My Diary of Shame

Thanks for the drink by yesterday 300 days didn't mean that much to me it was just another day but I was overwhelmed by all the well wishes yesterday hit home how much support is out there. Tganjs again I'm more than happy to stand by your side and fight this fight with all I have.

KTF

thank you for your kind words and support , means alot 🙂

Shout out taken in. Thank you Oldhamktf and ODAAT very much. Nice to be appreciated.

I'm just gonna say how much i appreciate your presence in my life. It takes a lot of shaking moments where i think that my moods are no good for your recovery...yet, you're such a strong person inside out i don't think i have ever come accross one.

I'm gonna say it...:-0...I'm BLOODY PROUD of you Sesuo! One week till an amazing, respectful, inspiring and full of peace & joy day - 2 years gal!!! Man....2 years of you making the right choice. If i wasn't proud to stand in your army, I'm better off to be shot lol.

Bursting with pride & that's the emotion i should have more often! Thank you for being you!

One day at a time indeed - keep making the right choice...your life is yours to be claimed for ever & you more than deserve it! ☺

Coo-coo

Thanks for the post Kelly
I can't really do anymore soul searching than I already have
So counselling really doesn't appeal to me as it's not something I'm really open to
I imagine the councilor would probably need it themselves after an hour listening to me lol.

Like yourself I just enjoyed the gambling no real connection problem's. But I have been this way from as young as I can remember. It's only recently I realised how much gambling dictated my life and how what ever was going on be it party's get togethers or down time it was taken up by gambling
It's tough to get out of the same pattern. Especially as my whole week was pretty much the same every week.
I'm trying to make little changes every week where I do something different on the day I used to gamble. A couple of week's ago I took my family away for the weekend with the same money I used to gamble every week
With it we eat out every meal went shopping basically lived like royalty and it got me thinking. Why have I been throwing money away. When I could of been doing this all along
That's what keeps me going
Sorry for the long post
Hopefully see you in chat xx

Had to stop by and say a huge thank you for all your support over the past year. You were the first person to reach out to me when I made my first post, and the first to write on my diary. I'm so glad that I joined up at the time when you were here 24/7! You're friendship on here and, more importantly, outside of cyberspace has made a huge difference and I am truely grateful. I know you don't like all this guff, but it's true 🙂 Thanks, my little Dutch friend. Not sure I'd have made it without you xx

Morning Mrs D, another night shift, another late getaway & I'm not even really stressing out :-0

You are so strong odaat. I come by your diary to see how if I could try become in your mind set, to see if I better understand his mind set.
You definitely have a worryingly good way with words haha I could picture it all .

Have you considered a book? Nothing to help or pressure those the same but show them the pain and success of hard work.

I can't imagine the struggle. I'm the same with food when it comes to trying not to eat it for the better of my own health. Stress definitely helps me ignore the crisps screaming for me to chew them.

I'm so great full I came across this website to find people who are so open and honest and sharing. Who see the damage and want to stop it.
Good luck odaat. You can do this. You will do this. The world isn't worth living if we don't have love.

Morning ODAAT

Thanks for dropping by and being my first official post!! I have to say I cringe when you talk about my strength. I am still at the point where I am "faking it 'til I make it". My god I'm working on getting where I actually "feel" what I say but for now I have to make do with feeling like a bit of a fake:)

Neither side of this forum wants to be here yet here we are:(. It is so important that the likes of you and the others( who I won't list as I will miss someone ) with recovery (not just abstention) continue to be active on the forums. You guys provide hope and a way forward when "the penny drops". Your side as the other side has an incredible % of people that are not fully ready to commit for various reasons but who knows when that will change and the light & support they need will be here.

Wow now that is a little deep (even for me).:)

Have a great gamble free day!

Cathyx

Thepartner12 - cool harmonious sign-off.

Great to see you using the chat ODAAT.

It's about time you started to make more of a contribution to the forum 🙂

Pleasure to share the chatroom with you. Very impressed that you managed to get a word in edgeways with me dominating the room in full flow APU ODAAT q:-I

I find I have very little anger in me. Not angry with gambling, strangers or my lovely partner. Things can annoy me, but that rarely turns to anger. Couldn't recall the last time I felt angry.

Not something that has effected me but can see how the stress from gambling could make people more susceptible to anger.

If you write a book and need someone to foreward it for you - I'm your man!

Clearly, rightly and obviously you remain a huge inspiration to people on the forum.

For that, I would raise/wave glowsticks in the air in your honour, but I'm all out of glowsticks. I've had to make do with a couple of lime flavoured freezie pops instead.

My hands might be numb, but I'm a waving.

:-D/

Sooooooo....hello Sesuo!
I haven't got much words to say to be honest, except - you bring light to so many people's lives it's unreal! Who are you & how come you hid away for such a long time?! You saved so many souls and broken hearts from more pain, this alone is something amazing! You're creating miracles not realising it!! ☺
I am very proud of you! I wrote all the words of huge congratulations last year, well....i can only echo them again and come back here high fiving you for another year G free! You are doing it ☺ 2 years of kicking mr G in da nuts! Hell gal..keep it up!!!!...absolutely amazing to see how far you have come & how much stronger you're getting with each and single day...I'm very happy for you!
I hurt you, pushed you and refused point blank to accept your support and wisdom on numerous occasions...only to learn the hard way that the only friendship worth having is a friendship full of honesty, care, compassion, forgiveness and understanding... i have a friend to look up to & feel equally worthy at the same time...the sense i struggle to explain.. i am more than happy to keep walking beside you one step at a time..you are an inspiration and i am soooo happy to know you!

Last thought b4 i let others get in the cyber space with their well wishes ...... how is that lil star up in the sky? Is it me or is it a lot brighter than it usually is? ☺

Keep up the great work chook & i can't wait to come bk here a year later....with more Coo coo greetings to boot 😉

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HAPPY 2 YEARS GAMBLE FREE

Happy 2 years odaat. What an amazing achievement

You need the biggest cheesecake!

I take my hat off to you - which is becoming increasingly difficult for me to do these days.

IYKWIMAITYD ODAAT.

Great achievement.

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🙂

Be proud.

Brightest blessings

FM Glint

2 years!!! Happy days 🙂 🙂

I think you know (at least I hope you do) just how much you've helped me and how much I value your friendship. So I'll spare you my usual copious amounts of waffle and offer a simple thanks and huge congratulations.

Think I might even have a little bar of galaxy for breakfast in celebration for you!

LB x