My Diary - Day by Day

Sorry Guys I deposited 🙁

Stop now...You have worked so hard & you have much more important things to spend your money on!

Stop now before it's too late. Come off the site, self-exclude etc...you know the drill! This could be a blip...don't let it be a sustained period of gambling or else it will be harder to bounce back from. You've done so well and you can do it again, just stop now.

LifeBegins x

You held out for so long girl, I sensed it was going to happen;((, and am not surprised or shocked because how can it be easy for you, no support from your OH, he doesn't care because he is in the grip of it, sorry and may be out of order a bit, but he has done you no favours, and you have worked soo hard to get to nearly one year.

Ok you have tasted that forbidden fruit that only harms us, and I will guess it tasted quite sweet, and I guess you felt some sort of immediate relief, mixed with guilt and shame:((

No need to say sorry to us girl, you have our support unconditionally, but you must learn from this, you need now to get tough with your OH, nothing changes if nothing changes. Folks say we can't blame anyone but ourselves, but there is always a trigger, when we relapse after being gamble free for so long, you have done amazing, you never got complacent, or thought you could now control it, the addiction was quietly waiting for one tiny little gap.

Close the door to it, you have your lovely daughter to think of, but you have you to think of,too, and you know gambling is not the answer, Even if you win you lose, you know that so what is the point.

Suzannexxx

Hi wants2stop,

So sorry I'm late in supporting you. I am not active on here recently and truly didn't see you struggling...

Listen, no way you're back to day one. Please don't let your mind trick you in such thinking and keep those door firmly shut. For many of us, slips are a learning curve. It happened...ok, dust yourself down and move on.

Most importantly look at that angelic face of lil bundle. Her smile will melt any ice you might of come across recently. Don't give up ☺ keep fighting ! For you - for her future.

Don't beat yourself up..keep posting, we are here to support.

S x

Hey Wants2, get back on that wagon Mummy...Don't hurt yourself anymore!

Hi wantstostop,

You did not post yesterday:( I do hope you have got that itch scratched now:) and are back on track, it was a blip in your long record of recovery, don't let that go, because you have done fantastic.

Take care and keep yourself safe.

Suzanne xxx

Day 0 - 10/1/16

Hi guys had a binge. Dont know why i did it to myself. Ended up making £200 but thats not the point. Sorry for letting everyone down. Didnt know if i would post again as am ashamed of myself. It worked the first time though so going to start again.

First attempt using this site I abstained 337 days - start again ...

Didnt know if i would read the comments as i didnt want to feel worse. Truly do appreciate your wise words advice and support. Thank guys xxxx

Good to see you post, was a little worried about you.

Listen you are not back to square one, you scratched that itch, well done for coming back and getting back on the right path:))

I know it has been very hard for you, with your OH gambling, which you say is a trigger at times:((

Walking along side with you girl.

Keep strong and keep safe.

Suzanne xxx

Good to see you back take care here's to the next 337 days we'll get the ODAAT

KTF

Day 1 - 11/1/16

Starting again - back to Day 1 - last deposited 9.24am 10/1/16 so officially over 24 hours now. Thanks for all the support x

Hey girl, well done on day 1 the toughest one after a blip, remember you are not back on day 1 on your journey.

Sending you strong and determined thoughts to keep nice and steady.

Suzanne xxx

Day 2 - 12/1/16

Been having 'withdrawals' but i know i can do this again - actually feeling positive - probably down to the support on here x

Hi

Good to see you feelng positive again,:))

Have a good strong day,

Suzanne xxx