The Real Deal

Hi Eppy

5 weeks is great

Yes positivity is definitely one of the keys

Well done

Carry on onwards upwards and forwards

By staying strong and determined

Suzanne x

Hey people, so here for my weekly post in my diary. Sometimes I think to myself 'what is the actual point of having this diary?' .. But I know in my mind that is it 100% vitally necessary because it helps keep us focused on the overall goal of beating this gambling addiction & it helps cleanse the mind of what we want to say.

Been continuing with the counselling which has been going well, it's making me look at reasons as to why I gambled & reasons which make me want to gamble. 'Triggers' if you like, helpful it is to find out your own triggers as you can then put stuff in place to block or use these triggers in a different way other than gambling.

Also been reading a good book, the latest chapter was all about 'Humility' and becoming a good person again so to speak. An interesting point was to make a few 'Affirmations' to yourself, I've made 3 so far & that's another thing which is helping me as I'm working towards achieving those affirmations.

All in all, I stop & thinking about things on a general scale a lot more now. The bigger picture is always in mind. Over 6 weeks now since my last gambling activities and that for me is always going to be the last, it has to be, as I want it to be.

Positivity Is KEY!

Hi Eppy

Keep doing what you are doing it's working

POSITIVITY

Well done on over Six whole weeks

Suzanne x

Hey People, just over 7 weeks in the bag now on quite a good role, I'm on a winning role, because a day not gambled is a day winning in my eyes.

Life's all nearly back to normal finance wise, got paid today. Pay day normally consisted off smashing my wages on roulette machines & big football bets, but this time round I've paid back what I owed out & paid off all my other bills... Only 250 left of debt, 150 of that which will be going tomorrow & the other 100 in a couple of weeks. Got a 2 week holiday to look forward to & once I come back I'll then 21, so I'm pleased that I'll be debt free before I'm 21. I'm still young & still have the rest of my life to live & I've realised I don't need to be held back by the gambling industry anymore because I am better than that!

I've started to be in control again now. I had a few weeks without my bank card, but I've started to live life with it again. I'm pleased with myself more now when I walk passed the bookies and don't get any urges when I've got my card, because it was slightly artificial when I didn't have my card because I couldn't have done anything anyway. However I am positive and although this is a long long road, i know I'm on the right track & this track is sort of like an express train. I've feel off once, I've had my relapse, but that was 7 weeks ago after 6 hard months. This time the months are going to be endless!

Onwards, Upwards & Forwards!!

Hi Eppy,

Sounds like your story has already started in a positive direction, you are coming back strongly from your relapse, and you're young enough to have caught this before it really developed into a bigger problem with debt and everything else that can happen.

Good positive start mate, keep up the good work!

Ryan