Ok so I have a few diary entries on here, and I'm still battling to beat this. I do feel I am improving but I'm still playing. Still addicted. I have just won a few hundred on a game.. Or should I say won back some loses and I'm trying so hard not to cancel my pending withdrawal and play for longer. They don't make it easy to just walk away!! How's everyone doing? I'm trying so hard to keep in control but I just want to give up and walk away forever, gambling has ruined my life and left me with piles of debts 🙁
Hi angie6050
Today is my first day gamble free - have a long road ahead but I've realised you will never win gambling or recover your losses. If anything you will end up more in debt.
Gambling has ruined my life and I am up to my eyes in debt but today is a fresh start. Take one day at a time.
Jodie x
Thats so true Jodie. In the last 3 and a half years the longest I've gone is 2 months. And I was happy in them two months, I had control! Then it got the better of me and I placed a bet. I now have a debt management plan and still, I find myself borrowing money and spending my wages as soon as I get them. We will get there, like you say one step at a time. We are in the right place to get help. Good luck on your journey, Angie x
I have been gambling for about 4 years now myself - longest I have stopped was 7months. I was a completely different person, I hate the person I become when gambling. The debts I have to sit down and sort out it will take a very long time to clear. But most of all I want to become the old me 4 years ago. Good luck and I will keep a look out of your diary.
May I ask how old you are? I am 25 next month so my motivation is I am still young enough to turn my life around 🙂
Jodie x
Hi Jodie. Thanks for your message. Well done on the 7 month break, we can both show we can do it :). Just played with the rest of my winnings which I knew I would do :(.. but now closed my account and tomorrow will once again begin at day 1. I am 23 so similar age to yourself, and yes we are defiantly young enough to turn our life's around 🙂 if your struggling with debts, have a look at StepChange, I think they are the only reason I can sleep at night. I look forward to hearing from you. Angie x you're life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change 🙂
Hey Angie, well done on coming to the site again.
i know how hard it is to stop. i have been battling for many years now and also have its of debts to pay off.
i managed to stop on 06/01/14 and i can't begin to tell you how much better my life is. it was initially very hard, i constantly wanted to go back to gambling, chasing that big win, chasing the adrenaline rush.
when the urges come you forget about the losses, and can only think of the big win that is coming your way.
So what has changed?? well i hit rock bottom the big win never came and i ended up with not a penny to my name . i am coming up to 80 days, i rarely get urges and rarely think of it now.
i have re leant the value of money, i feel positively rich compared to how i was when i was gambling, all of my money went on bets or was fed into machines. I can't believe what i used to do.
I guess what i am trying to say is.... life is better without it, money starts to sort itself out, the big win isn't coming ... the big loss is just around the corner. It just takes 2 weeks and you will notice the difference.
best of luck
Thanks Talbs. Well done!! you are an inspiration. I hope I can say the same in a few weeks. I long for the day I feel normal again and learn the value of money. Thanks for your support. Good luck on your journey, your doing amazing! Angie x
Hi, welcome and here's to a fresh start. I am 25 and have been gambling for 3 years, mainly online, but by god its addictive. Got into 15k of debt just because I kept thinking I could turn it around by throwing loads of borrowed money at a dead cert only to see them fail. I am actually clean for 80+ days but still have thoughts and just miss the rush but I know it will only get me deeper in debt. There is much more to life and once you stop and money is actually paying off debts or being saved, you realise you no longer have to lie to people or turn down a trip or a night out because of having no money. Seriously stop now before it gets worse because it wont get easier by carrying on.
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