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As the ticket in my "I am sober" app moves onto three days gambling free the absurdity of my recent behavior is starting to dawn on my. I don't know how I could've been so stupid.Â
On a plus note, I've never wanted to gamble less.Â
The last three or four months have been whirlwind of destruction for me in terms of gambling, I've emptied my savings, blew my annual bonus from work as well as taking money transfers from my credit cards and racking up tens of thousands of pounds of debt. I'm starting to work on this and it's going to take me around a decade to fix the damage done in under four months.Â
I'm thinking back to flurries of bets I had even last week, escalating to (for me) crazy sums of money.Â
I'm trying to be positive and look at my final week gambling as a blessing in disguise, I never want that feeling again. Now it's time to rebuild my life.Â
I need to find a focus, I would spend many hours a day gambling and feel almost as bad about the time lost as the money. This summer has been spent looking at my phone and staying up until the early hours betting on whatever sports was on. I'm slightly nervous about the new football season as football was very much my gateway drug into betting.Â
Hopefully I can enjoy watching a match and not have that sickening feeling when a bet I can't afford to lose is down.Â
It's only day three but I'm determined I would be back to day one ever again.
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Good luck. The start of the new season can make things difficult but you can actually enjoy the matches properly now, not just spending the whole match wishing for an extra corner or an extra card or for a particular player to score (the latter unavoidable if you play FPL but at least there's no money at stake).
At the end of the day, you and I both know that gambling has never resulted in anything positive for either of us, or for anyone who has the addiction. Of course there are the occasional highs but literally every time they are followed by (often on the same day or even within the space of an hour) the most crushing lows. Every win I ever had was lost. Every crazy acca that came through was utterly pointless because the winnings were lost, and more importantly all the time I spent on it was lost.
There's literally only one way to win at gambling if you're a gambling addict, and that's never doing it again
I admire your strength 🙂
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