in the zone

Hi Carl,

Well done on resisting those urges... I am proud of u 🙂

I had quite a few strawberry ciders last nite... I thought of u lol

I hope u r having a gr8 wknd and ur training is going ok!

Stay strong 🙂

Yo,

I hate to tell you this but for me those urges never go .

Think they happen less and less and with a lesser intensity . But like you I just resist them , do not get cross at having them .

Well done for not acting on them , do today was probs a good day cause of it I recon .

Hope you enjoyed the footy and spending a guilt free day , reminds us why we never ever want to go back there .

Take care

Shiny xxxxxxx

day 95

Carl

well way to do and looks like a 100 days aint gonna be a problem for ya. congrats

day96

is monday, and i like mondays cos i can hold my head up high and check in on flaggs challenge, and also its my rest day from running so all is good.

no gamblings the new gambling

carl

ahhhh sounds like time for a cold one too and well deserved.

Hey George!

How lovely to read such positive posts on your diary...well done Carl we are all so proud on you.

Keep up that running too...you really have turned your life around.

Take care lovely you

Jewels

Hi carl, cheers for the post, yep things are looking good for me at the minute and i'll be doing my best to keep it that way. Judging by your last 2 posts your moving along nicely yourself. Its nice to have a treat now and again, youve earnt that by doing so well for 90+ days. Glad you enjoyed the footy and for the right reasons, its a great game no need to spoil it with a bet. Keep enjoying those mondays and good luck with the marathon training, im doing a bit of running, should really be more organized with it. But still nice to just be out there now and again, doing something good for me. Enjoy mate. Have you done a marathon before? cant remember if youve said.

Lovely to speak to you in chat Carl...your doing so well and you remain very positive!

I thought it was interesting when you said that you are in a way addicted to this site, I feel i am a bit too...the good thing is that we won't lose any money or wasted time on here. I certainly don't want those awful feelings of despair when in the gambling zone ever again and so if this site helps then that can only be a good thing.

Keep strong Carl and be proud of what you've achieved....well done

Jewels

just 7 halfs! nice one. Well a marathon is one hell of an achievment mate, as is those half marathons. All the best with the training. Im sure you'll be fine.

I AM ADDICTION

I start in small subtle promising many ways things,

I promise you enjoyment and pleasure beyond your wildest dreams,

I deliver guilt and despair more horrible than your worst nightmare,

I promise you power and courage,

I give you feelings of powerlessness & hopelessness,

I will force you to live in fear always,

I promise you relief and escape from all your daily problems,

I create for you greater problems than you ever imagined,

I promise you many friends but

I allow you only isolation.

I promise happiness but

I create much sorrow.

I will steal from you your dignity,your families,your friends,your children.your homes,your demons.your spirit & your life.....For love, freedom & happiness are impossible in my presence.

So NEVER UNDERESTIMATE ME

I am devious & manipulating,

I have no preferences as to who I pick as my victim, rich or poor, young or old, black ,white, yellow or red.

I have killed men, women and children,

I have no conscience.

So if you have met me, always be aware if you think you can beat me... that I will be gone from your life and all will be well again.

NEVER FORGET that I will always be there, waiting in the dark shadows, just around the corner.

I am very patient and I will laugh in your face if I can lure you into my evil world of hell on earth again.

day 97

just alittle reminder for me if i do get complacent i can come back to this an re read.

i am not in a complacent stage right now but you nver know when it can jump up and bite you and i feel the more barriers in place the better chance i have of beating this!!

HI Carl,

Always good to remind ourselves what we can go back to whenever we make the wrong choice that misery and despair is all there still waiting but we are not walking in that direction.

Head down and best feet forward.. Onwards my friend.

Blondie x

DAY 98 or week 14

on the gambling front i have not and i havent really even had time to think about it, the marathon training is really starting to kick in full flow so i am unable to post as much at the moment sorry for this but i will get on and read some diaries when i get the chance but for now i have a run to do

so keep at it everybody it is all worth it.

no gamblings the new gambling

carl

Hey George....two days to go and you be 100! I will have a cake for you to celbrate on Friday (you can't have any as your in training!)

Great to hear you haven't had much thoughts of gambling Carl...your doing just great and we are all behind you (well not when you are running as i'd be miles and miles behind you!)

Take care lovely

Forwards not back

Jewels

way to go with them days and the running. its keeping ya busy so no time for the gambling and thats a good thing. keep it up