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Hi Paul, ref your last post and the word's " I feel so good " , We've all felt good when winning Paul but the trouble is when you lose and feel like rubbish again and have to deal with the trail of destruction you leave behind the cycle has begun and your back on repeat once again and right back where you were a few weeks ago , things were going so well Paul and the reason for that was you had started dealing with your issues and had stopped running away and gambling !.

I also have to say that for anyone reading your post's where you gloat about winnings is not very helpfull to those on here seeking to actively stop gambling, especially the newbies ?

Not having a go Paul, just saying !

Best wishes fella

Where's Paul gone? Have a read through your diary Paul you really have done well lately. I hope you can get back there soon. - Wcid

It's the escape thing, isn't it, escaping into gambling. Except that like my friend's child found out, you can't run away from yourself. Better to deal with it up front, like everything else, bad times do pass.

CW

Paul, Paul, it may be because you feel safe in knowing that your mortgage is going through, jeez it's the addiction controlling you, and it makes you act 100% selfishly, and with no regard to your loved ones, Paul get back on board, you are in denial still,

Hard work ahead my friend, that is if you really want to stop.

Winning that money is only lent to you, to win real money is to abstain and maintain, and win for real, and most importantly get your sanity back, and some control of your life, nothing else I can say while you are still in denial:(( except to send you strong and positive thoughts to abstain and maintain.

Suzanne xxx

Hi everyone.

Getting the bus home. I have nothing but i paid my friend £20 i owed home.

I cannot win because i can't stop.

Tomorrow i self exclude from the bookies i was in.

I deserve all i got. I shall start again. I let myself and everyone down

Paul.

Hi everyone,

I don't feel anything just numb. I haven't lost money but my head is spinning after playing roulette earlier.

I was doing so well. It's sad i found my way back.

I will try again. Thankyou everyone from the bottom of my heart. I feel quite lonely and fragile right now.

Paul.

Glad to see you back Paul. Not surprisingly, it didn't take long to give the "winnings" back. I'm glad you lost it and that you lost it quickly. I'm not being unkind...the longer you played it through the worse it was going to get. It's done. It's gone. A short, sharp shock and you're back to reality. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back to doing what you were doing before....but this time make it count. Do what you need to do to really start to recover.

I really do want things to work out for you. LifeBegins x

Hello life begins,

I totally agree. I'm glad too i did it in. Teach me yet another lesson.

Tomorrow i'll self exlude from that bookies.

I do feel a bit down tonight. But as the saying goes ' if you make your bed you gotta lie in it '

I'm running outta sympathy for myself. Seriously like.

All i can do is try again. I also had 2 beers today and ate too much. So much for my diet.

Anyway the tale of the toad continues. I get the feeling there may not be a disney happy ending.

Maybe toad will be found crumpled up like a beaten docket.

Toad.

Gutted for you mate. But that's life as a gambler we crave the buzz of a win. But they only ever one winner in long run

Hi Paul , I'm feeling for you buddy but as Lb said it's good news that it didn't turn into a marathon binge !.

Your'e gonna feel fragile for a while again as we all know that feeling too well but no need to be lonely when you have all the forum backing you up , the loneliness is when your sat in the bookies with no true friends around you , while handing over your hard earned cash to some blank looking cashier or feeding notes into a Fobt for hours on end ? .

Self exclude and stay safe on here my friend , It's the only way forward !.

Best wishes ............Alan

Hello,

Thankyou Alan and Boro. Okay it's a new day. I feel okay just.

I have £5 in and that's enough.

No thoughts of gambling today.

Stay safe.
Paul.

Good afternoon,

I haven't gambled in the last 2 days.

Feeling a bit subdued today.

Going to london for 2 days with the wife for IVF consultation.

Wishing you all well.

Paul.

Great news Paul...hope the appointment goes well x

Hello Loxxie,

Thankyou so much for your kind words, much appreciated.

Paul

Hi All,

In London off Baker Street. Lovely place have to say. No temptation to gamble and with my wife so that's good.

I hope you are all have a good day.
Toad.