Day 1
After feeling so down yesterday, I've woken up actually feeling I'm going to change my life today. So I'm on a mission, get dressed, wash hair & get out the house. So feel working part time and having so much time on my hands is a large part of the problem. Wish childcare was free...I would work full time then...more money but less time to spend it....or so my theory goes!!
Current debt:
£15k DMP (£1.5k to gambling)
£90 phone bill
£150 small loan company
£490 to my friend for bailing me out
£360 pay day loan
Thinking if I document these and watch them go down it will help
Happy no gambling day peeps!!
Welcome to day 1 of your recovery journey lady h
Good choices made already for today, well done.
Think positive, think strong, and keep determined,
Suzanne xx
Day 2
Thanks Suzanne!!
Yesterday was a good day! No gambling!! Did some jigging around with the household bills and managed to pay £30 off the phone bill. Woop!! Little steps make big changes.
Off to work now so no time to gamble, have been known to have a lil spin on my phone in my lunch break...just no not today xx
That's the spirit. Wishing you strength x
Well done h,
Small positive steps forwards are the sure way to go to keep moving forwards,
Enjoy your 2nd gambling free day :))
Suzanne xxx
Well that was rubbish...managed 3 days!! I feel quite stupid for starting this diary cos obviously I can't do it. Sorry to those who read my thread cos clearly it's a waste of time. Really do want to succceed. I'm going to try again...just b patient with me..I will fight this...finding it so hard as never been addicted to anything, luckily ive closed down all site bar 2...but they have £20 limit each ...does any one else think that by doing this you think oh ive limited myself so that helps...total c**P they all need to go, I know this just gotta do it. Diarys gonna start again...& another thing do some of you only come on here when you've f* up...& u feel really low...I know I do...I have every intention of logging in everyday & telling everyone I haven't gambled but I've realised its really not that easy. Something's missing...need something else to help....
I try and log in everyday even if it is as pointless to say hello as then i am acknowledging that i have a problem everyday not just when i have urges. My gambling problem is online slots. When i feel tempted i try to keep busy which is easy with th LO! Rarely have time. If i am alone with free time and on the computer and have urges i usually log on here. Reread my diary. Check in on other people etc until that urge dies down. Good luck. Keep trying.
Hello,
Do you have sufficient barriers in place? I know I'm not a CG but it's pretty well known: you can't realistically expect to overcome the addiction without barriers.
Downgrade your smartphone to non Internet, install blocking software, arrange to immediately move your money out of harm's way on payday. And keep up your efforts.
If you do these things, it will make a difference. But breastbeating won't.
Wish you well,
CW
Hi LH
I would say it's essential to log in everyday, particularly when not gambling. You need to bring to every level of consciousness that you're addicted. Truly accept, and then you can move forwards.
You have all this spare time. Don't make up excuses not to log in-set yourself a goal of doing this and stick to it. You'll feel better knowing your taking concrete steps.
Good luck
Louis
Day 1.....
At work & got a hen party meeting tonite....so will keep busy. Thank you 4 taking time to read. No urges 2day x
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