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Ha ! Ha! Lox , The " codfather " but round these parts I be known as " The lord Cod almighty " :))

and never mind taping the wurzels , I know the words just get me some tickets !! LoL !

Have a great day Lox !! x

Another blue sky day here...hope it's here for the weekend...
Nothing to report really...weird how now im living openly and honestly im stronger...a usual domestic between me and hubby over soething as daft as leaving a light on....yes we all know how the se laughable spats can esculate !. ..well....when I was in the grip of addiction I would have " bowed and given in "...now it's like...actually...I'm not doing that anymore...because I got no secrets....so I am able to fight my corner as the saying goes. ..and it feels good....I've got nothing to hide so if a row brews I can deal with it....loxxies grown some balls....and will not be made to feel like I need to run to the online slots for cover....waffle ...maybe ...but I know what I mean lol...
Happy days boys and girls x

So how many Cod fryer's do you know young lady ? LOL !

I'm very well , thank's for asking Loxxie , the sun's shining here as well so what's not to be happy about ?

Shame about the Wurzel's , maybe next year eh ? but I'll carry on whistling the tune's as I go on my merry way , talking of which I hope your keeping the yokal's well watered or pi55ed , whichever you prefer ?.

Thanks for the chirpy morning post , it always set me up for a good day !

Thanks Hun and catch up with ya soon , Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee xx

Overcast here today...but I'm shinning inside. ..so that's all that really matters.....lunch with my bootifull daughter and granddaughter today...the one that "pulled me up " on my gambli g....she's a star...and it's an amazing feeling to not be " hiding " anything anymore from here...busy weekend planned here at the pub...and an extra lay in on Monday to look forward to....simples ..yes....because life without online slots is simple...
To the few new ladies joining here with the same addiction to online slots.....IT CAN GET BETTER !. ..with hard work...and the will to want a better life....so keep going girls....we're tough cookies and will all get to a better place x

Morning lovelly , Yep , we make our own , not difficult just soak your peas overnight with bicarb , rinse em off add some sugar and boil up again till mushy and leave em in the fridge till set , ( damm , now I've told you my secret , I'll have to put a contract out in ya ) :))

Han's covered in burns at the mo ( hazzard of the job ) , I go weeks without a burn , then go on a frenzy , bit like whaen I used to gamble , always getting burned then :))

Great post this morning Lox , I smiled again !

Enjoy your day with the babies but def remember to wear some clothes first , still a bit nippy out there love !!

Ta;lk to you soon Loxxie xx

So...here it is...the start of week 20 gamble free...
No urges....barely even any thoughts of those dreaded online slots...
Manic weekend in the pub...fantastic ! Normal months takings in just 4 days...yeahhh....but boy im knackered lol...lots of cleaning up to be done now....and a trip to the bank to add to my savings...funny how I'm getting so much pleasure from ' saving" now....and paying my bills...being able to just buy stock Instead of always juggling....being able to look people in the eye...talk to them without Mr gamble sat on my shoulder telling me s**t !
The best feeling is being able to face and deal with life's everyday problems without the need to run to a slot machine for help !
Sounds ridiculous when reading that.....how the heck was an online slot machine ever going to help me with problems....they only made everything worse....but to me....at the hight of my addiction....that's what I thought...escape in a virtual world. ..some 'me time "...crazy...a totally one sided relationship with a greedy bloody machine !
Now I can understand the reasons I fell into the disastrous cycle of addiction it all seems so clear....and I will ALWAYS keep re reading my diary on here to remind me of the dark places my addiction took me to....I know as a gambler who has a nasty addiction I will never be "cured"...but I also know i will always keep myself safe with my triangle permantly broken....never taking that first spin again ....as that would be one to many !
So....the sun's shinning inside and outside down here in loxxies world....
Any body want to come wash some glasses ? Lol....
Stay safe ...fight everyday....be open...honest....and kind....all possible and when we don't gamble..xxx

Morning Loxxie , all good thanks hun and thanks for the drop by , I took the bank holiday off for a change so had a bit of time with the family, which was nice . Squbbles , scraps , bit's , call em what you will , there all free so plenty of takers 🙂 .

Hope your ok , I keep seeing your morning post's and they still make me smile and as always your positivity comes shining through which say's to me that everything's as it should be .

I haven't updated my diary since my pigeon episode , so I really should make the effort as a couple of thkings have changed in my life , all for the good I might add so watch out for the big ramble sometime :)).

Take care honey and I'll catch up soon !.

Love to you and your's .................Alan x

Thanks Loxxie , I appreciate that but if I go home and say " Hey Mrs Fish , guess what " I'd prob have more than a puffed up chest maybe the puffed up eye to go with it and then there's my battered sausage and I'm not talking the ones in my chippy !.

Take care luvvie xx

So today I decided to remove the partitioning wall between my son's room and another tiny bedroom !
After hours of clearing junk that has been growing over the last four or so years....we found the wall !
Ok....so it's only plaster board...but me and son hit it head on....and finally I side is off and the timber frame exposed !
Now ...the plan for t ommorrow is to remove the other side as a whole....frame still in situ....we are thinking it will be less mess....
Anyway....the moral of the story is...aiming to give son a suitably sized room for his late teens ! !
It's keeping me busy
Quality time with son
The down side is the mess....but hey ho....I've got a Hoover lol

Do you know how much I smiled then when I read those word's " Less mess " , been saying that one to myself for years and has never quite worked out for me :).

Maybe you peeps from the west will have some magic sprinkled on yer overnight ? LOL :))

But your definately right about the plus side and having some time with your boy , it's the moments like that , which stay with you for life , cherish em Loxxie , cherish em !!.

Thanks for making me smile before I turn in for the night and again for your post today , ( Mrs Fish say's HI ) .

Stay safe Hun xx

All good here...walls down...and not to much mess. ..total redecoration now...can't wait...15 year old son so excited....been great doing it with him....he's a good kid...so undemanding...so compassonate. ...he's been through a lot. ...silently...
Dad battling cancer for last few years...my addiction....which he's been great in trying to understand....so it's wonderfull to do this for him....he's chose a new desk and wardrobes. ..will love buying it for him....daughters and grandkids having a few days together at butlins next week...can't wait to give them some spends tommorrow.....no....I'm not loaded....I'm just not chucking my hard earned cash in a slot machine.......so....another great day here....tired...Dusty...but happy xx

Are me not supposed to get the positive and uplifting post in the morning? I bloody have to read it again on my morning break.

KTF

Morning Loxxie , Oldham's right , I felt a bit cheated this morning and saw what time your post went out ? ( naughty Loxxie ) ,

I'll forgive ya though :))

Saw what you'd posted to Oldham and I'd new you'd make a mess LOL ! , Maybe forget the sixty minute makeover as it's prob not going to be long enough and get Nick and the boys in for a bit of DIY SOS ? .

Have a great day Loxxie and enjoy havin the kids around .xx

Boot of a day with children and grandchildren...lovely pub lunch in a lovely child friendly garden....gave the girls some spends for holiday....felt great...and there response said it all....those online slot machines never gave me the buzz that that did...perfect !
Little diy project still ongoing....but hey....rome wasn't built in a day lol
Loxxies loving life....but don't panic guys....triangle still as ever broke....just in case the monkey trys to catch me out...x

Morning Loxxie and thanks for the post but " Yo Coddie " ? You can so tell you been hangin out with the younger generation , gettin down with the kids ," innit though" ? .

" Dishes " " FIshes " ?? " Who will have a fishy on a little dishy" didn't know you'd moved to Newcastle ?

As for the diy , well that can always be done anytime and time with the family can never be replaced , keep making the right choices Loxxie and have a great weekend with the grandkids .

Talk to you soon Hun x