My new life

I should be writing in my diary every day but i seem to be writing in other peoples forum. I think it helps me more!! I just hope it helps others. It is part of my recovery helping others recover. Anyway all is good I'm aiming for a month next week and my fourth weekend (weekends always worse than week days for me) without gambling.

Well number 1,2 and 3 done. Number 4 tomorrow then will write more small challenges. Joined the 2015 Challenge and phoning counselling today to arrange meeting.

Hi Poblwc,

Well done on number 3 and for joining the 2015 challenge.

Have a good strong positive gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Spoken to counselling today. Unfortunately the counselling sessions are too far for me at the moment but there is good news they are in the process of setting up a new counselling base in Anglesey which is about 30 miles away from me which is doable . I am therefore going to focus on this happening and keeping gamble free as i want to sit with that counsellor feeling pleased with myself and able to talk freely about it and other issues.

Thanks Suzanne just seen your post x

Hi poblwc

Well done on your time being gamble free its fantastic. Am sure a month ago you would have struggled to see any form of light at the end of the tunnel. I can feel the positivity for abstinence through your words and i hope you are blessed to continue on your merry way.

Stay strong

Thanks dez1 i've read your post on your forum And you are really positive as well which is very infectious. I cAn't believe I never saw this site before. I was blind for 8 years And now I cAn see. Sounds corny I know but there you have it. Both of us are on the same number if days which is good for me as I feel I am on a journey with you

Thanks dez1 i've read your post on your forum And you are really positive as well which is very infectious. I cAn't believe I never saw this site before. I was blind for 8 years And now I cAn see. Sounds corny I know but there you have it. Both of us are on the same number if days which is good for me as I feel I am on a journey with you

5 weeks now going well been busy so that helps a lot

Well its March 1st happy St DAvids Day to all my friends (even if you are not Welsh ha ha). Anyway doing really well and looking forward to Spring. When its nice weather I go out more (probably like you lot) . I have a lot of outside jobs to do . I am determined to get my garden to look more like a garden rather than a recycling tip!! Just want warmer weather now. I keep reminding myself that it is a long journey to recover and this diary does the job nicely. I used to write it down on paper but because no one saw it I gave in after few days and then started to gamble again.

Hi.

I have found your diary... 5 weeks... Wow well done, feel proud.

You seem to find that keeping busy helps. I just can't motivate myself to do anything sunny or not. You have made me see I must try harder to fill my time or I am doomed to fail.

You have motivated me, I must get out in the garden.

Do I have a garden?? I must go outside and take a look.... Yep there is a garden out there... Ummmmmmm.

Have a wonderful day & be good. (you know what I mean!)

xx

Yes Sally. You're funny. I went into the garden and dug up some old patio blocks. Going to put low maintenance slate chippings down in front of house will look good (hopefully!). Have you got a big garden? Tackle it day by day like gambling it'll be worth it. You can sit there in Summer with a glass or two! Of wine celebrating two things - your new garden and being gamble free for many months

Yes I have internet connection. Hub had broken so i can post on this forum now. Doing really well 45 days. Losing track if weekends now. Onwards and upwards!!

Well i've turned 50 wow cant believe it. I feel I've climbed Snowdon. Brilliant feeling best in the world. Never thought I could turn my life around. Thanks Gamcare you have really helped i my recovery.

Morning Poblwc,

50 whole days... Be proud... Be VERY proud!!

I'm still here fighting along side you.

Here's to the next 50.

Have a fab day. xx