at you I got a tad hot under the collar!!! lol ;0)

Hope the weather improves!

Take care

MW.

P.s: Back to my diy today......boarding my garage ceiling!!

Thanks for your comments I was not down today but I got a lot from some of the comments I received. Everyday I don't gamble is a success. Thanks again Michael and I wish you every success with your recovery.

Michael

Hiya Shiny.

Another public post!

I am so very proud of you. It was always in you. I just helped to bring it out. Stick to those guns baby. No guilt no shame.

You are right of course. Each day we become stronger. Odd days we feel a little weak. As long as it doesn't result in gambling we will be ok and normal services will resume.

As I have always told you. Gambling is the symptom of our underlying struggles. The bigger problem is now been dealt with. The restoration of your life is continuing. Whilst you focus on that, the gambling will never appear.

If anyone reading this would like help in finding the belief to start over. Shiny here can direct you. Love you Shiny like a soul sister.

Mr.B. xxxxx

Hey Shiny,

Congrats on your achievement. You can do it! I wish you the best in your journey to a gamble free life. Have a very nice Easter.

Chicagoguy

Hiya Shiny.... your strength of character shines through. You are dealing with your life issues and not escaping into gambling. I think that you are doing fantastically well but then you don't need me to tell you this.

Keep up with the recovery work one day at a time and you will reach a better place just as I will. Warm regards... S.A 🙂

Shiny,

I agree one hundred percent. Life is for living. If we are not happy it is up to us to change the situation. If people around us are not willing to let us change or are not willing to allow us to be happy then that presents a different problem. You have always come across as a very strong woman to me albeit I don' know you personally and only from what you post but you defo deserve your happiness and if life change is required for that to become possible then go for it with everything you have. Me, I am not going to waste any more time worrying about things I have created. From now on I am going to focus my time on making things better and becoming a better person myself.

For breakfast tomorrow I will be having a large toblerone, a packet of salt n vinegar McCoys followed by some Easter eggs. I gave up chocolate and crisps for lent. People asked me why I would give up both but if I am about to embark on a challenge I usually make it as hard as possible. Have a lovely Easter.

Tomso.

Yo,

Thank you peeps for your support as always .

Every day it is getting easier . Now the cat is out the bag , the major volcanic eruption I expected has not happened. It still might but I am prepared for it .

Funny that , how often we as compulsive gamblers have feared telling our nearest and dearest about what trouble we are in , only to find that it was not quite as bad as we presumed it would be .

This is a slightly different situation but on the same lines , why did I not say I was leaving before , frighten of the fallout I think .

But there really has not been any , I know he does not want me to go , I know he hopes in the time it takes to off load the shop which could take a year , I will have changed my mind . I won't , I need to keep reintegrating that I am walking way .

So it not an easy situation but not unmanageable . And not something that will feed my addiction .

So today I go back to choosing not to gamble , rather than just for today .

If I am to carve out a new future for myself , I will need every penny I have got , plus every penny I can save . Therefore gambling has no part in that equation !

Onwards and upwards

Shiny xxxx

shiny

as i posted earlier on pj's thread.

the answer to anything won't be found in a punt.

this I know you know, but just in case.

i have got your back.

hey the sun is shining!!!! time to plant some seeds!!

keep on keeping on

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Yo,

All good in Shinys world today , well except for the fact that no one bought me an Easter egg . I am sure my hips will be grateful and my world will not end because of it .

No chance of any half price tomorrow either , looks like every shop in a 10 mile radius sold out yesterday . Missed a trick there in my own shop I think .

Anyways , just wanted to say , read a terrific post on Judy's thread just now from Saturday , wondered how your mind works , to get you to gamble , read that post , cos it described me to a tee . And I am sure lots of us . Work out why you gambled , the triggers or the behaviours , then I believe you have a chance of addressing them ,and maintaining and abstaining long term .

Enjoy your Easter

Shiny xxx

Hi Shiny

Madness is our middle name with this curse but at least we know how to keep it at bay. I have just recently moved into a bigger house with all debts cleared etc and moving forward at pace. A thought came to me today that I need to self exclude as there are 3 bookies in the town and 1 a little further down the road. My initial thought was "I am safe and don't need to". Not on your blody Nelly am I not self excluding! I'll be down there quick sharp in the morning for a quick Hello, Goodbye and I'll never darken your door again meeting. It is as simple as that. Self exclusion beats everything in my book to get the initial cravings under arrest. Hope things going in the right direction for you. As we have always known this recovery malarkey is about us and no one else. Selfish, I know, but without ourselves we are doomed, if that makes sense. I have read some good stuff on here recently so hopefully the forum will continue to work for others as it did for me and likeminded people. If anyone is reading this for the first time pleae just give yourself a chance of recovery. The bookies will be there waiting if you ever decide to go back for more punishment. All the best

Good Morning,

It is brilliant to see your name back amongst the forum, encouragement or advice you offer both in spades and it's always massively appreciated. It was nice to read your post from yesterday you seem to be getting back on an even keel. You said you needed to get back here and if that coincides with you piecing things together then don't go anywhere my friend.

Flagg