My Diary of Shame

The more the merryer ! I could do with a good pi..s up !

You too my lovely! I wondered if I should come clean but you've been a bit absent lately. We're both on the happy pills June - recovery is great eh?! I'm trying to catch up on diaries but keep getting distracted by customers emailing (how dare they, don't they know it's Friday Skiveday for goodness sake?). But, OM effing G, Cornwall? I love, love, love Cornwall and when Bug goes to uni in a couple of years I'm upping sticks and moving there too. We might just have to actually meet one day, although letting people in scares me off as you know, so that's a definite maybe 🙂 . Where's Terry got to? I miss him too, tell him to come back. I've got to go out for a couple of hours, but will be online again later. Take care special June. x

ps what gave me away?! x

lololol! You know me too well, I never could help myself 🙂 Just cooking dinner (yummy yummy, thai green chicken curry (home made), rice, naan (Aldis finest) and lashings of mango chutney). Bubs will be watching the footie tonight, 'come on you R's' so I'll be in my room watching soaps and Gogglebox and having a read on here. Be there or be square June. x

Morning June. I still haven't caught up on your diary, my need for sleep outweighed the want to do that last night. I'm off to stay with a friend tonight (our delayed Christmas get together because I was otherwise engaged with self-pity, lol) and am staying over so I'll catch up tomorrow I expect. I hope you're ok aside from your dodgy hip and tattoo'd nether regions. I'm kinda glad that you're not on here as much as you were, I don't think it's healthy. As much as your generous support is welcomed, you do need time to be the 'you' that you are outside of Gamcare. x

Hey you, my favourite rancid old minger, of course you're not in my bad books 🙂 I am indeed still a G******e, it's taken all I have to refrain from responding to an inspired piece of weekend happiness-sharing from someone, but refrain I have, so maybe it's G******e in censorship! Oh God June, I haven't looked at that email account for about a year - it's one I used for a particular bad spell of self destruction. However, I will take a look, get your email address and catch up properly. One other thing, I forgot, your halloween wedding! I hope it went off like a dream - I was with you in spirit, I did think of you and nm on the day and prayed to a God I don't believe in that you had a good day. x

Hi Sesuo,

Just a hi since my octopus skills has to work overtime on Whatsapp 😀

Just wanted to thank you for your unconditional support, acceptance and understanding.
I even forgive ya for calling me a bleep 😛
That's what sisters (from another motjer, father & country) are for!

I am very very proud of you and wanted to say that the light you always shine rain or sun is the miracle itself!

Now..bk to basics instead of waffling on..weaning and bobbing...

Later !

Morning ODAAT,

I can't think of anything to say about you attending Dan's meeting where riff raff are welcome, so I won't. Although joking aside, you said you enjoyed it.

I've been doing (too much?) reading lately and one theme that crops up is the difference between guilt and shame. You mention shame quite a lot, guilt is healthier, might be worth doing some similar reading?

Hope you're feeling better than you were a few weeks ago.

All the best,

CW

Hiya youngen ! , not heard from you for a while , noticed you working your magic with the newbies and as usual some great advice being given by yourself . Yeah just popping up for a day out with the saucepan's ( saucepan lids , kids ) cor blimey I'm gonna fit rite in ain't I , just like one of them there cockney sorts ? . I didn't realise you worked on the London eye , ever think you're life's just going around in circles ? But if you're checking for me at Waterloo I'm the bloke with the limp , Zimmer frame and two adult looking kids who are looking as though they can't wait to raid my wallet ! May bump into you ? LoL Take care of yourself kelly and love and respect as always . Pop's

Hello my fav family member and original ODAAT , that tag seems to pop up everywhere at the mo , I honestly thought you would have had the whole copyrite thing sorted by now ? .

So just popped by to see how your doing really , missing the whitty banter post's ( yeah whitty that's the right word , no s, I remember now ) and of course the excellent advice you dish out , always follow the posts with interest ,as you say it like it is " Fu **kcerrarrghh , Bst''dtayy , wanccccccccccccccccccccccccccererrrr, " that sort of thing , you know ?".

Hope the pain's eased since last we spoke and no more rusty pin's in yer lady bit's ? LOL !

Take care Kelly and catch up soon !

POP'S x aka , BiG AL , uncle George and a few other unprintable name's I've been called !

I found this site @ the r*e end of 2014 after being gamble free for a number of days & truly believe I owe it & you (everyone on here) my life! I am torn between posting this as a separate thread in the success stories but I have decided against it as I still have a lifetime of recovery ahead of me!

Great reflective post !

Just take care of yourself ODAAT !

Best wishes ,,, Alan

ODAAT

You sound like you are very much at peace with yourself and that is a wonderful thing. You have put in the work and are reaping the rewards... congratulations!

Good for you my little Dutch friend (yes, I know you're not little or Dutch but until we meet and I see Converse rather than clogs I can't change the image that's in my head).

You've done so well and you're such an inspiration.I am truely grateful that you were the first person to reach out a cyber hand and help me navigate my way towards freedom and recovery. I honestly don't think I would have done it without you, so thanks.

So this is how I see it...you're a straight talking, no-nonsense type of gal. You say it like it is, but in a kind and caring way. You've fashioned your own path to recovery, much of it based on willpower but more importantly on a decision not to go back to life as it was.You're open minded and have looked at reasons and options for help and support and you've chosen a way that suits you. It's working! You question things and then make a decision based on what's right for you. You seem comfortable in your own skin and happy with your lot in life. You're grateful...for stopping, for life, for the seasons and for all the things that recovery has given you. You've come a long way and you're still moving forwards. I know you hate all this mushy stuff, so I'll stop now 🙂

Well done you. You deserve it. And yes, it's a good job you're not a racehorse. You'd have been turned into burgers long ago 🙂

LB x

Ow ,yah absolutely , your soooooooooooooooooooo right ! but possibly Lacrosse daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarling ? .

Do you know what , it's so nice to see you back where you work your magic , I know we all need to be away from here from time to time but you are really missed when your not on active duty , I don't mind you taking some well earned R&R but just make the gaps shorter !

Just thought I'd share that with you , as I have my share size head on tonight ! (

POP's x

Ps , Sorry for all the gushy stuff , I know you don't like it ( unless its got chocolate on of course ).

Juuuuuune! games.games.com/games/qplaygames with a www. at the front. Is that a challenge?! I'm qpg itssnowing, but because of the way the site displays the name, it sometimes looks like gits snowing, lol, that's more like it.

xx