Tranquility or Turmoil - My Choice

Thankyou for posting on my diary Boro.

I appreciate your words of encouragement and wish you every success in stopping gambling.

It is 7 days now since I last gambled and i am hoping this time I can stop it permanently.

I got out of bed, put on a sock and pleaded with my foot

"Please avoid the bookies until they are all shut"

Glancing than at my two legs I told them with a roar

"If we pass by a betting shop than don't walk through the door"

I ventured to the kitchen and had a cup of tea

My hands, my feet and trusted legs they're all a part of me

The brain is in control though and tells them what to do

So their message to the brainbox is "You stop gambling too."

On the move & in the groove

Nice & steady keep it smoothe

Watch the highs beware the lows

Days pass by as the river flows

On day 9 and heading for glory

Freedom calls & this is my story

Hi Stephen 

Good to see you doing well and keeping up the positive approach. 

Best Rob

Thankyou for the support and encouragement Rob. I see your nearly 3 months gamble free which is excellent.

It is now 10 days since I last had a bet and feeling ok.

Marching on, singing a song, a-moving and a-grooving and rocking along.

Keep it up pall. We are all behind you 

Many thanks for visiting my diary Boro.

Summer is well and truly upon us. The days are longer and plenty of activities on offer to distract our minds from thoughts of gambling.

Just enjoyed a breakfast so my belly is full

Gazing on the Humber as it flows past Hull

A cloudy day of sunshine and showers 

But I'm gamble free and that's all that matters

It is the third Sunday in June which means its fathers day. A day reserved for fathers to be honoured by their children. I send my best wishes and respect to all the fathers out there who are loving, caring and supportive towards their children.

However, my thoughts today are with the people who have felt left out or neglected because they never had a father or whose father was absent and my extra special thoughts go out to children whose fathers treat them badly or have done so in the past.

I know it is a day of celebration for many people and I do not wish to put a dampener on the party mood but I ask people to spare a thought for those who are suffering or who have suffered through emotional, physical and sexual abuse inflicted upon them by fathers or father figures.

From conversations I have had with friends over the years, I believe that such abuse is widespread and many victims choose to suffer in silence through shame, guilt and fear.

I send my best wishes, loving thoughts and compassion to all those who are suffering now or are haunted by past events.

Please give love and understanding to your inner child. Living with painful memories can affect one badly throughout one's entire life.

I believe peace and happiness can be found but traumatic experiences need to be laid to rest.

Harbouring resentment, bitterness or hatred just eats away at the victim, so in a way, the perpetrator of the abuse continues with the abuse even though they may be dead and gone.

I will finish this rant by wishing everyone a happy 16th June.

Stephen x 

Triggering for most cases is self punishment so you have to find your triggering then you can bet your gambling urges positive way

Go ahead, surely you can overcome friends 

Wish u better 16 as well

Ok come on lad, keep away from your usual bookie haunts, plan a different way of life.

ive gambled for 35 years and it came to a point that it HAD to stop, I won’t relapse, I know how easy that is to say but I know in my heart this is my last chance.

if I can do this you can, keep going.look forward pal....do this once and for all

At 1141 this morning I posted the thoughts, feelings and sentiments I had regarding fathers day.

I am confused because the 4 replies which have followed my post don't seem to have any relevance to what I wrote in my diary and to be perfectly honest I consider them rather flippant remarks about what I consider to a serious subject.

Thankyou anyway for visiting my diary and hope you have a good day.

Stephen 

I think something is amiss SS!

Hi Stephen,

One of the most touching posts I have read In a while! Thank you so much for putting it down, it does speak volumes.

Father figure is such massive part in everyone's life. Even tho if my dad was mostly absent in my childhood due to excessive working hours so he can put food on the table, he has and still is my role model. I have up most respect and love for him. I also believe, i have many traits from him....and one of those is never ending determination and strengh to keep pushing on. He has very kind heart too, he will never turn his back on someone and will go miles to help other's in need...

My father's day was last Sunday (different country) and I truly wanted to give him a massive hug on this occasion. I hope and believe, my sister passed it on as she was visiting them at the time ?

I see so many dysfunctional families with my work. Sometimes it upsets or angers me how things are for poor kids...and you also mention neglect and abuse here and unfortunately, this is way too common in this day and age.

I too urge every suffering soul to come forward. Nobody has to live with demons from the past or present.

May I take this opportunity to wish you a peaceful and loving father's day. ..once a father - always a father ?

Have a good one!

Thank you for your support and kind words on my thread.

S&B xx