The start!!! day one

C'mon Nathan, you can do this!

Your family should provide you with all the motivation you need. Will you get them back if you quit gambling? I don't know but I do know that if you revert to gambling then you won't.

Harsh? Probably.....but it's time to change for the better buddy and I know you can make the right choice as it's the only choice given your circumstances.

Stick with it and trust me when I say it gets much easier after you see out the first few weeks of withdrawal and break the habit.

Good luck and always remember you can do this!

8 days clean still a struggle i did watch Ascot racing yesterday probably shouldn't cause of my temptation felt weird watching without a bet on not sure I will do it again anytime soon though.
Today been mixed emotions again fed up of the high and low moods going back to doctors tomorrow to sort my depressing out cause of how low I'm getting and tablets aren't working there making me worse. I'm hoping things get easier by end of month. I been having massive urges to gamble this past week but I need to stay strong and remember how low I feel now do I want to do it over and over again all ready done it so many times and relapsed cause of my weakness to leave it alone I hope this time it is I owe it to a lot of people and need to prove it to myself.

C'mon Nathan you CAN do this!

I'm not in a great position to hand out advice as you know from my thread but what I do know is how hard it is at first to break daily gambling habit. Key for me was to keep busy and don't over think what's in the past, only look to the future. Could have, would have and should haves help nobody so don't linger.

Stay strong, keep busy and get through these first few weeks and everything will get easier.

Thanks diceman12 and change for the advice. 9 days clean had the worst day ever been arguing with the ex and ruining things even more for myself and I may have lost my kids for awhile until I get my life sorted thinking way to much and becoming a problem to myself and others done some terrible things today broke my ex laptop normally it's through betting but not today it was anger but turns out was actually my fault and my gambling caused for us to split and for her to stop loving me. Need to stop feeling sorry for myself and sort my life out never been so close to death and not afraid to die which is more worrying. Need to grow up and take co trolley before its too late.

Stick with it Nathan, it will get easier and you'll start to see light at the end of the tunnel.

Stay strong, YOU CAN DO THIS!

Thanks I'm feeling better today made positive moves instead of looking at the negatives am 10 day clean and very slowly things are getting easier. I'm thinking a little more easily and no I need to keep thinking positive last week I felt like I had hit the self distruct button until I was left with nothing I almost feel still like I should be punished that my ex leaving me wasn't enough that I should keep getting lower until I've felt enough pain, its days like today I am great full for otherwise I would keep getting lower and lower until death. Maybe i need help retraining my brain to think more clearly and more positive tomorrow is another day so do I want to do the right things now or the wrong things. Need to keep to the plan I had from day one which I'm slowly getting away from I need to stay positive and look forward and movery on. My gambling has brought out uncharacteristical emotions physically and mentally I'm starting to understand abit why I gambled and what affect its had on me. My gambling has turned all my good attributes and turned them into bad ones anger, selfish, unresponsible, untrustworthy, pathetic, worthless, self loathing the list could go on and on with not many positives in fact no positives at the minute it's guna take time but slowly the man I used be hopefully come back and I regain a normal life with my family or at least my kids luckily for me my ex is arguably a good person she strong, good parent, helps others, she is everything I'm not at the minute which is why i think she left cause I lost my way badly she could no long be he person to support and help me it's not her fault I drained her and pushed her away all the time but enough negative need a positive week so here's to another day one thing is for sure I cannot go back to gambling and start the process over again it just isn't an option for me now I need to change.

Well done on 10 days Nath! You can do this!

Thanks change. 11 days clean and feeling loads better thinkig more cleary not think in negatively and things all ready looking better. Spent this morning with my daughter which was great and enjoying life again with a smile even though things are still bad but are getting better. Can't wait to get to a month clean.

12 days gamble free feeling great now not havd a low day in a few days now and feeling great again don't miss the bet at all at the moment hope this continues onwards and upwards.

Glad to hear you're starting to feel the positives of the positive decision you made to change your behaviour. Well done on what you've achieved so far and stay strong and focused.

Best wishes for the future.

Thanks to u both. Day 13 feeling ok hate the weekends though. But spending my time with my daughter, keeping myself busy which I'm enjoying. Been eliminating any chance to bet by using time location money which is helping on weekends. Feeling loads of positive I do need to becarefull not to get complacent though.

Hi Nathan, well done on changing your life. Thats one of the first things I derived pleasure from, was spending time with my family instead of feeling irritable, and consumed by thoughts of gambling. Though those urges do crop up when i am least expecting them, but they do go and I am glad I have made the right choices. Enjoy your weekend and lovely to read a positive post. take care Mary

16 days clean need to make sure I come on here daily. Been feeling up and down and been having dreams of gambling which I haven't had for a while which is worrying. I need to move on with my life but I'm struggling to do I don't know which path to go down to be honest still feel abit lost from quitting gambling and losing my family. On positive note I'm thinking btter but i can all ready feel myself wanting a bet to cheer myself up and to zone out I can't ruin what I have all ready achieved it's been tough 16 days and I have hurt a lot of people and myself in the past two weekswith my selfishness. Need to keep busy and stay positive it's hard on some days and to be positive everyday. I'm still heartbroken hat I have lost my family and probably never get them back and sometimes feel like what's the point. I'm 16 days clean though need to stay focused.

22 days clean feeling loads better had a good few days with my kids not though bout a in a bet goi g to keep myself busy this weekend to take my mind of any sports that's are on.

Good work Nathan. Approaching a month clean fast!

Well done and stick with it; I'm confident you will see the benefits of your labour.