New diary, fresh start

@stace thats so sad to hear this will be a huge test for you, dont lets Gambling take over your life ever again do it for your kids stay strong stay blessed

My lifes over. How do I move forward now, doesn't seem possible 

Stace,

Anything's possible. Life isn't over even at 63 when I stopped. Once you give up addiction's the winner. Think about it.

Best

AL

@stace 

Please know that you are not alone, we are all here behind you!

Keep putting one foot in front of the other, even when you feel that you can't - you can.  Keep sharing and never give up HOPE....

Best

Forum Admin

Struggling with urges today ?☹

I am so very sorry to hear your bad news, please do not let this addiction have any more of you, if you can get through those urges then you can become that lady that`s so wanting to shine through. The strongest urges at the most severe times are going to see you being the strongest possible version of yourself, please hang in there and find that lady we all know you to be.

You are Awesome!

Thankyou lids.

So I've got a second chance at life. After another relapse and my partner saying he couldn't cope anymore and was leaving after being together 20 years, he's given me another chance. I am going to build the trust back and not let him down again. I truly love him.

Also we get our keys next week to our new home. Its a 4 bedroom new build and I feel very lucky and greatful. 

I decided after being out of work for years bringing up my kids, thst I wanted to get back to work and build my confidence back up so yesterday I went for a interview at my children's school and got the job. Started today and loved it. Saw my kids there and they were so happy to see me there. I'm going to really enjoy being back in work and couldn't pick a nicer place to work.

I'm on a healthy kick at the moment. I want to lose a few stone, so im healthy eating, drinking plenty of water, stopped drinking alcohol and am exercising. I already feel better in myself.

So im a week gf after a relapse and this time I cannot relapse again or I will definitely lose everything and I am not losing my partner and destroying my family. This is it now. I have to be strong. 

Stace ?

@stace this is good you need to work on yourself, be honest with your partner, do u have any close friends u could talk to, the illness is terrible and can easily catch up with you at any point you have accept this, it will try and get u when you least expect it, understand your triggers even if u have to help out in a food bank do some charity work, you have to to work on yourself dont be me, i was GF for 2 and half years until it got me i believed i was well past it i could have easily have dont 10 years if i didnt have a sudden death, which was my trigger , you have to be strong as life itself can be the biggest trigger of them all which is why some people with no addiction turn into addicts, its possible to change yourself but u have to be comitted you have to put the work in am just under 3 month GF but i am far better position then i ever was, try GA if your not already doing so, as long as u are putting the effort in and your partner understands your issue this can work, what i have noticed the people who have beaten this illness are very serious they understand the implications and have full support from family and friends rather than just abstaining from gambling which i previouly had done infact i am greatful for having my last relapse as i have found my purpose in life

Hi @stace 

It is so good to hear you are feeling better in yourself and congratulations on the job! Working in a positive environment, working on yourself, taking steps to feel healthier and also staying strong are all great things and I am really happy to hear all of this. Also well done on being gamble free, you can do this!

Wishing the best

Forum Admin 

Lauren

Thankyou tazman and forum admin, your words mean alot.

So 8 days gf after a relapse and feeling so good. Second day at job was good. Feeling very happy ? 

Feeling emotional today/night, can't put my finger on why though.! 

Gf and staying strong 

2 weeks since my slip up. Feeling really positive. My relationship is back on track, I know it will take a while for him to trust me again but we are ok. And I've shown him everything I'm doing to stay gamble free.

House move been delayed slightly,  so be next week or week after that I get keys but I'm ok with that, my kids are so excited. Been able to buy them things for there new bedrooms, and for the house, something I wouldn't be able to do if gambling. Feels really good.

I'm keeping busy, so excited to get back to work next week, I'm off this week as I work in a school and its half term.

I've not felt so happy and content in years. My mental health is finally stable and I'm in a better place than I have been in such a long time. My kids are happy, they are thriving in and out of school. We had a meeting last week and everyone is praising them and me and my partner. This is how I've wanted my life to be. I'm in a good place. My partner has Friday off this week so taking the kids out and then treating them to a takeaway, also something I couldn't do if gambling. 

This is my time to shine. Life is good ?

You and your partner are awesome.

Well done the both of you.

Congratualtions this is what it all about nothing is impossible things can change for the better, the more u refrain from it the better it gets you begin to enjoy spending time and are able to do stuff even the little things but just remember life will test you maybe not now maybe not next year but when it does be honest as long as your are truthful things can be better you can beat this ?

Thanks lids and tazman. I really feel like its finally my time to kick this addiction ?