Hope

Hi.

LOL, again and again and again.

Good for you, and not using drink as a stress relief good on ya.

I truly think you must be a saint to put up with her, I know I couldn't. Just had a thought when I go back to work I wonder how many of them call me vinegar t**s.

That might make me nicer to them lol

Have a great weekend you deserve it.

Dusty

Hiya SA,

LOL@ talking parrot......great to here your doing so well...you said to me not so long ago how I was putting my diary to good use...so are you 🙂 Your making all the right moves.

Love Del x

Hi SA,

Now that the weekend is here, you can relax and chill.

And run of course, in preparation for your marathon!

Have a great weekend,

NT

Am trying Gt. Trouble is I just seem to be ruminating on stuff and feeling very low and sorry for myself. I was manic on Friday evening and now am just depressed. Lie in bed and stare at ceiling. Watch the lickle spider abseil down. have a bath and then another.

Have I just been unlucky that this job and my last job have ended up being mega stressful for one reason or another or is it just me?? I spose it all goes back to self at the end of the day.

Ive had jobs in the past that ive enjoyed with no major issues. I never use to get bullied at work. So whats gone wrong? Compulsive gambling robbed me of me of... of.. something??

The reality is that i have re-created my past. Working in challenging needs, living alone and getting more and more withdrawn and unhappy

Ive also got a niggling leg injury, nothing too serious (I don't think) but I should rest it really. Don't think I will though. Need to run slowly and steadilly and settle my mind, body abd soul. Find some karma. Got ta look after myself.

Will I start gambling again... NO i won't.

If anything has changed it is that. I never use to last more than a few days without gambling and now i go for months no problem. I can get through my low patches with out that self-destructive behaviour. Sooner or later I will resolve my current situation and find a new path. It will happen when it happens. Is good to have this outlet. Thanks for listening... S.A

Last gamble 24/12/2011

(((SA)))

Bless you Freda! 🙂

What a turn around. Ive gone from Mr misery guts.. woe is me.. to Mr Cheerful all in the space of a few hours.. all down to one of the best runs ive ever had.. 3 hours along the canals.. it was just delicious!

So anyway my work woe's are put to oneside for the rest of the day.. ive switched off from it. Positive thinking eh.. happy days.. S.A 🙂

Hey S.A.

Your post from earlier today... I can't say what its robbed from you but compulsive gambling robbed me of much more than money.

Self-confidence, the feeling that I'm a loser, perspective, the ability to take things in my stride. Some are associated with the loss of money and accrual of debts, others are purely mental.

And as for your run today glad it was a good one...if the weather was anything like its been here in Wales it'll have been magnificent. Keep doing the things you know cheer you up, and I too used to use getting bladdered as a de-stress...it usually does exactly the opposite though.

All the best,

Ryan

Hi,

Just wanted to say, hope your week is a bit better. And that vinegar t**s has the flu and had to take a week off , to give you a well disurved rest byte.

If this has not happened, keep going with the invisible parrot.maybe this week it can learn to peck. You get to chose at what.

Take care, don't let them get you down

Dusty

Thanks for popping in SA....yep...so right there about drunk nostalgia etc..hurts to know that but I didn't respond back and take the bait which is real progress for me...

Hope your week is panning out to be better ..these things (people) are sent to try us and try us they do....its hard when your going through it but feels so much better to know we all have support here when the going gets tough...

Whatever doesn't kill us only makes us stronger so the saying goes.....take care xxxxxxx

Rach and Doo x

Thanks for your support all and yes I got lucky today at work.. in the sense that i was not in the centre for more than 5 minutes. Picked clients up, out all day with one client, dropped clients off and home. One of my collegues was stressed and angry about stuff when he gave me a lift home.. but today I was not that person.

No gambling problems. Thanks for listening.. S.A

Last gamble 24/12/2011

P.s I bought some celery sticks in the Asda bargains for 10p! I don't really like celery but am sitting here chewing on a stick. Open to change and all that.. Lol

Hi,

Thank you for your post. Given me food thought about drinking. Maybe later in the week I will have come to some resolution about it.

Anyway just wanted to say, pleased yesterday was not too hard, hope today is the same.

Take care , stay strong,

Dusty

Those supermarket bargains have certainly kept me open to change in the last two or three years! It's been quite good trying out lots of different bargain meals just because they were cheap and you can still pick and choose exactly what you want.

Glad that you were there to listen to your colleague ranting away. We all need to do this from time to time.

NT

Lol, you make me laugh SA!

you don't really like celery, but you had to buy it because it was 10p! I get all excited about bargains too!

The simple things get us through eh....

Take care,

f x

hey its great when you get those feel good endorphins whizzing round and just shows that feelings can be so transient...

Also laughing about celery ...bargain! and you will be picking it out of your teeth for weeks later.

Take care and take it easy

Rach and Doo xx

Thanks folks.. your thoughts make me smile. I will offer comment in your diaries over the weekend.. but for now am just checking in with me and my recovery.

I guess its been a good week really. Work has been full on and stressful at times but also a laugh at times "insert client pooh story" and I just kinda feel a sense of acheivment at having done my bit.

Add to that is that i have not gambled (of course!) and ive not phoned in sick and ive not got drunk of an evening and ive generally kept myself on a level. I guess ive coped fairly well this week so well done to me.

The weekend is here. Time to chill and gym and switch off.. and do some reading and writing on here and just generally be good to myself. Thanks for listening.. S.A 🙂

Last gamble 24th December 2011