My worst Birthday....

Another day further away from my last gamble. Things WILL improve if I don’t gamble.

I’ve been up and down for the last few days but I’m beginning to accept the money that was lost and the fact that I can improve my future. It’s all in my hands.

Off to bed soon to read Chapter 5 of Allen Carr’s book.

Another day safely negotiated.

Another day further away from that last bet.

Things WILL improve.

Yes Dan they will

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Thanks for that lovely message 🙂

Rest assured, I’m making sure I nip this in the bud this time around.

All the neccessary blocks have been put in place, but it’s now up to me to make sure I do right for myself.

Gambling has hampered me for far too long. 14 years. But it feels more like 40!

Thank you so much for your continued loyal support towards me. You’re a star.

I will come good! I’ll make sure of that. My family and girlfriend deserve the very best of me.

I always make sure to spoil them rotton, even through the gambling haze because they mean so much to me. I’d never let them down. I’m only letting myself down.

Congratulations on your continued success, Caughtup. You’re a real inspiration to both myself and others here on the forum.

P.S... you’re a forum fav of mine too 🙂 shhhhhhhh! Haha!

Too right! I’m going to make sure that this Christmas will not be marred by gambling!

One week on from my last gamble and I’m a bit clearer in my thinking. It’s going to be a tough couple of months to save any money as most of my wages will be going towards bills and everyday living costs. But I should be able to start saving again in March.

Patience is the key. Currently I’m in no danger with money sat in the bank. I shouldn’t be feeling any financial pressure. Unlike some, I don’t have that excuse to fall back on. So I have no excuses. I just have to sit tight and wait for things to improve. Which they will, so long as I don’t find a way to gamble.

I must confess to feeling quite up and down this weekend (mainly down). I don’t know why that is. I think the manner in which it all happened last weekend and the fact that it’s so near to Christmas has left quite a few scars. It’s the most money I’ve ever lost in a short period of time. I know that it’ll take me a little while to get over last weekend and to recover the money lost.

BUT I keep telling myself that it will get better and the money will return. No urges at all to gamble since last weekend but that’s not surprising really.

Hopefully a busy week at work will help me to focus on positive thoughts.

Dan

REMEMBER things will improve

Hi dan sorry to read about your struggle last weekend. My storey is littered with slips frustrating and trying to win back, always will h further pain and loss. 51 days ago I thought about this differently , rather than trying to win back I have promised myself that I won’t give them another £1, my income is now mine, to repay debt and spend on myself. Whether this mindset will change over time we will see but at present I am looking forward to things that I will buy! Or commit to doing when before I never did things as I wasn’t sure if I had won that day! Hope you can move on a park it in the learning box! Keep posting

At the risk of getting slaughtered, I have to admit to yet another relapse. Stupidly, after work I went into town (out of town) and went to squander my hard earned money on the FOBT’s.

Followed by a pathetically, desperate £100 bet on the football tonight.

Having received so much good advice on here, I feel like I’ve let a lot more than myself down.

I’ve had far too many relapses this year and I’ve basically ruined all the hard work that I’d done over the Summer.

It’s time for me to look elsewhere into ways to stop this gambling rut once and for all. I can’t keep going on making the same old mistakes.

Something needs to change. I need to show more effort and commitment to this cause.

I need to start concentrating and focusing on my health. My financial situation is fine. My monthly wage is enough for me to live on and I’m not a materialistic person at all!

I have to find other things in my life to think about, other than gambling or even to ‘avoid gambling’.

I also have to stop obsessing about money. It’s partly that, that makes me gamble! The lure of having more. But for what????

I don’t need it. So why gamble?

Tonight I begin my search for an improved Dan. A healthier Dan.

A better all round Dan.

I have to believe that he’s out there.

hi dan, i must admit i also allmost gambled yesturday but what saved me was the same thought, what wuld turning my forty pounds into five hundred pounds actually do for my life. The answer is that i would feel happy for a short while but i would eventually gamble it back to the point where it was a loss again. I would in the meantime sleep on the same old mattress, wear the same clothes, eat the same food, do the same things, HOWEVER this is the important part once id lost the money again i would feel more depressed than when i started. This came to light yesturday when i watched someone gambling the after effects last a lot longer than the buzz.

and yo said it soo well, im not materialistic and i earn enough to pay bills and live, enjoy the little things in life from now on dan. Dont be sad Dan that you lost today be happy that you wont feel sad again in a onths time when you havent gambled again again and again. i will allways be on this site and will keep an eye on your thread cheers adam

Cheers Adam. You’re a good guy mate who has a lot of common sense. A wise young man you seem to be.

I’m determined to turn things around for the better.

Well done on your continued success mate. You’re doing really well.

cheers dan

I’m done with leading this secretive, double life!

I really hate hiding my gambling and I hate the person when I become when I’m placing a bet.

I lose all sense of what is going on around me during the day. I’m in a gambling haze which is horrible to think about in the cold light of day.

Nah! No thanks. I’m done with this ****

Time to move on with my life and find TRUE happiness.