Life begins again

Hi Suzanne thank you for your continued support congrats on 6 months amazing achievement I hope your enjoying life to the full 🙂 have a great day x

The bear x

hi Suzanne,

Thanks for your support and massive congratulations for the six months, an enormous achievement, step by step we can do this. It is never easy but you are fighting on, well done.

Paulds

Hi Suzanne,

Six months of zero tolerance is brilliant. What a great milestone!!

Keep up the great work ... Your words really make a difference.

Enjoy your celebrations !!

Suzy

Thanks Suzy and MBA,

Good morning diary,

184 days of making that right choice which is to abstain and maintain.

Early start after late shift, only around 4 hours sleep, but will finish early, getting hair cut today, if not too tired.

I will not be playing today, bacause I am treating myself today, so why would I want to waste my money on losing it all.

Wishing everyone a positive strong and peaceful gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Morning Suzanne.
184 is simply amazing.
Not sure i like the new forum set up lol.
Have a great day.
Steve xxx

Thanks Steve as always xx not too sure of the new site either Iol.

Good afternoon diary,

Sorry about double spacing, when I press enter it goes back to the beginning lol.

Anyways a few hiccups with the new forum, but I am sure it will settle down, we will get used to it, and feel comfortable with it so none of this must unsettle us, we must still be 100% committed to our recoveries, and keep going forwards.

Very positive news this afternoon dear diary, because I feel brill, like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, why, simply because I have extra money in my purse and in my bank and it is still 2 days til payday.

I felt sooo normal after work, going around the shops knowing I had money that I could spend and treat myself and OH for the first time in over 6 months, without feeling GUILTY.

I cannot express how much how it made me feel sooo normal, it really is worth the ups and downs of the last 6 months, not the money, the feeling of having no guilt, anxiety, and panic.

I have been really strict for the last 6 months, paying off as much as I could on PD loans(paid another one off yesterday) and living literally on the breadline, no holidays, the only big regret is I could not go to that family wedding, but it had to be done.

I have had my hair cut today actually for the first time since before last Xmas treated myself to some long overdue perfume, Angel expensive, but I love it, I have treated other half by putting 50 in his bank for him to spend on what he wants.

To walk round the shops without looking at other people who are only buying simple things and not feel like I did 6 months ago is more of a buzz than any win/loss on slots ever did for me.

Hell I used to walk round the shops on the way home from work, wondering where the next penny was coming from for food, never mind bills, and The debt, and look at shoppers and feel so envious because I was not normal like them.

It really sounds ridiculous, but that is how it was before I came on this wonderful forum, and listened and learned from like minded lost souls like me all trying to break free from the awful hideous addiction that is gambling.

I am getting my life back my family are happier, I know my OH will never trust me again that's ok because I can never trust myself again, so the triangle will be there indefinitely, and it has worked with the help of everyone on here who has supported me, through my ups and downs, this forum is very important to me for my recovery.

I feel normal today, and I feel good, that's what abstaining and maintaining does, and that addiction hates it.

Thoughts of gambliing today, you are JOKING, arnt you addiction, NO WAY another big zero today. I am beginning to like my life again.

Suzanne xx (feeling sooo good).

Thanks Steve as always xx not too sure of the new site either Iol.

Good afternoon diary,

Sorry about double spacing, when I press enter it goes back to the beginning lol.

Anyways a few hiccups with the new forum, but I am sure it will settle down, we will get used to it, and feel comfortable with it so none of this must unsettle us, we must still be 100% committed to our recoveries, and keep going forwards.

Very positive news this afternoon dear diary, because I feel brill, like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, why, simply because I have extra money in my purse and in my bank and it is still 2 days til payday.

I felt sooo normal after work, going around the shops knowing I had money that I could spend and treat myself and OH for the first time in over 6 months, without feeling GUILTY.

I cannot express how much how it made me feel sooo normal, it really is worth the ups and downs of the last 6 months, not the money, the feeling of having no guilt, anxiety, and panic.

I have been really strict for the last 6 months, paying off as much as I could on PD loans(paid another one off yesterday) and living literally on the breadline, no holidays, the only big regret is I could not go to that family wedding, but it had to be done.

I have had my hair cut today actually for the first time since before last Xmas treated myself to some long overdue perfume, Angel expensive, but I love it, I have treated other half by putting 50 in his bank for him to spend on what he wants.

To walk round the shops without looking at other people who are only buying simple things and not feel like I did 6 months ago is more of a buzz than any win/loss on slots ever did for me.

Hell I used to walk round the shops on the way home from work, wondering where the next penny was coming from for food, never mind bills, and The debt, and look at shoppers and feel so envious because I was not normal like them.

It really sounds ridiculous, but that is how it was before I came on this wonderful forum, and listened and learned from like minded lost souls like me all trying to break free from the awful hideous addiction that is gambling.

I am getting my life back my family are happier, I know my OH will never trust me again that's ok because I can never trust myself again, so the triangle will be there indefinitely, and it has worked with the help of everyone on here who has supported me, through my ups and downs, this forum is very important to me for my recovery.

I feel normal today, and I feel good, that's what abstaining and maintaining does, and that addiction hates it.

Thoughts of gambliing today, you are JOKING, arnt you addiction, NO WAY another big zero today. I am beginning to like my life again.

Suzanne xx (feeling sooo good).

Hi Suzanne

Lovely last post!

Sometimes we forget that the simplest things in life are often the most pleasurable. Being able to buy the basics, having time and a bit of money to treat others, it all sounds great as I'm finding too.

Enjoy the rest of your day.

M

Thanks mrt.

Good morning disry

185 days of making that right choice which is to abstain and maintain one day at a time.

On a course all day today will be boring I think, but I will be sitting down and resting my legs lol.

No gambling thoughts, and feeling good today.

Wishing everyone a happy strong and peaceful gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Morning Suzanne.
185 days is a great result. Only the people on this site know how hard and what an amazing achievement that is.
Have a great rest lol.
Steve xxx

Morning Suzanne,

Hope the course is not too boring for you. I participate in a fair few at my work and feel the same.

Amazing that you have abstained; and mmaintained for over half a year and I know one day I will achieve this too

Take care
Mba

I just read your long post yesterday. I know exactly what you mean by it.
Amazing.
Steve xxx

Hi Suzanne

Thanks for the ongoing support. Loved reading Wednesday's post, i'm so happy for you. It must be an amazing feel to finallly not worry about money and enjoy it without feeling like it should go on a debt repayment. That is a result of a lot of hard work in your recovery so well done! Let this be an inspiration for others that are struggling to show it is possible and the rewards are fantastic.

WELL DONE

James

keep it up suzanne

hope the course wasn't too bad??

tri

Morning Suzanne.
186 days be very proud of yourself.
Have a great Friday.
Steve xxx