my betting diary

thank so much to pauls,viggo,unlucky,tommi,LB,freda,mickeyd,brian,ade and s.a...amazing support from these diaries :-)...as you can probably tell im posting from the library today...i finished work early when in former days i wouldve hit them shops straight away and blew an absolute fortune...not now a few quiet words on here soon sorts that..thank you my friends ;-)....contact has been made with the ex...she is not very well at the minute and whilst i would just love to help out,we are not ready for that yet so ive told her i will wait a wee while longer till shes ready...progress at least..today i wont bet and after a few rocky patches lately i can safely say tomorow i wont bet either ,we can do this folks 😉

Hey wp

Big hug((((((((((((((wp)))))))))))))))) coming your way.

Keep working at getting yourself better.

This "roller coaster" effect you describe(up and down life) I believe to be quite normal once the gambling stops.

I can only speak from my experience my friend.

For a long time I had my head up my arxe and ignored everything and anything that stood between me and gambling.It was only when I finally stopped that I realised there are others out there, people relying on me?!?!?

o*g, I thought, how on earth am I meant to cope with that??? Life?? What's that... I am much better at running away from it then dealing with it....

And deal with it I did..I lived through the roller coaster of life, emotions up and down, me..up and down...and it still happens sometimes...but you know what... it is ok to feel like that.

Once I stopped gambling, I beat myself up with the biggest imaginary baseball bat I could find.

It takes time..and that it one thing you and I have plenty of now we stopped gambling. So, let's put it to good use and make ourselves better...

Love and hugs

God Bless

Sabine

P.S.: Thanks for your post and I have enough faith to know that yours and everyone elses prayers wil be heard. xx

Hi wp

Contact has been made.Its a start m8.Things will get better.I know because you will work at it.Keep up the good work kid .All the best Jeff.

Hi Winningpost,

Many thanks for dropping by my diary again mate - I always value your input.

Congratulations on the contact with your ex mate. I smiled when I read that. Obviously I am sorry to hear she isn't well Winningpost - I hope she gets well soon but I am so pleased for you. You do not deserve the pain you are going through.

Many congrats on your continued amazing progress too.

Stay strong mate - we will beat this!

Micky D

Hey wp

Thanks for your post, its appreciated that someone as successful as yourself at beating this disease drops in on my diary.

You are a realist though, and know that we are all only one bet away from disaster.

But, one day at atime we go forward!

Keep up with all the positive posting that you do.

Respect

David

Hey wp,

has our escalator turned off?? we were heading for the stars remember!! i just wanted to tell you i am still gamble free and my life has turned around and things are good!!sorry to hear you still not in a happy place with regards to your ex - but you are still gamble free my friend and that is the best place to be!! happiness will come you have to feel good about yourself and let it happen. Your achievement at quitting and all the fantastic support you give everyone on here has to hit home one day - and i mean you not your ex! you must take the credit that is given to you!

all is good in lindyworld!!!!

lots and lots of love

and get those stairs moving!!

linda x x x

Hi wp,thanks for the info regarding the book:),i will keep it in mind,i have a couple of really good books on the go at the minute.Great to read that contact with the ex has been made,......fingers crossed for you on that one:),it is a step forward for you though!!!.

Seano.

Winning Post -

Hello mate, thank you for your kind support as always, really appreciated.

Im sorry to hear about your situation about your ex mate, it must be very hard for you at the moment, I just hope she could see that this is the new you and you are a wonderful person.

Take care mate, hope everything gets sorted.

Hi wp

I just wanted to say "thanks" for the kind words of support on my diary.

It is funny that about 8 months ago I followed this forum from afar and didn't have th courage to join. At that time I was reading your diary intently. It is good to see that you are still plugging away at it... The only thing to do.

I hope all improves with your ex. Keep the faith!

Warm regards

T+G

wp,

Just checking in with you, hoping that today is a good day for you and that you are reminding yourself of how much better life in recovery is than being 'in action'.

Have a great weekend.

Brian

thank you so much my friends.....just a quick update...BREAKTHROUGH !!! last night after nearly a month i was round seeing the kids 🙂 ....my stepkid was ok just your typical teenager really 😉 but my little one was really pleased to see me....in fact a couple of times for a 2 year old to say "i love you daddy" filled me up both with emotion and pride :-)....anywaysnot much contact with the ex ,though she must have noticed,where we exchanged texts afterwards (too busy playin wi bairn)....basically we have to have talks (sometimes texts can be misread) sometime as i cant figure this jekyll and hyde character out..one minute all is well the next im the biggest a r s e under the sun....i am totally confused yet again as is she by my actions ??? in fact may even be back round tonight !!! thats it for now today i wont bet tomorrow i wont bet we CAN do this my friends have a great BET FREE weekend and i will catch up with you all later 🙂

Fantastic news wp. Stick with it fella. Enjoy the weekend. Russ

wp

This s***e disease has different consequences for all of us.

Good to read your last post, keep working at it and I'm sure things will work out.

Thanks for keep checking in on my diary.

We all need each other on here to keep us strong.

Have a good weekend.

David

Hi wp.. nice post. I can imagine the emotion from what you describe. Like david says keep working at it a day at a time as I work on me with all lifes ups and downs a day at a time. Have a great weekend.. S.A

hi wp,

just popped in to say thanks for your ongoing support.

I have my fingers and toes, and anything else that can be crossed that things will get better for you, its time you had something to smile about !! - you deserve it.

have a good weekend

tommi