Hi,
I'll try not to keep it to long. I have decided to write a diary, to hopefully help myself and to also share in the hell that gambling has brought to my life in order to save others.
I have been gambling on and off for 8 years now. There has been mostly terrific lows in that time, with the highs really only being me getting the money I have lost...to go and gamble it again.
I have lost time, my mental health has suffered and it has done terrible things to me financially. I had actually been off gambling for nearly a year. I had left the disastrous relationship i was in behind, my life was better and though still in debt my account was looking the healthiest it had looked in years. For the first time in a long time I felt in control and that little bit of money was my "safety net" from the world. So stupid was I to think I could have a little go for "fun" and what started as a £50 bet has ended in losing about 6k in 5weeks. This amount to me is a lot of money and I am currently feeling awful about myself, had a headache for about a week and now owe money to my partner and in more in debt then i was. The feeling of loss and panic is horrendous.
This time I have lost so much in such little time the shock feels worse. Its like I am scared of myself, like I dont know who I am anymore and what I am capable of.
Will this get better? I would like to speak to people going through the same.
Thanks for reading
Stay Strong
Hi there, I have been in the same situation before and the key is to forget about it! You can’t recover the money but you can start again . Don’t fall on the trap that gambling is fun , because it’s not! If you really wants to stop for good you’ll need to fight against this terrible disease daily , obsviously some days are worse than Others. Don’t think it’s ok to have a small bet as don’t forget when gambling we become blinds, mad , unconscious and uncontrollable. We basically need to stay away and accept defeat . We can’t beat the machine , therefore we need to run from them. Take control of your life , yoga , exercises and even helping others is a great way of distress. Learn the lesson look for help , maybe you need to speak with a counsellor? Look after yourself
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