my betting diary

Hi winning post, thanks for your continued support. You have been an ever present influence on my diary. I thank you for that. I hope that one day in the future you will have full access to your children and be debt free. You deserve this. Russ

Hi wp.. must admit ive got no idea how it must feel to be in the your life situation. All I can do is applaud you for the way youv'e gone about your recovery. keep working at it.. am sure you will.. S.A

Hi wp

Thanks for posting on my diary m8.I hope things start to pick up for you on the relationship front.On the gambling situation i have no worries.I know your determination will remain strong.As SA has said m8 keep working at it things will pick up .All the best Jeff.

Hi wp,

Glad to hear that you are still going strong and still aware that those evil gambling thoughts will come back to challenge you.

And you will beat them!

Getting There

Hi wp!!!

Thank you so much for the post on my diary. I was absolutely overwhelmed how much you rmemebered!

Slowly putting the blocks in place, don't think i could tell anyone of my family about it but i think i will be able to in time.

Good to see your managing your urges and staying away from gamlbing. As for the relationship, i can imagine the trust will take time to regain. Best of all for you though is that your staying strong after arguments which makes the urges all that stronger when your feeling a bit emotional too and need an escape.

Keep up the good work mate and thanks again for your amazing support

Jimmy

Hi wp

Good to see you are keeping strong even though relationships are still strained. I have found that by talking about my problem openly every day that relationships have turned from strained to being supportive as I demonstrate my commitment every day. I don't sit there talking about it all the time, I just make sure that I mention it at some point every day. It also sort of reinforces the one day at a time approach for me.

Seems to be working for me!

Keep up the good work.

Day 94, I wil not gamble today.

David

David

A thousand thanks to viggo, tommi, ade,Kim ;),s.a ,jeff, get there ,Jimmy and David. ..always appreciated. ..any readers following my diary I stated in my early stages that I had a date on the distant horizon that may have been troublesome...well that day arrived yesterday friends. .I wasn't gonna go but thanks to friends and a payday loan I had an annual trip to kelso races. ..not any normal day but hospitality wined dined etc. ..thanks to tinap (casino cruise ship) ,daves (race trip) and Russ (Vegas AND race trip ) I took inspiration that it can be done. ..I certainly won t encourage this type of thing but I felt strong enough in my determination of beating this evil to tackle them demon "bar stewards" face on. .so with my payday loan I got MYSELF a bottle of champers and sat and watched everyone all day. ..some could not believe I was just sitting there in what I was doing. .some came back race after race wi manys an unlucky tale. Couldve done this couldve done that. .I chuckled to myself, last year that was ME :-)... in fact we were invited on course to watch a race as it happens so me and my da watched a race from a fence on the course and watched the start of race ..something manys a punter doesn't see but it was funny. .jockeys actually swearing at each other to see who would be on the rails first. ..sorry this post may upset and offend many but today I feel SO PROUD of my achievements yesterday and up to this day that I feel the need to share and its thanks to this site that although I have personal issues to deal with I CAN do this 🙂 yesterday I DID NOT bet today I WON'T bet we can do this friends we are all different but I have proved I CAN DO THIS (albeit a helluva long way to go) and if I can we all can 🙂

As i've already said via text wp,a massive well done for yesterday!!!,i know how you deliberated about going or not,you have proved now that you can go for a day out at the races and treat it in the right way.....,a social event to be enjoyed in the company of your Dad and your friends,without the slightest urge to have a bet,anyway if anyone deserves a bit of relief from the day to day slog of work and paying off debts it's you my friend:).

Seano.

You didn't gamble.. thats what matters. Glad you enjoyed your day.. S.A 🙂

Evening wp.

I'm struggling to find the words to express my admiration for what you did yesterday mate. You walked into the lions den and emerged unscathed.

Absolutely outstanding mate.

I know that Russ often looks back to his visit to Vegas as a reference point in his fight against this gambling addiction. I think you now have your reference point mate. If you can go to the races and simply take in the atmosphere and enjoy the day without placing a bet then you can withstand any gambling urge that is thrown at you in the future.

I've been massively influenced by the strides you have made in your recovery wp. You have shown me that no matter what challenges are thrown at you in your personal life you can still find the strength to beat this gambling addiction we all share.

Thanks for showing me the way and keep doing what you are doing.

Curly.

wp,

Just wanted to add my congrats to those of others.

A real victory for you. Great to see you were celebrating your victory as it was unfolding with a bottle of champers.

Continued strength to you.

Brian

Hi winning post, why the heck do you think that post would offend anybody? I take my hat off to you....a compulsive gambler going to a race meeting and not gambling. Good for you fella. I'm interested to know how you found the day. I used to think I enjoyed the racing for exactly that 'the racing'. During my work visit to York races I came away from it feeling differently. I didn't enjoy the day that much. Maybe it was the stage of my recovery....the mourning that I could no longer come to a race meeting and have a bet? Your day was different though...you were there with your dad. Did everybody know your position? Did you have to take any sneaky trips to the loo!! Well done wp. Russ

Many thanks to seano, s. A, curly,Brian and Russ :-)... Russ in answer to your question I loved the whole day. .I didn't want to offend anyone as there are diaries on here really struggling and I have total respect for them and discussing a race day is defo NOT the most encouraging sign for a comp gambler however good it may have sounded. ..I used to go racing and punt but also used to like getting among the stable staff, owners, trainers and jockeys to try and get that wee bit extra info...sometimes it worked other times totally ignored but it was nice if a trainer took the time out and have a chat about the race ahead. ...I told the WHOLE busload of my diary and my problem on saturday so no sneeky trips to the loo for me...a friend actually text today to say hed read my diary and should be proud (thanks alex) 🙂 In fact I roared on a champion horse in ireland and was questioned if I backed it. ..I said NO I CANNOT WIN CAUSE I WOULD VE BET THE WINNINGS AND MUCH MORE AS CAN'T STOP 🙂 it would never be enough. ...I even started a few sing songs on the bus journey home. .a fantastic day out only to come back to reality and my day to day struggles ..talking of which I got text this evening inviting me round thursday for couple hours. .maybes the silence of not getting in touch has paid off but we all know there's 3 days till then and it could all change. ..I will settle for that just now though...today I haven't bet tomorrow I won't bet we can do this folks 🙂

Thank you for posting on my diary winningpost. You've achieved a heck of a lot and what you've gone through and being able to go to a race meeting and not bet is inspirational.

Maybe one day I could go to Vegas and not bet, but not for a long, long time.

Simon

Hi wp.

Thanks for the posts mate.

Don't worry about my betfilter temporarily being out of action mate. I can honestly say that i don't need it right now. I've never felt stronger and this time i am going to succeed like you and others.

I think i have learnt a lot over the last year. So many times i have fallen back into the trap of thinking i can control my gambling. So many times i have proven that i can't.

Your support through all this has been a real plus.

I hope you get to spend some time with the kids this week.

Keep it up big guy.