Day 65 and I'm just about to finish work and I'm feeling like a zombie, I desperately need some sleep! Today my tired mind has been full of gambling thoughts so maybe as I'm tired and weak that part of me wishes to strike! However I have got through it and fought off the urges, there have been no bets for me today! I'm off work this weekend and having a night away which has been something to look forward to. Bring it on!
Day 66 and a quick post as I am shortly heading off for a night away and a good few beers. I feel great and I won't be going anywhere near a bookies this weekend. I'm not far away from 10 weeks clean of gambling and going back to how I was on day 1 I didn't think I could get this far. Now I'm here I feel I can go much further by taking things 1 day at a time and thinking clearly!
Well done Phil, love the positivity you have at this time.
Have a great weekend
Suzanne xxx
Day 67 and I'm back from my weekend away with a bad head from a few too many beers! I'm getting so much more value for my money and enjoyment from it. Making the daily choice not to gamble does make life so much more rewarding. The many bookmakers that blight our towns and cities didn't tempt me this weekend! No bets today!
Day 68 and last night I booked a weeks holiday to Lanzarote for March next year. Its yet another thing that wouldn't have been possible whilst I was gambling. Two long days ahead of me in work and then I get four days off which I'm really looking forward to. So just a quick post today but the most important part is no bets today!
Day 69 and my last day in work before Christmas, I will be glad to get it done but I have a lot ahead of me this week as I have left most of my shopping till the last minute! There is a very local bookies that I'm no longer self excluded from so maybe the best present for myself this year is to pop in and self exclude. I'm still getting the odd urge (I really wanted to put a bet on Arsenal to win last night). However I'm dealing with the urges better than ever and really thinking hard about the old me and how things will slip for me if I gamble again. I think in the past my focus has been on stopping for other people or too much on targetting a certain number of days and for me that never worked. Now I'm focussed on myself, I am the compulsive gambler, if I fix myself then the world around me will be so much better for everyone. My simple task is to start each day and ensure I'm strong and deal with my urges and I'm doing well so far.
No bets today!
Day 70 and today has been spent madly rushing around the shops finishing off my Christmas shopping and passing many of my old haunts. Thinking back to all the years that I would have been tempted in to try and win more Christmas spending money and have lost all my money and spoilt my Christmas. Well this year I stayed strong, I spent a fortune on lovely gifts and I'm heading towards the big day with no money worries, no pressure, no stress and ten solid weeks behind me!
No bets today!
Well done Phil on 70 days,
Suzanne xxx
Day 71 and I used to enjoy Christmas Eve as it was one of the rare days that the bookies kept their doors closed on. However a few years ago they decided despite no racing they would open so they could keep their fobts going as long as possible. It was one of these Christmas Eves that I had a horrific experience and ruined my whole Christmas. This year that won't be happening, I'm happy and I'm dealing with my problem by fighting it off every day.
No bets today
Day 72 and I have had a lovely day so far, everyone is very happy with their gifts and I have been for a gorgeous Christmas dinner with my family. Its so lovely to enjoy today with a clear mind and no guilt over lies I have told or the lack of gifts to those close to me. I am on the right track and one gamble free day at a time things will only get better.
No bets today!
Bornagain wrote:
Day 72 and I have had a lovely day so far, everyone is very happy with their gifts and I have been for a gorgeous Christmas dinner with my family. Its so lovely to enjoy today with a clear mind and no guilt over lies I have told or the lack of gifts to those close to me. I am on the right track and one gamble free day at a time things will only get better.
No bets today!
Congratulations and I hope you had a superb day!
Merry christmas!
Thanks for the message triangle I did indeed have a superb day and I hope yours was equally good. Its now day 73 and on this day of gambling madness I'm not tempted at all. I don't want to know anything about the so called big race and I'm not interested in all the tv adverts and Twitter ads from lowlife gambling organisations. Instead I am happy, calm and looking forward to dinner out somewhere nice tonight.
No bets today!
Day 74 and I'm back in work today for a run of four days and I'm glad to be back. Christmas has cost me a fortune, clearly better spent than gambling, but I want to get some money saved up and it feels like its been one expensive thing after another. I also need to get in shape as I have piled on the pounds lately so I'm trying to watch what I eat from now on especially when its just over ten weeks till my holiday. I'm going along well on the gambling front as I'm not experiencing any urges at the moment but I do need to remain on guard as my addiction won't go away and those urges can come flooding back at any time.
No bets today!
Day 75 and I'm just preparing myself for a days work. Double time today makes it well worth going in and the extra money will be enjoyed next month when I get paid. I'm feeling really good on the gambling front right now, I'm on a long run of not having any urges. Life is easier when you don't have the urges to fight, although I'm well aware they will always come and go. So work for me today and no bets today!
Great going on 75 days Phil,
Keep going ;))
Suzanne xxx
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