My Diary of Shame

Thanks for the post on my diary, but special thanks for remembering the the little one's first birthday. That's really nice!

I'm unlikely to suddenly go mad in the next 24 hours so I look forward to being in your gang tomorrow!

Just wanted to drop by and say thanks for posting on my diary and welcoming me to the forum. I was touched that you took the time.

I've been reading through your recovery and it really is amazing and inspiring. There have been so many things that I have identified with and have made me feel that I'm not going out of my tiny mind! Thank you for sharing it with us all x

Hi ODAAT, just wanted to say thank you for your post to me on the 2015 Challenge. You are right it is time to go a little bit crazy, and I will try that straight after I've put my ironing away neatly in the fridge! 4 days to go until you hit the year and join the 3% club, keep going, you are an inspiration x

This dude is taking the P**s. He works for One of the major Gambling Orgs. commissions...

Hi Junnieee,

Dude lol lol..sorry but not sure what that last post is about! Ya have any secrets?? Better not else i hunt ya down lol

3 more days huh..you're doing it and i am very happy to have you on the challenge! As ya know- it will help ya and me big deal ☺

Keep making the right choice...keep believing..striving forward and of course slapping mr G in the face all along..(he must look like blue plum now huh..mk it black..nice challenge for ya alongside "x" from Dan 😉 )

Later gator

(((((Bleugh))))) - keep drinking!!!

3 days to go junniee, til that big X lol,

Blondieee xxx

Well call me suspicious Mrs D but it appears I may have upset someone :-0

Once I'd recovered from the shock, the Mrs Marple in me kicked in, in a Hot Fuzz sort of way & off round the site I went to ensure I hadn't written anything mean! I didn't appear to have done so I wasted a couple of minutes trying to figure out who this joker was that disappeared without a word about 2 1/2 years ago & why he'd come back promising tales of sharing his recovery & yet wasting valuable seconds on me? I discovered a kiss from someone else also called Pete (who has posted, on average one day per year of being a member) & a quarter of an hour later (about the same time as it would take to write a reasonable post) JunglePete pops back for about an hour & a half to say Hi to a few old friends & have a pop @ me, charming (in a weird, conspiracy theory sort of way)!

I have double standards so rather than just ignore this, I have elected to treat it with the contempt it deserves! Although I would ask "JunglePete if you're listening, please share with 'us' the secret of your success!" This site is for people that want to recover not people wanting to make trouble!

Hey junniee,

I thought his comment was very strange, but hey just dismiss it, don't let it bug you, listen 3 days to go to that 3%

I know you don't do xxxs HDs, but I am sending you a very big hug

(((((((Junniee)))))) Xxx

Hi Junie, absolutely, absolutely, absolutely treat that post with the contempt it deserves, why jungle Pete's concerned with our Junie is beyond me, he should be looking over his own shoulder...there's a crazy Minnesota Dentist who may have him in his sights 😉 ...thanks for being there Juuuuune...OAU..Ginger x

Just dropping a wee note to say thank you for ur post and keep up the good work. Not long to u reach the year well done

Hi
Junie

I always knew you would get there! It was obvious looking at your posts that the only way you got the attention you wanted from your loved ones was to join them but it wouldnt have had the same meaning to you if i had pointed it out, much more empowering when we figure it out for ourselves :).
Thanks for your reply yesterday it meant a lot.

Dan x

Hi ODAAT, thanks for your post on my diary. At 364 days this is your 'New years eve' so I hope you bave some suitable celebrations planned. Well done!!

Odaat, I loved reading your diary. Could you give us in any way before you realised, or the tick that had to make you stop. Enquiring minds. I Keep rolling in goodness. And Ultimitely you will help us.

Hi ODAAT

it seems like Ginge has lost his cryptic crown ;-0 ...happy New Years eve Juuuuune, party!, party! OAU...Ginger x

Well that was quite a different post from one left the other day JunglePete!?!

It's a good question that I should answer here...My swansong occurred, quite simply, when I ran out of money! I'd been putting up barriers for some time: self excluding, reducing my withdrawal limits, using credit cards with no cash facility, having hypnosis but kept finding ways round them (especially when I realised I could use my card over the counter), borrowing more & more money to cover the losses. Eventually I met someone & as our money became more entwined, I had to admit that I liked a gamble. I played it down massively (easy when my Mum was so bad) to start with but then as it got harder to hide, suggested that I could do with a bit of help stopping & began confessing (by text) when I was feeling vulnerable...Woohoo, someone else to blame! Instead of hiding it, I could now cry about my losses & get sympathy & actually I began to feel really really guilty! I was also expecting some inheritance money & was rather anxious that it would follow every other penny that had ever passed through my grubby little mitts!

The day I spent my last £300 I had 2 options, I could steal from him or get help - I chose the latter.

Thank goodness I did! Recovery is like anything in life worth having, you have to work @ it - ODAAT