Day 122 gamble free...nothing to report really....took one of my customers for her chemo yesterday...her hubby doesn't drive...and would have meant a whole day in a hospital car...no big deal really....but would I have done the favour in my gambling days....probabally not....it would have interfered with my online slots.....so actually I suppose it is a big deal that I done it....and was more than happy to do it...a small thing for me to do for somebody....but made the ladies day a lot easier....been with hubby today to get plants for garden....again another normal thing for a married couple to do...all good...lifes good without the slots ! x
So hows me fav west country girl then ? Nearly wrote " Country and western" then LOL ! What's that verse to "Ruby " " You painted up your hair and rolled and curled your tender lips" maybe the other way ? LOL ! anyway just wanted to thank you for the drop bye and say it's as easy as 123 , well done on some big numbers darling and turning your back on Mr G for good !.
Speak to you soon Loxxie , take care Hun x
Ha...that made this Devonshire dumpling chuckle so much my curlers fell out and I smudged my lippy ! your a real tonic al and I bet you'd look good in wellues x
Monday morning again....and what a bootifull one it is....into week 18 now....all good in loxxies world...all guards in place still...just in case ! have a good one everybody...life's better without gambling x : )
Nothing to report...
Just my daily zoom around the forum to keep me on my toes
Have a good day folks...and remember life's better when we don't gamble xx
It's Friday again !
Time stands still for no man !
I Thought time was standing still whilst I was in the midst of addiction. ..nothing else mattered...just the next spin...or next bonus round...I didn't really care about my home...quick flit over before hubby came in....my children and grandchildren...ok...so I saw them...looked after the grandchildren when needed...was I really "with them "...no I don't suppose I was...my mind was still playing out the slots...friends...well...I just didn't really bother with them....myself...lol...showered ...but no real effort made...so actually with all those above.... I just done the bare minimum that I had to....to keep my secret addiction in the closet...
Now...I can look back and see how the addiction dragged me into that lonely lonely place...
Could I have come this far in my recovery if id try to keep it secret...and fix it myself....I doubt it...because for me the two (secrets and gambling )were holding hands and keeping me sat at my laptop all day .....stealing my time....stealing days I should have been " living"
And that I why I will work at my recovery everyday...so no more precious days of my life are lost to an online slot machine.xx
3120 hours gamble free !
Blimey....that's a lot of hours I would have been sat at my laptop trapped in the cycle of addiction...instead...I'm paying bills on time...enjoying quality time with family and friends ...eating...sleeping...and focused...YEAHHHHHH ...X
Monday morning again...and into week 19...just popping into diary to keep myself reminded how much better life my life is without those online slots...stay safe guys x
Hiya my luverly , thanks for popping over and saying high , I'm all good thanks and urge free if you know what urges I'm talking about ( wink wink ) , just catching up with me old mate Deano and discussing opening a kebab/ burger van together and what were gonna call it , so far it looks like being Jason's Donner van :))
Hope your well Hun ?, actually I know you are coz I read your posts in the mornings telling me how much your enjoying life and that's always a great start to the day for me Loxxie so keep posting and doing what works love .
Always glad to be walking alongside ya Lox !
Take care hun xx
If we had a like button Alan's post would have one
Tee, Hee ! , Tee Hee ! Good thing is though Lox , apparently you can get tablets now for when those urges go , Apparently !!! .
Well so Deano said ? :))
Have a good one Hun and keep me smiling in the morning post !! x
Sun is bootifull down here in Devon....in fact..everything's bootifull in my life ....even the mundane jobs like housework ...cleaning beer lines etc are all now done with a spring in my step !. .can even manage to chuckle to my self when I thought online slots would make my life better ! lol....keeping the triangle broken today....and everyday....x
Hi loxxie thanks for the check in on my diary and words of encouragement! It's amazing how positive and happy you sound, your creating such a wonderful picture of your life now, full of colour and fun...gone are the dark and gloomy gamblin days! One request though, bottle some of that sunshine up and send up north to me, I'll swap you for a bucket of rain 🙂
So....19 weeks ago today I last logged on to those vile online slots.....fast forward to today....lots of tears. ..questions. ..sole searching....explanations...talking...thinking...and a 100 and one other daily things to deal with and face....I'm here...in a better place...mentally...emotionally..fiancially...and everything...ok...so not eveyone of those days has been " blissful "....and life still chucks P**P at me sometimes ...but it's now how I deal with that P**P that has changed....I take a deep breath...and tackle it...in the best way I can...but always openly and honestly...and say to myself...you can deal with this loxxie...you don't need to run to an online slot machine and stick your head in your laptop....those days are gone...those days took to much from you...your better than that....your provving that every gamble free day you tot up...so...what next...well ...I'll just keep doing what I've been doing....log in here daily to keep my recovery active..it's the most important thing in my life....without recovery I'd be in a very different place.....be kind to
people....and enjoy the simple things in life....it's all work in progress.x
Loxxie my luverly , thanks for my morning dose of positivity and for making me smile ! 19 week's ? wow , where's that gone love ?
That truck you were having fixed yesterday , wasn't a "Combine Harvester " was it by any chance , Oh please let it be so ? You'd suffer the Wurzel jokes then my luvverly :))
Stay safe Loxxie and
Keep choosing the right path !!
AL x
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