Oh and what did you do the essay on in the end?
Done and dusted! done it on art therapy and depression pretty interesting!
Had some more counselling this evening went very well! only 2 sessions left which makes me feel a bit sad! going to do the last one face to face as some of the advice I feel has made a huge difference and would like to thank my counsellor and meet her.
Realised it was around the 27th of march when I stopped gambling which means tomorrow is the first time i've ever reached 50 days gamble free. A day to celebrate and be proud.
Can see the light at the end of the tunnel just need to keep working hard and being patient. Gambling is a thing of the past for me I want to enjoy the present and the future. It's been difficult knowing this work has been weighing me down and leading to some miserable thoughts and posts whilst knowing once it was out the way I would be able to feel better.
Hi Stone
You sound like a very bright and insightful person and are perhaps drawn to mental health for that reason. This should mean you respond well to therapy and counselling which is a bonus. A major essay is draining but, like many things, hugely rewarding once it is done. A bit like building up a period of not gambling. All an investment in you. Well done and hope this leads you onto a profession you enjoy. Isn't it great you're tackling this issue now instead of burying your head in the sand? Like a lot of people on here, just brilliant and so honest.
Thankyou yeah the counselling seems to have worked on the whole this is the longest i've been gamble free but haven't really had time to apply some of the workings of it due to busy work life and a huge amount of uni work to do with it being final year!
Yeah it was about time i had relapsed and relapsed and buried my head in the sand for too long the counselling was the final push of accepting I just needed a little more help to finally beat this.
Final lessons of uni tomorrow 3 years it's been a rollercoaster and a huge effort, got another essay back the other day which i got 75 for so really am on course for a first! got a presentation tomorrow been anxious about it but really trying to relax and hoping I can pull it off! although no more lessons after tomorrow still got one more essay due but not worried about that it's only a small one! the relief and pride is massive at the moment.
Soon will be able to try eating better, going running, moving to the city, stopping smoking, debts can continue to be tackled. more of a social life, everything is coming together nicely.
Gamble free for well over 50 days now never thought i'd say that. Starving the addiction a day at a time!!
Well presentation went very well, sometimes wonder what all the worry and anxiety is about! 3 years of uni done just need to wait a month for all my results! nursing a hangover today!
had the odd urge today but nothing too worrying keep starving the addiction!
onwards and upwards.
winning at last.
Brilliant news that you've done your uni time. A good education is something that will stay with you throughout and is well worth the effort. I look at my little girl and want her to have choices in life and, for me, getting educated is one major way to increase those options.
One day at a time then every day you win.
Yeah your right! I have learnt a lot. Value of hard work, never giving up, new skills, discipline, patience, coping with pressure and probably more. Would advise anyone to do it as the cards are in my hand now work wise.
Think i need to find something to fill my time now next goal is to settle down and focus on maybe starting running. Looking forward to moving out and carrying on with a gamble free life.
Off to work very tired but content this morning.
Well a long day began my healthy eating and been for a 5 mile walk at work! feel good for it!
got feedback from my presentation last week and got another first which im so proud of!
Time to relax, enjoying life gamble free! got a bit more spare time now uni is done with hopefully be able to fill it constructively over the summer months!
Healthy eating continues and been for another four mile walk on my shift today. Not much else to report other than still gamble free.
Another day chalked off.
Oh Stone, so lovely to see you dropping by 🙂 I started a post to you yesterday about how I had my fingers crossed for a First but I realised I know naff all about degrees apart from an ex getting a Clive Dunne (or however it's spelled) & I didn't want to jinx it if it is or put any pressure on like I may have done before!
It's wonderful to see you making such positive changes in your life whilst it is all in front of you 🙂
Hell, I'm proud of you!
Keep fighting kiddo - ODAAT
Hi Stone, Thanks for popping by.
It s great to read such positive posts from you, well done you on your gambling free time, and your Uni results.
The future is there just keep making those right choices. and WIN big in every way.
Suzanne xxx
nice one for the messages!
Seem to have had more thoughts about gambling today bit hard to explain but made me feel uneasy and like I couldnt relax, perhaps its because i've not got the study distracting me and keeping me focused and motivated so more room for gambling thoughts! had an hour to kill between shifts so time, money and location was available but resisted the punt I know where that would lead got to keep starving the addiction!
Still eating well and been for a 6 mile walk today. 22 miles walked since saturday, hopefully get back into my running soon and got my move to the city coming soon which are things to keep me achieving and busy!
Will not be turning my back on recovery the benefits far outweigh the miserable life of a compulsive gambler.
Hi there
Sounds like you're doing well and your high level of self awareness will help with all of this. Like someone else said to me, put all the blocks in place to support you and then be vigilant.
Walking sounds great.
Blue 🙂
Thanks yeah the blocks are firmly in place!
Well i've not slept last night got struck down by a brutal toothache had planned to go to uni today to make a start on my final essay. Instead hopefully will be able to catch up on some sleep and relax and watch the cricket. Then out to see a band tonight and sink a few beers.
Gamble free, very much looking forward to summer and proud of my achievements to date. I am a lot happier within myself and i'm sure things will continue to improve the longer i keep making the right decisions.
I think i'm on about 57 days of recovery, I never thought i'd fully accept and overcome this addiction or that I would type that.
Such amazing progress. Truly happy for you. Well done.
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