Here we go, day 3 🙂
Everyday getting stronger but staying on guard! We will not give in!!
1 day at a time xx
Day 4 - 20/2/16
Keeping strong 🙂
Half way to 1 week 🙂
Day 5 - 21/1/16
Yes almost at a week now - still thinking about what i did but trying not to dwell on it as it hinders the recovery. Thinking less about gambling as each day goes by. Concerned about the financial implications of my last 'blip' but i cant do anything about that now - just stay gf so that it doesnt get worse. Its going to take a while to recover financially but i will get there.
Update on financials -
Debt £5284.80 (although this is going to go up a little more as i need to use my credit card again this month to get out of this mess!) AIM £3000
Savings £2 AIM £200
Paige Savings £320 AIM £500
wants2stop wrote:
Start of year financials-
Debt stands at £5178.50
End of year aim £3000
Looking back shows only increased debt by £106.30 so far (as i said this will go up) but lost all my savings too! Trying to limit damage control and spend/use minimum on credit card
Hey w2s
Glad to see you're taking charge again and using it to fuel your positive mindset. Just be weary that u don't get caught up in the chasing game with the hopes of winning it back like I've done so many times before!
We're back on track and staying positive one day at a time 🙂
Day 6 - 22/2/16
Thats what i was doing chasing it and in the end lost so much more 🙁 Dont want to feel that way again
OH found out about the relapse yesterday feeling a little relieved that its not a secret anymore but worried it might fuel his gambling - he has been good for a whil although he gambled again 2 days ago after a good stint. Hoping finding out about me doesnt fuel an excuse to carry on. Especially as its my 30th in 2 weeks so i hope he has money to surprise me/get presents
We both seem to be on a 'worry' today. Maybe cos it all happened his time last week?
Whatever the reason, lets be positive that it's one more sleep till 1 week gf! 🙂
What's done is done, the only way is forward. Deep breath - 1 day at a time xx
Hey well done on 6 days, but I do think changes are now needed for you and your OH, to be able to move forwards,
We can never underestimate this addiction, we can never control it, the only way to go forwards for you and your OH is to realise the self destruction this addiction can do, I sense that you (I realise your OH is still in the grip) but I sense that you are too.
You need to close every door every inch, so that this addiction can't come through, but this won't happen unless you want it too more than anything else.
Material pressies won't even be in the equation if you both don't change, you will be worrying about stupid things like toilet rolls lol:)
and even more important your priority bills, food, and a home for your LO.
Not trying to scare you judge you or tell you what to do, but this is what this addiction does to us if we won't take serious necessary steps to keep our future safe.
Take care and get your life back, you and your OH are sooo much worth a happy, sane and healthy life, and so is your LO,
Suzanne xxx
Day 23/2/16
You are right what you are saying Suzanne - i have been there before no money for bills/food etc that was when it was just the OH gambling and i could blame it all on him. Hit more lows when i joined the addiction - dont know why i did as i hated it so much seeing the destruction it caused us with the OH on his own. Strange that i would start when i hated it so much! But i did. A little at first and i would win sometimes and then i got caught in a trap!
We do deserve more than this and i will have it!
I am not materialistic its the fact he has let me down so much choosing gambling over me this is another way i have measured it by lack of thought at times like birthdays etc
Proud to be a week gf xxx
All rings so true with me too! Same thing with my OH, now I'm the one letting him down. And it's my birthday in a couple of weeks as well lol.
But here we are 1 week gf admitting we can't just have a little go and walk away but we can turn it around 1 day at a time 🙂
Day 8 - 24/2/16
In it together Red x
In it together w2s x
Stay present and know you have support here. I didn't want to admit it before but I do need all of the help I can get. Councilling tomorrow - bit worried again, I've spent most of the week looking forward to it lol.
We don't need to gamble, we need our rewards! 🙂 1 day at a time
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