Day 31 GF counselling. Who knew our defence mechanisms are essentially formed by the age of three? So why don’t we have empathy with ourself at the right level? Because we fail to detach the emotion from the irrational
Day 32 GF. Busy happy.
Day 33 GF. Long week. Successful week if a little tiring. Onwards & upwards.
Day 34 passed GF.
Day 35 GF. Here I am in one of the most dangerous situations, but it’s just not there. Well, that’s not quite right, of course the urge never totally goes away, but I can see it, feel it, recognise it and control it before the emotions take control. Rational thought is easy with hindsight and foresight and everything else, but we live in a moment of now. But right now I’m enjoying a few drinks (which weakens rational thought), in time that was very much online gambling time by myself, and I understand how to break the addictive hold and reason with myself. It’s empowering, it’s a breath of fresh air and it makes me feel good
Today is day 41 GF. Been neglecting the diary, but doesn’t mean the focus has gone. More counselling, and looking forwards to goal setting sessions.
Also enjoying the freedom, lack of anxiety and stable financials.
life is good
Flopsy, I've just read through some of your most recent posts and feel the need to say 'Well done!'
You sound determined and focussed.
I'm so pleased that with all of your efforts the gf days are ticking by and it sounds as though you are starting to get control of your life again.
Keep up the good work, may you continue to reap the rewards.
Well it’s a long time since I’ve posted, but it’s now day 71 GF.
Counselling helped enormously, even though I thought it never would; understanding is key. Having amazing support helps too, but there is so much you can do if you can only recognise what’s going on (and admit it).
So many techniques and assessments we take for granted and use daily in our professional lives we seem to fail to apply to ourselves.
Taking a little time out, perhaps weekly, to reflect and deal with things that may cause relapse is important and I shall be continuing to do this here.
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