new beginning

Morning All,

I'm away with my wife for 2 days in a nice hotel. No gambling this weekend. It's great to do 'normal' things instead of gambling.

Gambling can become self consuming and you miss out on other aspects of living. I guess we all know this but addiction can blind us somewhat. I know because i was very involved in gambling.

I remember on one occasion betting on online horses from 9pm straight through the night intil 8am. I was exhaused but i was happy. Why was i happy you ask?

Because i broke even !!! I didn't even win. But you never win do you if you gamble?

I wish you all a great weekend.

Paul.

we never win because we cant stop , once we realise the 100% truth in that statement .... its pointless Paul, enjoy ur gamble free weekend m8 ! , stay strong ....

Hope you and the good lady have a calm enjoyable and gamble free weekend.

Best wishes

Hi Paul, relax, enjoy your break with your wife. You both deserve it and it's a great opportunity to be free from distractions - just you two and no turfs. Wishing you well Paul xx

Have a great weekend Mr and Mrs Paul it's nice to spending your hard earned wages on something so nice that will do you both good. Wcid

Thankyou WCID, annie67, Balvaird, lostsoul999.

Your comments really help and cheer me up. The more i think of things the more i can't change what works for me as a barrier. That barrier is paying my wages to my wife.

My wife has been brilliant staying by me through all my bad times.

I wish you all a good day.
Paul

Hai Paul, aka The King of Rock and Roll

Enjoy your 2 day nice hotel break.... Its good to see your no longer the Toad serving up the drinks but now laying on the carousel with your Mrs, pina colada and hot dogs.................. https://youtu.be/4T6e3GJCjow

Alba cookie, which translates to high 5

Hello Volcano,

Thankyou that was funny. Made me laugh. Toad was a grump lol

You know i love Pina colada my favourite cocktail. I had one last night.

Yeah if we gamble we serve behind the bar.
If we don't gamble we are getting the drinks served to us as we relax.

Thanks that was funny.
Paul.

Morning everyone,

It's Monday again and it's raining. I have nothing to moan about as i'd a lovely weekend with the wife relaxing at the hotel.

Today i took a fiver with me. I can't spend what i don't have 🙂

No thoughts to gamble today. I wish you all a gamble free day.

Paul AKA Toad

Morning All,

Heading to work on the bus. I left early today so i can sit in and have a coffee.

Last night i had a dream i was betting on greyhounds. I backed trap 6 and it won at 35-1. It just shows how the mind works in relation to gambling.

It's really vital that i stick to a budget of £5 a day. We are going to London for IVF treatment and it's quite expensive so i can't waste money in the bookies. I need to get my priorities right.

I went running last night with the club and i really enjoyed it. It really does help your mental health.

Anyway keep smiling folks. I was talking to Toad and he told me to pass on this rib tickling joke.

Q) where does toad hang his coat and umbrella?
A) in a croakroom.

Boom!

Have a great day.
Paul.

LOL, Paul , glad to hear you sounding so chippa , full of positivity and sounds like a plan my friend ! Have a good day fella !

Don't get it. Why would a Toad want a coat or umbrella? Your going to have me trying to work that all day......

A word of warning when you come to London. If your a smoker, eat your b**t, as just this last 10 min, got a £80 fine. f**k fuxk f**k .

What's orange and sounds like a parrot?

Hello All,

Thankyou Alan for your comments. I am happier these days but i must never forget the hell i brought on us last month. I am not cured and always tempted to have a bet. I just don't carry cash these days.

Thankyou Volcano that made me laugh.sorry to hear that volcano that's all you need a fine.

I've never been to London so quite excited to see the landmarks. We are getting a taxi from the airport to the clinic just for convenience.

No bookies thankfully.....

Thanks for making me laugh. I wasn't doing much laughing last month. The bookies clerks laughed at me. Another idiot doing his wages in. Do you want a coffee? No i'm doing my wages in and then i went off to the bar at 11.30am and drank myself silly. That's after borrowing ВЈ40 from a work collegue as i did every last penny in. £1.7k.

Anyway that's in the past. But i must never forget how i felt.

Thanks for reading,
Paul

Hai Paul, it's not only the name we share. When I use to read the Toad, I thought f**k, that's me writing, I got it...

You gave alot away when you mentioned the reason for your London visit. The worry you and your Mrs is going through must be shi.te, so all the best for you two....

The only landmark I could suggest in london worth visiting is The Surprise pub, but not many people know that and I'm not only ignorant but biest as well....

ps.... my answer to the gag in previous post is....... carrot! My favourite all time joke... sad hai!

Hello Volcano,

Thankyou for your kind words. I did give alot away saying about IVF but i feel it's great on here you can talk about things and people like you and others are so supportive and make me smile sometimes. I liked the joke too. The silly ones are sometimes the best. Thankyou again Volcano.

Alan was right yesterday i was so chippa. Today i am afraid i am unhappy, angry, sad and fed up. I have two issues to mention briefly. I want to be honest on my diary and you may not think it's related to gambling but the stress it caused me makes me want to escape - to gambling.

I will tell this quickly. I went to Spain recently with 3 friends. 2 friends i knew for 14 years. The other mate 2 years but i didn't know him that well. Big mistake.
Basically he rowed with us all and even threatened to hit me. I was bullied at school alot. I told him to hit me now as i hate being bullied and if he did so i was for letting the bombs go. I don't let bullies away with it. Stand against them.Thankfully he didn't but it came close to a fight. I have since cut off links.

Second point. The father in law texted a picture of a house to my wife and now my wife wants to view. It's not a good time to look now with IVF coming up privately and i have no interest in moving yet and if i do i want to pick a house and location with the misses.

Bottom line is. Life is stressfull. I'm angry and fed up. Feel like running away or gambling.

I'm sorry for going on a bit.

I wish you all a good day.
Paul and angry toad