You're probs just feeling tempted cos anxious about OH pay day and whether or not he will gamble. Just focus on you and Paige for now 🙂 gambling will not make u happy, even if you win, it never feels good xx stay strong
Day 60 - 16/4/16
You are right i have to focus on myself. The OH didnt gamble on payday (so i started to believe he was going to try) but he did do it yesterday! Had a gambling dream last night - glad it was only a dream
Hey there lil angel вє (pic is awesome!!!!)
Well done on day 61! Wow...little steps makes big strides huh! Awesome achievement, keep reaping the benefits recovery offers....this lil bunde & yourself is more than worth it! Hope OH will come to senses soon also....
For now...keep on trucking..for you..for ur loved ones!
Be proud!
S x
Just checking in chic 🙂
It was just a dream and you are still a non gambler x
Day 62 - 18/4/16
Yep still GF - the OH gambled more - he told me yesterday he used paypal which let him spend more than he has in the bank. Think he told me so i would bail him out again but i cant this time got no money left!
Day 63 - 19/4/16
Had a few urges last night but kept busy and a rational mind
Well done chic. The fact that u actually can't bail him out might be the rock bottom moment he needs (hopefully). And the thought that you gambling to try and come to the rescue will just hurt u further so stomp on those pesky urges 🙂
You are doing amazing! 63 days - 9 weeks!! In it together xx
Feel like c**P - literally overwhelmed with emotions at the mo. Anger Frustration Desperation Depression Feeling like i may aswell give in and gamble at least i will feel better while i am gambling!!! Thats what a little part of me is thinking. The rational part said come on here let it out and keep strong. Soooo close to giving up at the moment. Red glad of your support - seeing that when i logged in has helped but its tempting!
Don't do it chic, know those feelings all too well x you came on here which just shows how strong you are. You know my past slips and I would have given in for a lot less but you can totally do this! Think about getting counselling for yourself, it really has helped me deal with my and OH potential for gambling and my general overwhelming emotions.
Always here no matter what x see you tomorrow for day 64 gf. One day at a time x
Day 64 - 20/4/16
Thanks for the support - kept strong feel a little better today. Fighting a lot of battles at the mo and i have a history of depression anyway. Still GF
Day 65 - 21/4/16
Still here 🙂
Yes!! Keep going w2s! In it together. One day at a time 🙂 xx
Day 66 - 22/4/16
Think he gambled again when i went to bed last night :/
Grrrrr, what an irresponsible Father, he makes my blood boil 🙁
Seriously W2S, as Red says, please consider getting some help for you! Depression is no fun & this sort of stress on top of it plus looking after your little Angel makes life really bloody hard!
Keep fighting - ODAAT
Day 67 - 23/4/16
Paige's birthday today! Been really busy so only just logged on. Can't believe my beautiful daughter is 1 already xxx
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