My first day

Hi Janulka

Welcome to GC! Good first step in admitting the problem. You will find lots of support on here.
The only and most effective way to go about this addiction - is admit you have a problem, be open for different approaches in keeping it under control. Be honest to yourself and your loved ones and put some actions in place to aid you in your recovery. E.g. self exclusions, counselling (GC offers free one & you never know what lurks behind this dreadful habit..you can find many answers to your behaviour this way), GA meetings which are all over UK and of course great for support. Also use this site wisely, put your thoughts down 24/7 if needed..post, read and also attend chat rooms which are on here daily. (Just check the times).
You're not alone and you know what - you matter! You deserve better than the pain this nasty habit brings. Stand tall, use advice offered, beter your life and walk out a winner! ☺

You can do it!

Day at a time - stay committed

Sandra

Thinking about my past 5 years make me think that I m worth nothing,I m just making problems.Many times my hubby gave me chances,and I newer ve ben strong enough to quit.I know he loves me,I don't know what I could do in he's situation.Now when I m here thinking is my last chance to get up.Long time a go I was in similar situation but on the other side and I quit,maybe is happening to me for punishment ?

Hi and welcome, if you get chance, take a look at other diaries on here, it may help your feel less alone. Some amazing tips, support and advice on here. I use this as my diary now, and write in when I can. You story is similar to mine, I won £5000 and paid off all my debts with it, but sadly took out loans etc again and it's well and truly gone! The only way I'm seeing that £5000 again is if I work my a**e off and save it coz I will never win it back because when I start I can't stop, not matter how much I'm up the money will always end up back in the slots and more on top! Good luck and stay strong. C x

Thanks Charlie,helps when somone unswer your post,it's mean that someone read this.All those 5 years was up and down,mostly down,seating,riting this post and thinking"o my goodness ,my life is so boring ",I have no hobby,not a lot of friends,all day just cooking,cleaning and taking care of my kids.Dont understand wrong,I love them more then anything ,they r everything what I got but I want to start to enjoy all this.If somone can tell me if in 1,2 or 3 years of free gambling u gonna be totally free and happy...

Keep this site as your new little hobbie, read through the long diaries as they show a true journey through this addiction. Do you like walking? I used to hate it, but now find it helps clear my head. Take Care c x

Thank u Charley

Welcome Janulka

Hope you are well and welcome! I have found with my new found time from not gambling i have begun to read again (signed up to audbile) which i used to love and now i occasionally bake which i enjoy 🙂 its good to do things you enjoy whilst on your journey to give you some "me time".

Wishing you all the best on your journey

Hi Athena,I m feeling really good here,found this side interesting,helpful to me.All of you make me to believe in me again for the first time since I can't remember.Fell like I have friends and I m not alone .I hope soon I will be proud from myself for not gambling more than one week.

Hello ,my second day of gambling free,not in the mood for nothing.I have to call go to do appointment ,maybe I have sort of depression .On Saturday I should pay for something but I ve lost the money,my husband again will be dissapointed and I have to talk to him about this but I m scared.

Trying to quit smoking but I don't know if is good idea at this time .

Hi, maybe quit one thing at a time? You don't want do too much at moment as you'll easily get fed up of you aren't enjoying anything. Obviously upto you, just a thought. How are you getting on today? Cx

I ve BeГ±at the GP I got my paper for the blood test tomorrow at the moment,later we ll see if is some sort of depression or I m ok.I am still down but is just second day of my good way.I know I have to do all my best to be ok for my kids and husband.Have a nice evening.

Day 3,feel like past 3 weeks,going so slow and still mess in my head.

At the moment I m positive but I m afraid what is gonna be next week as the money coming,I don't trust myself.The longest I could creep it was 4 weeks and did over again and again.If I can stop thinking about this habit for at least one day.