My Diary of Shame

Hi Kelly , thanks for the flybye this morning , your soooooooooooooo right I really do need to get an identity on here , so maybe I'll take a look over the weekend for a suitable picture and tag and no sarcastic input from yourself thank you ! LOL !

Glad to see you back on form by the way , if you get a mo please check out the link Martin ( oldham sent me this morning ) ref shaving , I'm sure you'll giggle ?

Take care Pop's x

Hi Odaat,

Thanks for taking the time to post on my diary. I appreciate that you are trying to give me the whole 'tough love' approach but each and every one of us are different. I feel bad enough already and reading your comments today felt like receiving a kick in the stomach. I hold my hands up and admit that I have failed and let people down on countless occasions. However, I have never sought outside help and admitting that I need counselling is a big thing for me. Please think in future of the impact your comments have upon others. I am staying positive that counselling will be the cure to my illness. PS I already have the necessary blocks in place.

Dave

Hi June,

If you're reading this can you have a look on the f & f section and talk to sadandlonely about her rights, I'm ill equipped to answer her but she needs advice and I think you're best place to offer it - thanks chicken.

xx

Yep ! You always notice these things don't you , I realised once I'd sent it into cyber oblivion , at my age it's s problem remembering how many P's I've had in a day ? Could you enlighten old PoPs in the correct rendition ? LOL ! Hope you like the new photo baybeeeee ! Take care of yourself Kelly ! Night X

Morning young lady , just wanted to thank you for Pi.sing all over my diary last night , I now realised I wasn't that far away and that Martin prob got the jist of what I was trying to say , I'd have got back to you last night but pi.ssed off to bed instead , so apologies foir that .

Hope your well and enjoy the rest of your weekend !

PoP's x

Morning Juuuuunnnnneeee! I'll email the link to you later, I've got important mum stuff to do today 🙂

Thanks for that last night, you sometimes want to just reach into the laptop and give someone a huge squeezy hug then a firm shake of the shoulders whilst telling them to sort their s**t out for themselves and the kids. That was one of those occasions but you're good at giving sensible advice in those situations and you knows da rules.

xx

Quiet applause ....I'm yet to meet the "monster" but for what it's worth his true piercing words was something what i needed to hear number of times!...thanks Dan! ( you better be reading & replying to my humble text! 😉

& Sesuo - good to be bk ☺

#RIPjoshuajones

There but for the grace of God go I!

Just read your post to Shorty. You know the one about not blaming yourself for someone else's gambling?

Take care,

CW

Isn't it weird for that to have popped out after all this time?!? Just so you know Mrs D, Shorty's little one did her a beautiful picture & it occurred to me that had I been a loving daughter instead of a female 'Kevin', Mum may not have needed to escape! I realised it @ the time of posting & planned to pop on over (& debate what came first, the chicken or the egg) when my eye caught the newspaper & that beautiful boy who just gave up trying! It doesn't matter what came 1st, they both exist! I may have not have been the best daughter in the world, not even close & I may also continue to be a pain in the r*e but I don't make Mum gamble anymore than she made me! We are responsible for our own actions...Never give up giving up!

Well put Junnieee,

You are not responsible for your mums gambling, or she yours, or me for my sons gambling or them responsible for me gambling.

Thanks for reminding me :)))

Take care and never give up on giving up:)))

Sxxxxx

Not asking for an answer on an open forum but you don't hesitate to put yourself down. Kevin!!! Are you quite sure that there's no one worse (real or fictional) to liken yourself to?

I'm not the best person to boost your confidence but FWIW, you bear no resemblance whatsoever to Kevin.

Take care,

CW

There is, my niece...But we won't go there coz she's my little madam 😉

Thank you for your kind words CW! I don't mean to come over as overly critical of myself but I'm a realist & I wasn't the model child. Just like I'd agree with mum now that she was a sh7te parent, I can still assure her that she must have done something right! Equally, she may (still) want to give me a good shake but she's never tried to send me back! Dan suggested I examine my childhood months ago & questioning it came out of nowhere & genuinely surprised me! Admittedly, this may have been as much because if I ever stumbled across any skeletons, in my mind, I figured they would be of some repressed fault elsewhere. I don't have the debilitating confidence issues many addicts carry, I'm comfortable in my skin & to some extent still carry the arrogance of my addiction...The last thing I expected to come across was a consideration of the fault being @ my door. It was good for me, I have addressed it & moved on but with another strand of sensitivity in my armoury.

Thanks for popping by Junnieee, and I will tell you that for me two years feels totally different to one year:)))

Feeling comfy in your skin eh, that is certainly progress, and dare I say positivity lol,

Not long for you now to reach two years, each day another layer of that evil onion shreds itself, even if it's just a tiny bit.

Take care and keep stubborn (in a nice way ofcourse.

Blondieeeexxxxxx