What a day!

Hey Q.I

Sorry not been in touch - have had sore arm and cold myself. Hope you are feeling better now.

Take care.

Lady Feb.

Cheeky sneaky Irene:)

Thanx for popping by darling, i did get out of work for the rest of the night yesterday. Too much pressure build up in recent days, so i just use the opportunity to use some free time company owed me:) lazy...i know lol

Fantastic days/weeks/months you racking up in here! Go girl, go and never turn back!

Be proud, you doing amazing

Take care

Sandra x

((((((((((((((( Irene )))))))))))))))

I hate crying, but it is happy tears....getting my senses back....i will get there...as i said i better spend money for something more useful:-)

Ty ty ty........ Sandra xxxx

Hope todays better S x

day 307

Nightshift weekend 🙁

Its sooo cold. Times passing so quickly, autumnal already with early dark nights and mornings-yuk!

Hi there

hope your cold is better, have developed a sore throat too so just wondering if same saying applies and chocolate compress required.

Hope it is nice and warm at work, can't believe how cold it feels today on the river - as you say - yuk.

Stay safe

xxx

Awww DF- hope you feel better soon- choc highly recommended x

Day 308=44 weeks gamble free

Post nightshift fatigue......struggling after 3 weekends off. I shouldn't really moan because it pays the mortgage 🙁

Back to "real job" tomorrow with a mega busy couple of weeks looming, which I'm looking forward to.

The autumnal feeling is rapidly becoming winter- like........we have rain and wind storms today. Me and Paddy went out earlier and even he wanted home to bed!

Gamble wise, things are going OK. I kinda dislike saying that because it usually precedes some upset- not this time hopefully.

How quickly is this year passing? Its now more than 10 months since I gambled which is a fantastic achievement, yet one I couldn't have imagined when I stopped........things haven't improved massively financially. My attitude to money has though. Instead of the debt hole getting deeper, I'm paying them off slowly. I now think about expenditure instead of mindlessly feeding my hard earned dosh into a virtual account. I'm not going to list all the good stuff at this time, just going to mention that I'm so grateful for what I've learned and changed over the months to make my life more fulfilling.

On the winter theme, I have no access to any form of credit this year so starting to think about Christmas pressies nice and early (only a couple more paydays). I will not panic about this or avoid the festivities, instead I will plan and be prepared to have a fab time 🙂

Hey Irene,

Thanx for popping by....and night shift!....yuk!!!!!! ( back tomorrow lol )

Anyways, good stuff up here darling, saying about Christmas shopping...i haven't started mine yet, but my mate i share house with, already finished!!!! d**n i'm slow lol:)

10 months girl.......all i can say...WELL DONE and KEEP IT UP 🙂

((((((( Irene)))))))

Sandra x

Hi Irene

Small point but 7's into 308 is actually 44... so 44 weeks gambling free! Good going!! 😉

Thanks (again) SA for spotting my poor arithmetic- duly amended yesterday's post 🙂

Day 309

Had a good Monday. It's been a busy start to the week. I went to work feeling refreshed and raring to go (unheard of on a Monday!)

How then, did thoughts of gambling sneak in?? I had a very fleeting moment of what I could do if I won......rapidly replaced by a reminder of how S***e I'd feel when I lost. In my heart, I know that even if the "win" happened I'd lose all the progress I've made and I'm not prepared to give that up.

I enjoyed my Monday "core fitness" class and am feeling very self righteous that I'm back at it after having a week off last week (girl flu!)

I'm also dog-sitting whilst my sis is away, so had the mutts out for a windy and wet walk- jeez this weather's miserable!

Hey Irene ..

Just to echo Sandra and SA there with the good vibes and also to say that you're right about the weather ..it's dark and stormy here but I have the opposite problem in so far as unlike Paddy ...Dots and her pal want to go out!!!

no way ho-sey ...I'm in and staying in xxx

Hey Irene,

Well i'm just getting confused with all ur days gamble free. My maths is c.... i hav to say, i will b lucky to count to 200 lol ( joking...) All i can say, well done for getting another one out of the way lol! Keep going strong:-)

Sandra x

Day 310

Not long home from work....."big day" tomorrow so been working hard with the guys. Too busy to think of gambling today 🙂

Day 311

Fab evening 🙂

Knackered though, but good knackered......I'll catch up more tomorrow.

Day 312

I'm feeling really guilty......my friend's trying to arrange a reunion next month with a bunch of women with whom I worked for many years. She thinks I'm being a funny B*****r because I'm making excuses not to go- I cant tell them the real reason is that I can't spare any £ for a big night out- I struggled financially after the last one (different pals) and cant afford that with Christmas looming. I've suggested a lunch get together (which should be cheaper).

Oh diary......the pressure's starting to get to me again.......got yet another letter from a "debt recovery" company. Luckily, my CAB advisor's back from a/l and dealing with it. I know that these things are routinely generated, yet despite trying to remain positive, I still feel crappy-I hate this situation. I'm avoiding answering the phone again and generally sense I'm withdrawing myself from life.

Even to read that doesn't make sense to me. I'm going out to gym and exercise classes. I feel like I'm closer to my bestie, yet avoiding other people in my life.....deep down I'm still so ashamed of my gambling and don't want to be "found out" for being a failure. Its much easier to be with strangers who wont see through the façade.

I'm of an age where I should be financially stable and enjoying my life- that was always my plan. Instead, I need to hide the fact that I'm in deep S***e financially.

I'm puzzled as to why these feelings are here now- this is the way my mind wanders when I'm pratted. I still have enough in the bank to stretch till next payday if I'm careful.

On a happier note, work's an absolute joy this month. Despite several late evenings and a work event Sunday looming, its a really exciting time and well worth the effort.

hey Irene

I can relate to a lot you are saying there..even though I know the system when that letter arrives it really throws me and I'm on the phone to SC needing reassurance ...

There is also a big dispcrepency between where I should be and where I am , so I get that too and watching the pennies despite having a second job and I'm also hiding .

you are not alone Irene...we shall get through this by hook or by crook..xxxx