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Ooooohh ! No need for that from the Holy one was there ? :(( LoL xx

Love these conversations lol! Loxxie thanks for post yes my home is spotless too and all organised 🙂 it's good feeling. I've come too far to give up for me two weeks is amazing lol so I'll keep on pushing thanks hun Lu x ps hope digger and garden going well! X

Sooo
Another week gone...blimey...times sure wizzes on now a days...
What's to report ?
Nothing really ....my addiction seems to be leaving me at peace at the moment....don't know if that's down to me...down to luck. ..or even the weather....and without sounding flippant....I'm just not bothered about the reasons....I'm loving the tranquillity in my head and heart..
Life's manic...
Garden starting to look great...hubby and me have worked well together this week...
Pub trade still amazing...lots of functions coming in the dairy
Little grandson doing well after his surgery...otherone got a lurgy..
Wonderfull to be 're investing cash into pub and so proud to have something to show for such long hours....
Found a boot of a carvery on eBay...logistics getting it from Bradford may be trickey...but I'll do it somehow. ..
And Christmas is coming.....first time in years I'm really excited...
So....life's good. ...but I'll take the credit for that....I made the right choice and kicked my addiction head on....into the gutter..
I know I laugh...joke. ..and may come across a bit casual about my addiction. ...but trust me I'm not ....I'm serious. ...I'll protect myself daily....I'll be ready for the b****r should he come knocking. .....stay safe Every body..x

Loxxie, reading your post gives me so much hope. One day I hope to be where you are with this addiction, one day . ...
It's in my hands, it's there if I really want it. Now I've got to prove to myself that I do. It can never be too late. There's just so much cr@P that comes with it.
Thanks for the inspiration xx

Hiya Loxxie hun thanks for the post :))) I'm smiling loads despite s**t going off with family because I'm still gf! I can't believe I've got this far and feel the way I do, depression is lifted and all other bad stuff like stress over money just to live on, wish I'd done it sooner but hey ho I didn't but I am now. Hope your garden is going ok, thanks Loxxie Lu x

Oh bugg.er I forgot you had electricity down there and could connect to tinternet :((

Wondered where youd got to , though the old man had buried you in that new garden of your's , probably why he was abit late returning the digger to the hire company ? LOL ! xx

Hi dear diary....
So another week has passed like a bleedy tornado !
Pub garden complete.....all be it a bit moist under foot. ...3 weeks before marquee needs to go up for function.....so plenty of time to dry....or go to plan b !
When I decide what that is ! Lol
All materials bought and paid for...just got to sort hubbies labour ........seriously though...he's been great...above and beyond and all that. ...but hey..we should be working together ....so I'm not going to feel endebted. ..
Another fantastic week......busy pub....poorly grandkids...hospital admissions for one of them...baby sitting other ones...just normal life for me....I can cope....I'm gamble free....I'm thinking straight....I'm living life...
I'm f*****g knackered ! lol..
I'm sorry if I've not been very active on here lately....it doesn't mean I don't care or I'm not interested in others journeys.....I am....and I've missed being part of all your tribulations this week...and the laughs and jokes...hopefully ....I'll be around more next week.....if/when....harmony is restored in loxxies life....whatever that is lol...
Anyway.....I'm fine....and I'm hoping all my wonderfull friends on here are as well....catch up with you all soon x

Hello loxxie
I would think horsie people wouldn't mind a bit of mud. It's what they do isn't it lol
It's great to see you accomplish your dreams. And the news your pub is doing more business is great news. A sign that hard work gets results.

Talking of mud it's my speciality we work in it all day. This week just gone me and my buddies were having a mud fight. (as you do) at work? Anyway when I was at school the teacher said we would never make anything of ourselves if we just mucked about all day. And it made me think
How wrong he was as we're still mucking about and getting paid handsomely for it. Living the dream

The energy and humour that you tackle your life and addiction with is infectious (in a very good way). Best wishes on your continued recovery:)

Cathyx

Hi loxxie,
I'm OK thanks. Not gambled all week so there's a positive.
Got in touch for counselling again. Awaiting their reply.
Also awaiting news from my bank and credit cards to see if I can put my payments down.
This has left me feeling upset but I can't carry on living as I am.
My credit rating will be shot for the first time in my life but. . .
Just hoping I can keep gamble free and have enough money to live on each month.
Sounds like you've had a busy week. Hope your grandchild is doing OK now after hospital visit.
Thanks for your support loxxie. It really does help xx

Hi loxxie, i sent the companies I owe money to a copy of my step change budget plan.
(Didn't want to go directly through step change because of small problem with my wages. )
They can see by this how much I have left each month. Only thing is, I'm going to be in debt for 17 years if I pay what step change advise! To be honest I can't see my income improving and even if they accept my lower offer I don't think I'll have spare cash at the end of the month to pay it off quicker. It all makes me feel down but I know I've got to just get on with it.
Still getting urges, I wish they'd go away. Makes me feel like I'm going to be stuck like this forever.
I know I probably won't but my stupid gambling head won't give me a break lol!!
I know as time passes it gets easier. I'll just have to be patient. Here's to a better future! x

Hey Loxxie yes three weeks now! Glad your pub garden gone well roll on summer hey? Take care hun Lu xx

Afternoon Luverrly :)) , I'm only kidding , you can call me what you like ( Within reason ) it's all water off a duck's back to me but it's nice that you do have a respectfull side to you as well :)) LOL !! .

Glad to hear the pubs going well , did you buy the Carvery ? .

Talk to you soon hun xx

Hiya Loxxie , Heard you wer a bit busy this week but nothing wrong with keeping yourself out of trouble is there ?,. Shame about the equipment :(( that's what I usually find , if there's something I need and find for the shop it's at the other end of the country and the transport costs start going to stupid amounts , which make it not worth buying :(( Litsen to you " Faith in higher places " your spending too much time talking to his " Holy worshipfullness " ( Deano ) LoL ! , but I know what you mean " Que sera , Sera " ?.

Unfortunately were not too sure of whats happening with the kids as the parents and Social Services were battling it out in court yesterday and today , so I suppose we'll be the last to know what will happen . Social don't want them to go back with their parents , which will mean adoption if they get there way but that being said adoption won't be a 5 minute thing so hopefully we'll have em for xmas and then they'll be phased in to meeting potential parents :)) , Weve become really attached to them , its a bit hard not to though I suppose and it'll be difficult to say bye , bye when the time comes :(( still hopefully that'll be a while yet .

Your not talking about one of those naught Mrs Clause outfitts are ya ? :)) The punters will be f******G in won't they ? .

Glad your ok Lox and still enjoying your new life my luvver :))

Take care and speak to you soon xx

Hey, thank you for posting in my diary, much appreciated! You're right, totally don't need those slots!!! Here's to a flipping merry Christmas!! 🙂 Cx