Cheers dice. Am feeling great 23 days clean need to keep updating everyday. Weekend here again going for a game of snooker and guna av a few beers in sun. Am getting use to this no betting but still have urges espacially on weekends so guna keep myself busy have a good weekend.
26 days clean now feeling ok got my kids most of the week so will be putting all my effort into them and having fun doing different things with them. Going swimming with my daughter tmoz which I'm looking forward too. Not had any urges except for Saturday but manage to control them which is a good sign. It will get tough when jump season starts and football season starts all so.
32 days clean had a good few days feeling positive.
38 days clean now and things are loads better start new job today nothing special but gets me on my feet can start building from here weekend coming up and I got my beautiful kids so plan on doing something fun with them and keep away from any sporting activity that's on the telly вє hopefully can get out of my dad house now and get my own little place.
I've stopped sinking I think got my head above water now thinking better sleeping better but still miss not spending time with my family which I think has gone and won't be able to get my ex back. Looking after myself a lot better and fingers crossed I have another good month x
Good luck today with your new job Nathan and well done on reaching day 38, enjoy your weekend with the children and keep positive, we'll beat this one day at a time
42 days clean feeling great at the minute new job as spent weekend with my beautiful kids which was great. Stayed away from Wat hung sports apart from boxing but wasn't tempt by a bet onwards and upwards вє
46 days clean been a good week for me things are looking up guna try save some money up with the new job. Spending time with my daughter this weekend вє
I'm back again and you guessed It i went back and gambled like i said to myself just ten quid will be fine!!! I will never learn!!!
I had been doing well got to 46 days and that is the longest I have ever done without a bet which I suppose is a good thing. But I restarted gambling again cos I seen an offer for a horse and thought wow that's good so deposit just ten quid thought I will only do this once turns out the horse ended up not running and I had ten quid in my account I should of withdrawn it but the demons and my urges wanted a bet.
When I started again I won quiet abit for a while and thought maybe I just needed a break but nope as much as i want to convince myself I've won money I've lost alot of money again and saved nothing. I lost my whole wage a few times in a matter of minites on machine or betting silly on horses. I thought i was in control of my betting for first month and i was and that everything was fine but once I started gambling everything became a blur again zoned out and was betting til i lost everything.
This time I'm convinced I will quit because I believe it this time and I'm fed up of having no money I'm still living at my dads having split with my ex and see kids every weekend unless I've lost my money. I have no money again going into New year the only positive is I have been set on at work and now is the time to stop.
I don't no why but I always seem to gamble more at Christmas it gets out of control all the time at this time of the year. Since trying to quit last time i have not moved forward at all with my life if anything I've fallen further back and now to start at square one the worst thing is the effort I put in last time was wasted over one silly day.
I'm going to read my forum again from day one as i think it will help me although I'm in a bad way right now I no I've been in worse state so I'm feeling surprisingly confident this time round.
I'm feeling depressed and lonely again and have pushed my family and friends away again I had to quit football because I have my kids on weekends.
Here's to day 1 I hope i can do it this time.
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